In Altay, the northernmost part of Xinjiang, there is such a writer, as common as her name. This is Li Juan.
My Altay is a collection of essays, written by Li Juan, which is a kind of relaxed and pleasant beauty about dusty years.
The book records life fragments one by one. I read it repeatedly for more than half a month, and I have a deeper understanding of words.
The third edition of My Altay is divided into two parts, the first part: 2007-2009 in memory, and the second part: 2002-2006 in the corner.
In the book, Li Juan wrote the fragmentary life very interestingly, one by one, and watched different Altay together.
Sometimes it's like sitting on the prairie with this book, breathing the fragrance of grass; Sometimes it's like on an empty Gobi desert, where the dust flies after the car drives; Sometimes when I go to a steaming bathhouse, I see housewives carrying buckets and washbasins, carrying washboards and debugging faucets one by one. Infected by her words again and again, I am eager to go to Altay, Xinjiang to witness Li Juan's life.
Work in a big city and live in a small city.
Li Juan works in Urumqi. Every time I go home, I bring a lot of things, some for my grandmother, some for my mother, and some for my uncle and sister.
Urumqi is a magical place with everything. I want to buy everything I see. Once, I saw a "golden bear" in a stall, and it was only five yuan each. Li Juan bought two without hesitation. But when I got home, I was scolded by my mother. "Five yuan? So expensive! Really, are there any mice in our family? If you want to use it up, you have to spend money to buy it outside ... "A closer look shows that it is indeed a mouse, but it is missing a tail. ......
On another occasion, I bought a "pocket rabbit". On the way home by car, Li Juan sat on a small stool next to the driver, holding the rabbit cage and sitting with his back straight. I am afraid that the rabbit will be suffocated, and I will put my hand into the cage from time to time to feel it. Not long after returning home, the rabbit still died.
In fact, Li Juan doesn't earn much money, but she doesn't care about money. Her spiritual world is very rich, and she pays attention to the details of life itself, so that she can try all kinds of things and experience endless fun.
We are usually occupied by work most of the time, and when we come home tired every day, we seldom feel the beauty of life, just like entering an infinite cycle.
But if we are happy, we will accept, try and challenge what we haven't done yet. Accept your child's behavior, get up early and go out for a morning run, and start another life. Maybe you will get different happiness.
Contact with family
After working outside for five years, Li Juan chose to go home. Back to a corner of Altay, a remote and quiet place-Akhala village. In the wilderness in all directions, the world is white-cloudy, and the white of the world is pure and profound white; On a sunny day, it turned into white with blue light, which made her want to stop. She is much more concerned about her loved ones, which makes her reluctant.
On one occasion, Li Juan casually said, "The quilt is a little thin." Mother immediately bought camel hair, washed it all night, burned the stove to dry it, and stayed up all night to make it. In order to give the quilt to Li Juan as soon as possible, my mother took a bus to Urumqi for more than ten hours, carrying a suffocating camel hair quilt, and appeared in front of Li Juan the next night.
Li Juan knew that her mother was deeply concerned about her, and more importantly, she didn't want to leave her grandmother.
Li Juan was brought up by her grandmother, who has a little trick and likes to stick out her tongue. Kill goldfish with a broken sugar jar. Just stick out your tongue. "I'm sorry" and "I'm so angry with you" work perfectly together. You can't make her feel guilty for doing something wrong.
Happy grandma is always looking forward to "I really hope you come back, I miss you so much."
Finally, she gave up her job in a big city and chose to go back to her hometown to accompany her mother and grandmother.
In order to live, we may choose big cities, but is it worth it? Are you really satisfied? How many people toss and turn for a while, and suddenly find it is not worth it.
Life should go on, but affection can't be abandoned. Making a brave choice and returning home does not mean giving up life.
Feel the wonder of love
Reading Li Juan's books can make you calm down instantly. She said: "If you can live to be 96 years old, you can still live a quiet and carefree life. In fact, it is also a serious and responsible life. The quietest and loneliest growth can also make people practical, confident, strong and kind. "
She is deeply infatuated with Messila.
At a dance, I met Messila, a handsome and mysterious young man who can play music. When Li Juan was lying in the deep darkness, tossing and turning, listening to the electronic piano sound coming from a distance. They don't know each other. She can only say that she fell in love with Messila out of youth, and she is sure of such love. Because at that time, she longed for love, just like Messila appeared.
This unspeakable love has been hidden in her heart, and she knows it is impossible, so it ends without a beginning. But he is real. In this way, Li Juan spent the whole autumn thinking about love, which made her want to stop.
Grandma often says to her: Juan, in fact, it is ok for you not to get married and have children. You don't have to go through it again. Your mother doesn't know this, I know. ......
Those things that we think are beautiful are like disillusionment, and existence disappears. Li Juan was infected by her grandmother's attitude towards life, and it was also a life that didn't need to be forced, and there was an unexpected experience.
It is said that environment makes people, and Altay gives Li Juan's ci a mellow sense of nature. And this feeling, until I saw the sky after the rain, was blue and white. I lament that there are so many beautiful moments in my life, but they are ignored.
In fact, those moments have been in our memory, waiting quietly, and I found them in Li Juan's words.
I hope you can feel it, too, and let a beautiful life accompany you every day!