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Maoren wears a simple wedding dress. Some people speculated that she was pregnant, but they withdrew their eyes from her flat abdomen in disappointment.
Wedding is the basic configuration of small cities. The man's family is not bad, and he likes extravagance and waste. Not exquisite, but still luxurious. This hotel is basically full, and there are weddings upstairs and downstairs. I almost walked around.
The whole world is getting married.
There was a light show at the beginning, and it was quite late when it arrived. I slowly left a place for me, an empty bride table.
My eyes couldn't find the bride, but I was dazzled by the light. I grabbed a glass on the table and the light suddenly came on. A line of words lit up on the big screen.
I wish the groom Zhu Yuan and the bride Mao Man love each other for ten years and finally get married!
A famous line, the scrolling screen flashed with joy, and there was a wave of applause below. In the era of fast food, the word "ten years" is accurately rooted in people's hearts, and the label is full of affection.
People nowadays are really strange. Can time prove anything? Three or five days together is not as good as three or five years together.
This is what Mao Man asked me. Five days ago, she was drunk and told me that she was getting married and invited me to be her maid of honor.
There was a meeting that day, so I don't think she had time, so she had to give up. I feel a little sorry, too. Think of ten years ago, when they were girls with horns, I made an agreement with her to be bridesmaids for each other.
She smiled and said, it doesn't matter. What do you regret? It doesn't matter if the maid of honor is not your best friend. In this wedding, even the groom is not the person you want to marry most.
This is simply disrespectful. I booed her. It was really a mountain out of a molehill. Sitting in a food stall drinking, a group of old men shouted, "Let's do it first. Not a brother. Who cares about the sour topic of two women in their thirties? "
Ten years. It seems difficult for outsiders to stay together for a long time, but youth is fleeting. Even as a bystander, I think this decade is a matter of a flick of the finger. Yesterday, the radio was still singing "Orchids and Flowers", and suddenly the piano began to play "Wedding March".
The host was talking, but a voice appeared in my ear.
Ten years ago, Zhu Yuan came running from far away, put a rose into a slow hand, and slowly approached the rose with a surprised face, and then screamed loudly.
There is a bug in the rose petals, a young man's prank, and several boys gloat in front, slowly throwing it to the ground and stepping on it angrily.
Did you love when you were young? It is not the kind of love that is silent in the hazy years, but that he plays tricks on you and you are angry and anxious, but you are looking forward to your next prank. Although I didn't have puppy love, I was smart early and slowly told Zhu Yuan that you liked her. She glared at me and said don't talk nonsense. I patted the table and said that I had gambled on breakfast for a week.
Ten days later, I won the first free breakfast in my life. The buyer is not Mao Ren, but Zhu Yuan.
If you fall in love in middle school, you won't think so far. What oath is just vague that it will never exist. There is nothing suitable, only what I like or dislike.
How simple it was at that time, a candy can get a smile, but it is also a grain of sand, which will hurt.
Youth stops in the rosy sunset, and two people sitting by the river turn around together. I ran towards them and suddenly stopped.
The slow smile on her face is really beautiful. On the day of graduation from senior three, she told me for the first time that I would marry Zhu Yuan in the future.
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In fact, they have never been a good partner. Mao Man is an excellent student in the school. He has been strong and enterprising since he was a child. Zhu Yuan is a young rich second generation. His business family didn't expect much from him, and he educated his son with the idea that money can level the world. It happened that in the third year of high school, his family's business was in waterloo, and all the investments were locked up. Getting it out is still a problem in my life. But it doesn't matter, Zhu Jia's little real estate is also a small local tyrant, but it seems that there is no chance to become a big local tyrant in a short time.
18 years old is not a realistic age. Maoman has been living a very girlish life, which is nothing. Even if Zhu Yuanjia sells iron, she can accompany him to drink porridge and eat vegetables. Besides, she has hands and feet. What are you afraid of?
They are not far apart in the university. Mao slowly entered a key school while muddling along in a small university.
Others saw the gap, but it was inappropriate for her to have a quiet meal with his group of friends, but Brother Mao didn't complain.
I slowly come out for coffee once in a while. At first, Zhu Yuan invited us to dinner occasionally. Later, it was rare. I don't think he likes slow laps. Very quiet and boring. Actually, so am i. If a group of people are talking about topics that I don't understand and are not interested in, I will also want to add some sleeping pills to the cup.
At that time, I was talking about a love affair, a campus romance, and my senior played the guitar, so he was a man of the hour, but after drinking, he told me the truth, an ancient family background and a childhood shadow. Finally, he choked up and said, you are the first person I told. At that time, my distress turned into a heartbeat. When I held my outstretched hand, I suddenly remembered the smile on my face in the rosy air in the third year of high school. It should be the same as mine.
