You are our rabbit fairy.
I'm not a rabbit in Malanhua.
It was dark outside the window and many children were sleeping. She thought that the windows of those healthy children must be covered with stars.
I can't remember how many times I have been awake in this dream. In the dream, she is a smooth-faced, flawless Snow White. After waking up, she has been sweating and suffering-her mouth still can't open normally.
It turned out that in the southern coastal city, she and her parents had a warm nest. Her father is a civil servant and her mother is a teacher. Everything has changed because of her child with congenital cleft lip.
When she was sensible, her parents took her to the cinema to watch the domestic black-and-white film "Malanhua" several times, because they told her that she was a lovely little rabbit in Malanhua, and she had rabbit lips because she jumped into the world to be the child of her parents.
Because of her parents' deep love and beautiful rabbit fairy's lies, she had a happy childhood like other children except the inconvenience caused by rabbit lips.
It's time for school, and her parents tried their best to send her to a key primary school.
At school, wherever she goes, the children will exclaim. Gradually, those beautiful lies about rabbit fairy rabbit were punctured like soap bubbles in the wind. She has to face those evasive eyes every day, fearing that the surprise in her pupils will hurt her fragile self-esteem. In such eyes, she felt like an eroded stone, waiting for the years to peel off bit by bit. Since primary school, she went to the biggest library in the city to read a lot of relevant materials on holidays. Although she doesn't know many words and doesn't understand many medical languages at all, she already knows that the main cause of rabbit lips is heredity, or all kinds of pollution and damage to the mother.
Gradually, she began to hate her parents and they gave her this look.
Love is not known until it hurts.
Every time grandma comes to the country, she will sigh at her for a long time, or ask her mother in a low voice to let her take her to the country to raise. For grandma, my mother always said that she was confused, the rural conditions were so poor, and her parents were not around. How to educate children? Although the child has rabbit lips, she should have everything a healthy child should have.
She always sneers silently in her small bedroom. How can she be like a healthy child? It is always inconvenient to eat and drink water, and it is basically unnecessary to talk, because everyone who listens is troublesome.
With the increase in the number of medical visits, she already knows that the best treatment period for rabbit lips is less than one year old, and she has missed it! Therefore, she hates these two people named Mom and Dad even more. When she puts on her newly bought clothes, she always comes back with a cut, saying that she accidentally pulled it, but in fact she scratched it herself with a pencil sharpener; Her favorite dish, she chose a chopstick and didn't eat it, saying it was terrible.
Once after school, she actually saw her mother coming out of the class teacher's office. When the teacher and mother said goodbye, both of them wiped their tears with their sleeves.
She gritted her teeth and ran home, shouting to her mother intermittently in the hall, "Are you-want the teacher to take care of me again?" I don't need you to do this. You gave birth to me-now-want to-atone! "
My mother shook her hands in fear and shivered, trying to reach out and hug her, but she grabbed the corner nervously with tears in her eyes, but she never fell down.
Dad rushed out of the kitchen and held his mother in his arms. Dad held out his hand angrily. She closed her eyes and still shouted fiercely: "If you want to fight, fight. Anyway, there is a rabbit-lipped daughter like me-you are also disgraced! "
The sound of "pa" was crisp, but her face didn't feel any pain. When she opened her eyes, her father slapped her in the face: "What a loser. I haven't saved enough money to see my daughter, which makes my wife and daughter very miserable. I am still a man! "
She was afraid and ran back to her room. A few minutes later, her parents changed their smiling faces and came in to invite her to dinner. It seems that the storm just now never happened.
Later, however, they accelerated the process of treating her. They took her to a city in the north for treatment, so they decided to sell their house and quit their jobs.
The night before he left, my uncle found them with my grandmother. Grandma scolded them: "You are the eldest son and daughter-in-law, haven't you ever thought about taking our parents over to support the elderly in the future?" How can you sell your house and resign? For such a rabbit-lipped child? "
Dad pulled his mother to kneel down to grandma and said a lot of self-reproach words. Dad said that the couple would be filial to the elderly, but now they have to treat their daughter first.
When she was young, she curled up in the bathroom and watched grandma and them walk for a long time. Mom and dad are still kneeling on the ground. On their faces, sadness, pain and strength are intertwined. She can't bear to watch it. She always thought that she hated her parents, but now she knows that her heart is so painful. She came out quietly, although her footsteps were slight, but she was still shocked by the two people kneeling on the ground.
They looked at each other nervously and immediately stood up, holding her hand, and their faces instantly recovered their usual warmth. They bent down and asked her if she was hungry. What do you want to eat? My parents will do it.
She threw herself into their arms and began to cry silently.
You are our forever rabbit elf.
After the third operation, she already knew that she needed another repair operation, and there would be scars on her lips. She still smiles unnaturally. No matter how hard she tries to learn to speak, she still can't pronounce as clearly as a normal child. Thinking of the pain she suffered in every operation and still living with the mark of a rabbit-lipped child, she ran to the hospital and cried under an apple tree.
Mother wiped her tears and pointed to the apples with many branches in early autumn and said to her, "Ann, look, not all apples are intact, some are particularly thin, and some are scarred, but these imperfect apples, like those that grow every day, will eventually form a bumper harvest?" ? They have experienced the same spring, summer and autumn, experienced sunshine and rain, and laughed at the end! "
In the ward, a few months old baby has been crying, and the young mother is nursing her. Children with rabbit lips are particularly bad at eating and can't suck their nipples. Adults have been choking their throats and windpipes when feeding. Other parents gathered around to help, and the mother collapsed on the windowsill, covered her face with her hands and sobbed silently.
She just watched the adults take care of the baby. Time seems to have returned to the past, and she was once a crying baby. How many days and nights, my father always held her in my memory, and my mother gently fed her food for fear that she would choke herself. It was not until she was eight years old that she began to eat by herself.
The sunshine fell in, and she thought, for the hardship of parents' feeding, even if it is such a difficult feeding, she should stubbornly enjoy her own sunshine.
She bravely followed her parents to the food stall to sell beef noodles and asked them to send her to school. She also knows that whenever she opens her mouth, someone will cover her mouth and smile. She knows that when she smiles at others, others will think she is unnatural. However, she still insisted on making her own voice and showing her smile.
17 years old, they finally returned to their hometown. She has become a real happy angel. It never occurred to her that there would always be an unknown page in the book of life.
Because of her new ID card, she finally accidentally opened an unknown page. Mom and dad are type B blood, and she is type A blood. Parents are both type B blood, and children can only be type B or O.
She finally understands why her grandmother's family is so indifferent to her, and why many acquaintances often say that mom and dad are not worth paying for her. She was originally a harelip abandoned by her biological parents, who adopted her. And she, for many years, has been hating them, hurting them, rejecting their love and constantly making them sad.
A week later, her parents took her to the welfare home. Later, she finally knew that she had been one of the orphans in the welfare home. My mother lost her fertility because of an illness, so she went to the welfare home to adopt her. However, why choose her as a child with rabbit lips?
Mother said with tears in her eyes, "Ann, it's too difficult to feed a rabbit-lipped child. The aunts in the welfare home cried while feeding. Mom and Dad felt that the aunts were too tired to take care of them. Besides, you are really cute when you smile ... "
Dad said with difficulty: Son, as a child with harelip, you really missed the best treatment period, because when we hugged you, you were almost two years old, so ... over the years, we have been sad about it ... but we think that when you grow up and know your life experience, you will cherish happiness more and work harder.
She cried with tears, so sweet and so warm-her mother said in her ear, "Baby, remember, you will always be our rabbit fairy ..."
Adopt it! !