I was slow at the time. Look at you. Don't you want to change it?
Girls gossip about everything, and girlfriends are reckless. Mao Man and I analyzed the gap between her and Zhu Yuan. She shook her head and said, what are these? I hope I like them. You too?
She simply hummed a song, believing that love can last forever, and that even a simple meal can make life wonderful all her life. As long as that person is with her and does not hold hands, it will be beautiful when she is old.
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When did Mauman stop loving him?
At this time, the MC finally said the same thing, and the bride on the stage took Zhu Yuan's ring slowly. The groom took the receiver and choked. He is not good at formal speeches. Although he is handsome enough on weekdays, after all, it is the first time to get married, a little stiff, but full of affection, he said.
"Wife, we have gone through ten years of ups and downs, and my feelings for you have to testify this time. Diamonds, like my love for you, will never change. "
The audience applauded. I stared at her face, only to find that there was a cold smile on her mouth, which was fleeting and turned into an excited expression. Then I hugged and kissed, and the illusion-like contempt disappeared.
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In my sophomore year, I broke up. The seniors hooked up with the juniors, or the primary school girls ran over and cried and begged me to let go. She told me, senior, do you know? The seniors are actually very bitter. He told me about his family. In fact, many things have happened to him ... He didn't tell you, did he? He said it was the first time he told this story because he thought I understood him ... I felt sorry for him. ...
Full of affectionate stories, the same way of picking up girls, I was blindsided at that time and pretended to be free and easy to say, "You like it, you can take it." Senior has a class to attend, can you make way? "
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Slow hair is not so handsome. At that time, she was in the hospital with acute gastroenteritis. On the night of Mid-Autumn Festival, a person was sitting in the hospital, and the liquid in the infusion bottle was poured into her body rhythmically, while Zhu Yuan was watching a concert with a girl. And my bloody roommate also went to the concert. In the photos posted on the Internet, she recognized Zhu Yuan in the crowd at a glance.
At that time, her head was blank for three minutes, then she unplugged the infusion tube and called her roommate to ask where she was. She stumbled downstairs and fell awkwardly. Where is the spasm in her stomach? Her heart was stirred by something and her blood was blurred.
She didn't find her Zhu Yuan at the crowded concert gate. She cleverly gave him a scare and caught the rape, but somehow, this courage was quickly exhausted by despair. On that day, someone must remember that there was a girl crying on the steps of the concert exit, which was earth-shattering Then she picked up the phone and shouted at the person on the phone.
"Zhu Yuan, where are you ... oh ... where am I? .. I was hit by a car! "
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The stronger a person is, the more vulnerable she is. She is such a typical example. It was a long time before she opened the scar with me. It has been half a year since she and Zhu Yuan got back together. I didn't notice the change in her eyes. Gentle hair slow, eyes began to show contempt and calm. She pointed to her heart and said, do you know sadness? Imagine that you spent many years building a castle in this heart. Bang, it was knocked down and disappeared ... Then she smiled, squinted and suddenly hugged my shoulder.
"Stop it. It's all life. "
I am stubborn about a problem.
"Do you still love him?"
Mao leisurely didn't answer.
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"Wife, I love you!" After the kissing ceremony, the groom's face was full of tears, and many people at the table also cried, so that every heart, liver, spleen and lungs were shaking. A high school classmate at the next table sat down and chatted with me.
"You see your girlfriends are married, when will you?"
I hate being asked this, but I still have a smile on my face.
Almost three or five years, thirteen years? Well, fate doesn't arrange such a person for me. What can I do? It seems that these people all have sexual skills and can quickly find good objects from the crowd. Are you kidding?
But that person may be really envious, look at the newcomers on the stage and say, "I really envy them, ten years."
Ten years.
Don't judge heroes by success or failure, and don't judge lovers by length.
I don't know how the world works. Ten years of love into marriage is admirable, and three months of congenial quick certification is criticized, and it is not responsible to keep love fresh quickly. However, is it worth flaunting the kind that eats expired food for life?
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I think that if Mr. X didn't show up, I might be happier at this moment.
Although the castle was knocked down, the prince in the castle stood there with a black face and said to her, I'm sorry, it's my fault. Shall we build another one?
However, some people can only build one castle in their lifetime. If it collapses, maybe something else can be piled up in the future, such as a small garden building, a seaside villa, a tall building, a construction site and a farmer's house, but I just don't want to pile another castle for her.
Sometimes, I am glad that my love has a low starting point. Over the years, I have been in love and changed many boyfriends. They are hypocritical, pretentious and occasionally affectionate. It's no big deal to get along together. If you don't get along well, you will be separated. But Mao's dullness is different. Although she already knew that she couldn't love Zhu Yuan wholeheartedly as before, she didn't realize that she didn't love him anymore. There will never be a moment when the heart beats faster, there will never be an impulse to look at each other when we are apart, and there will never be an expectation when waiting for the phone.
There is also a sense of security. I don't care if I lose it for a long time.
Maonan seldom cries to me. She didn't call me when she was lovelorn, but once, she suddenly called me and told me that I didn't know what fearless was, and I was afraid that I didn't love you. I understand now.
Zhu Yuan has not been idle these years, building castles for other girls. Mao Man no longer cares. She said verbally, "He plays with him and I play with me." Although there are many social parties, I know her bottom line. She wouldn't do that kind of revenge to keep her balance. Besides, when you don't love, you are too lazy to make those meaningless "balances".
So when she said this to me, I was annoyed and knew that she was serious this time.
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Mao Man works in a film and television company. In a recent cooperation project, X was a screenwriter. At the group meeting, he told a joke to enliven the atmosphere, which was quite funny. But Mao slowly twisted his brow and didn't laugh. He got a knock on the heart. Finally, after the meeting, he accosted and said, hey, Amanda, you don't seem too happy?
Mao Man is a wise man, clutching his stomach and saying bitterly, in fact, your jokes are very funny, but I can't laugh. I have a stomachache.
Coincidentally, it was also the Mid-Autumn Festival. He took her to the hospital, ran around, and finally sat with her in a blue chair and had an infusion bottle. The two of them chatted with each other, just like old friends.
After hanging the bottle, he offered to send her back or have some porridge, but Mao Man was wary of crossing the line and directly said, "I asked my boyfriend to pick me up."
X paused, politely picked up her bag and said, OK, I'll take you downstairs.
Mauman is careful with every step he takes. There has been no such moment in her life for a long time. Some are top-heavy, probably because of illness and intravenous drip.
The phone is connected, and the other end of the phone is very noisy. She asked, will you pick me up?
Zhu Yuan said, Oh, dear, I can't leave here at once. Can you get off?
oh Wine and meat occasions are naturally inseparable. She hung up the phone and said to the person behind, X, you go first. Thank you.
X is very considerate, he said, you're welcome, you should. Pay attention to your health, acute gastroenteritis, eat something light and let your boyfriend buy you porridge to drink.
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X is wearing a trench coat, thin and tall, tall and straight, with a straight nose and a beautiful voice, not to mention being a screenwriter, which is very bad for her. She looked at his back and lost her mind for a moment. Then I reacted. In the autumn wind, I tore off the gauze on the pinhole, revealing a little red dot. Then I turned on my cell phone to locate it.
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Zhu Yuan is in a nightclub. She quickly got into the car and looked room by room, and finally found him in the most luxurious box. He hugged a well-dressed girl and was singing a song that was said to have been sung only to her.
When she first understood his infidelity in her girlhood, she longed for a hearty witness, but now her heart is cold, and seeing the scene of cooking oil again makes it difficult for her to have a surge of emotion. Is it because she is old?
She touched her heart, no sadness, no disappointment, nothing, empty ruins.
A waiter came up to her and asked her, miss, are you looking for someone?
The wrong way. She let go of the doorknob, smiled politely and walked out in high heels.
X's message came.
"Are you home? I found a good porridge shop. I recommend you another day. "
When she comes back, it is better to choose a day to hit the sun. Where is it?
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Because of the showdown from the beginning, X has always been a polite gentleman, but slowly, he began to avoid the word "your boyfriend". When Jonathan Lee gave a concert that year, he bought two first-class tickets and invited her to go with him. He knows that she likes Jonathan Lee, and so does he. Unlike Zhu Yuan, he thinks Jonathan Lee's singing skills are very strange, and his lyrics are also very strange, which is not high at all. Like an old man's song.
But when she entered the stadium that day, looking at the crowd on the platform, she suddenly had the illusion that the years were reversed. She turned and said, can we go to the platform to listen?
Fool, more than 1000 tickets, it's silly to crowd on the platform. If it was Zhu Yuan, I would definitely say so.
But x said with a smile, that's what I thought. Do you think youth is only when you are crowded there?
Jonathan Lee sang "Song for Yourself", saying that the old love vows were like a slap in the face. Every time you think of a sentence, you will be slapped.
But her brain was blank, and she didn't remember Zhu Yuan's oath. However, time seems to have drawn a bow on her face and kept asking. Why did you become like this?
She crowded into the podium, many young faces, listening to Zhu Yuan's life motto. Suddenly feel very sad.
When the applause thundered, she cried like many years ago, only hysterical at that time, and now she covers her nose and mouth carefully.
He hugged her tightly and whispered in her ear.
"Everything will be fine. It will be fine. "
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That night, Zhu Yuan didn't answer the phone all night. She sent him a short message after two o'clock in the morning.
"Let's separate and give each other some space and freedom."
Then she began to fall in love. The campus love between the girlhood and Zhu Yuan is as long as that of the previous life, and it seems that the first person I met in this life is X, who has an unconstrained thinking, but cares about her like a spring rain. He is generous like a gentleman, but he is jealous of the child's temperament. He took her to meet all her friends, hoping that the whole world would know that she was Mao Man's girlfriend.
However, Mao was guilty, so few people had seen X until the breakup, and after the company's previous projects stopped, there was no deal. So the two of them, it seems, are like little lovers secretly holding hands in campus.
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But recalling that time, Mao still has light in his eyes.
Five days before the wedding, she bought me a drink. She has a bad stomach, so alcohol is bad for her. Drink a little, vomit a little.
I asked her, then why, why do you want to marry the person who doesn't want to marry?
Afraid that ten years of youth will be wasted? Fear of new love is an illusion? What's the problem?
She shook her head and said, no, no, no, he's fine.
Because it's great, it's good for her to build a new castle from the foundation. Then she was surprised to find that X also had a castle in his heart.
This castle is perfect. X has many fantasies about her, but she is afraid.
She knew the pain of the collapse of the castle, and she was afraid of her. She accidentally became the one who knocked down the castle. When it disappeared again, why did she tell him that we should build another one, ok?
It's impossible. Lack of material and limited energy, one can only build a castle in one's life.
X has a project to go to America, but he casually said, no, no, you can't do it without me. I will stay with you.
You can push anything, even a bright future. This is the way of X's love.
She can't stand it.
So, when she heard X's fantasy about future life, she chose to escape.
Unlike Zhu Yuan, X understands her, but only in a simple way. He knew that she wanted to be separated, but he didn't understand that the reason for separation was fear. Proud, he mistakenly thought that she was still trapped in her old love and could not wake up. He gritted his teeth and let go. He didn't want a compromised love.
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During that time, Zhu Yuan, who had not appeared for a long time, proposed to her. This simple-minded young man never regards the sentence "Let's break up" as a breakup, but only as a quarrel between two people. If he is wrong and apologizes, she will come back. He knelt down in the street with roses, stopped his frightened hair and asked her loudly if she could marry her.
She just took it. There are no bugs in roses, but roses are no longer roses. A group of people rushed out. It is a wine and meat partner in the field of wine. They all call her sister-in-law. When Zhu Yuan looked up, the piety in her eyes reminded her of ten years ago.
Someone told the onlookers that they had been together for ten years!
Ten years!
Ten years ...
How could it be ten years? Love is only a short moment, and everything after that is nothing more than inertia.
But she didn't have the strength to go up the mountain again. Her hand holding the rose was slightly numb and she cried.
"If you marry, marry."
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"Don't dream well. It will be very sad to wake up. " She told me so, and then waved, "The boss pays the bill." I turned my head and looked miserable. "I have a stomachache. I have to go to the hospital. "
I stood up, dialed a phone number and quietly threatened: "Zhu Yuan, your wife is going to the hospital now, come here at once!" " !
But standing in the hospital corridor, I still cried inexplicably.
I remembered the rosy evening in my senior year, her smile, the crushed rose, my senior and his guitar.
After ten years of youth, we have rubbed a lot of sand into our eyes and gradually adapted to it, but we can still live.
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Ten years on the screen and her smile are just two beauty needles to cover up the scars. One is in the eyes of onlookers, and the other is in the heart.
As adults, we understand that it is not easy to find a meal with the same taste, let alone a soul mate to spend the rest of my life with.
But I remember what she said.
"I heard my heart, burst, burst, burst to jump. I told myself it wasn't love. "
I frown.
"That's called crazy love."
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She walked off the stage and made a toast at each table. When she came to me, she smiled vaguely.
I hope she forgot.
I forgot the moment when my heart burst and beat, only thought it was a dream. I raise my glass to wish them a hundred years of harmony.
There were cheerful songs of saliva on the stereo, but Jonathan Lee's words echoed in my mind.
"You think about it, you can't get it. What can you do? "
Oh, how far is forever? A hundred years is too long. How many people can't live in the castle, but live next to each other in a small house with one room and one living room in this crowded city.