It is said that "fireworks will fall in Yangzhou in March". In the 23rd year of Jiaqing, Yangzhou City has arrived in May, but it is still full of joy and excitement. Maiko in a brothel, absolute beauty. Melodious singing, swaying dance steps, really three days around the beam, step by step bloom.
In this Goulan tile shop, in a deep alley, there is a cloth village that has been in business for three generations-Xia Debu Village. This is a shop located in the street. Behind the shop is a small yard. There are several rooms next to the yard, surrounded by shops, which are particularly narrow.
This is the residence of the owner of Bucun. Although this shop is small in scale, it is also famous among the people. Because there is an embroidered mother named Xia Ting here. It is said that the bride in the workshop, wearing her own wedding dress, will be happy and loving with her husband for a lifetime. Therefore, for more than 20 years, Buzhuang's business is mostly tailor-made wedding dresses, which has almost become a "wedding dress shop".
Now that Xia Ting is in her forties, the business in the village is gradually handed over to her niece "Yue Lin".
"PSST ~ ~ ~" Yue Lin already didn't know how many times he was tied up, but sighed and put the bright red blood bead on the emerald finger in Sandalwood's mouth.
"Yue, what's wrong with you today? How many times has my aunt told you that this wedding dress is the only one for every girl in her life? How can she be so careless? " My aunt is a little dissatisfied with her absentmindedness.
She looked up at her aunt. It is said that my aunt was a famous beauty in this area when she was young. Now, she is really old, with wrinkles, white hair and even slow movement. I am not the Xia Agating who was as beautiful as a snake when I was a child.
"What are you doing?"
"ah? Oh! Aunt, did you like someone when you were young? " She asked what she had been thinking. People say that she looks like her aunt when she was young, but she is a little less clever. It is hard for her to believe that this quiet, elegant, calm and restrained woman will be a really lively girl. However, after being mentioned by the world for so many years, you can imagine how beautiful my aunt was. However, such a beautiful and lovely girl has never been married. Being single in her forties makes people wonder if she had a warm-hearted man when she was young.
"Why, maybe our yue son already has the person you like? Is it related to the jade under your pillow? "
"Aunt, how can you just go through other people's things?" Yue Lin directly bowed his head in shame.
"hey! This is also shyness. What others can't see, hide next time. Ahem ~ ~ "Suddenly she covered her chest and couldn't help coughing.
"Aunt, how are you?" . She quickly brought a glass of water from the table: "Aunt, here." Seeing that she was calmer, she secretly breathed a sigh of relief: "It has been several days in a row. You've always been like this You've taken several doses of medicine, but you're still not getting better. Aunt, I think your cold is different from usual. You should go to the light, which is bigger in the workshop. "
"Nothing. It's easy to get sick when you are old. Don't be nervous." She suddenly said seriously, "Moon, honestly, who gave you that piece of Yu Pei?"
"This is ... from the Duke of Zhou." She looked at her aunt doubtfully, as if she felt something was wrong. "Why, aunt, have you seen that jade?"
"No," she replied almost coldly, but the sadness and panic that flashed in her eyes were noticed by her niece.
"Which is the duke of zhou? Why did he send you a butterfly jade? "
"It's Zhou Mo, the son of the Zhou Da family." She lowered her head and kept fiddling with the embroidery thread in front of her, her voice was weak, gentle and shy.
"Last month, I was invited by Zhou Fu to sew a wedding dress for MISS ZHOU, who is about to become a monk. That day, I showed the booked material to the lady, but I accidentally fell down on the road, causing the original gorgeous cloth to fall into a quagmire and mottled stains. Because of my fault, I want to go back and get a new one. Unexpectedly, the two maids who brought me refused to scratch me, deliberately making things difficult for me, saying that I had broken clothes and deliberately collided with the happiness of the young lady, and even wanted to punish me. Just when I was unable to defend myself, Duke Zhou suddenly appeared and reprimanded two maids to help me out. "
These civilians who have never been to Plutocratic family are considered to have ulterior motives. In the face of girls' domineering attitude, anyone will panic and be at a loss. However, it happened that the noble son appeared, gentle and personable. It is said that girls like spring. At this age of seventeen, how can they not fall in love?
"Later, I went to Zhoufu several times, each time just to ask about the embroidery samples and sizes of wedding dresses, but I met him every time. He always appeared in front of me for various reasons, and I ... "
"And you didn't refuse, even a little happy, right?"
"hmm!" She nodded slightly. "Until yesterday, he gave me this butterfly Yu Pei, saying that it was left to him when his mother was there. He said he would give it to the most important person in his life. I said I couldn't accept it, but he forced it on me. He said he would give me time and he would wait for me. "
"Then when did he like you?"
I don't know. She shook her head: "Maybe it's time for him to help me out!"
"What about you?"
I ... She looked up and met menstruation's inquiring eyes. For a moment, she looked out of the window and stared at a few misty clouds in the blue sky, as if she had returned to the scene where she first saw him.
In March, Yangzhou City. Water waves, smoke and willows are full of flowers, which is the most touching. This time is also the time when merchants travel the most. Many foreigners flocked in, and there was an endless stream.
On the ring of the city.
A lot of people crowded around the table, and the constant influx of people outside almost packed the table. The world likes entertainment, especially in this era of peace and prosperity. I always want to do something after staying for a long time, otherwise I won't even say anything after dinner, which is so boring.
Although the audience is full of people, you can still see what is happening in the ring from a distance:
I saw a big man with a red chest standing on the stage, naked to the waist, with a red scarf around his neck. He paced around the table. When he walked, the massive muscles of his chest, waist and back were clearly displayed in front of everyone, like pieces of hard iron plates, invulnerable.
At his feet, several people were lying, groaning with their stomachs covered. Although those men look stronger than ordinary people, they are also a little fragile in front of this tall and powerful man.
"It is said that Yangzhou is outstanding and has often produced talents since ancient times. Today, Xu is setting up a stall here. I want to ask. Unexpectedly, hum! They're all gluttons, little mouse. "
He scanned the crowd contemptuously, showing a mocking look.
"Who said that Yangzhou is the capital of etiquette and education? Is it beyond your understanding? " "This is ...". At that time, the audience all comment in succession.
"A strong man out of this? As the saying goes, Wolong is in the mountains and the hidden dragon is in the deep. It is too early to conclude that Yangzhou people are all mediocre people. "
Look, it's Duke Zhou. "wow! Look at that white suit, charming and handsome, just like a fallen fairy. " ......
I really don't know how many girls' hearts the Duke of Zhou, who is fluttering in white, has attracted at the moment.
"oh! It seems that you are not convinced! Then give it a try! " Suddenly, the strong man raised his fist and came face to face. Seeing that it was about to hit, he smiled, then turned around and flashed, and his fist missed his ear, which suddenly surprised people around him into a cold sweat.
"Hum! There are two more things, look! " The big fellow waved a whip around his waist and waved at him like a black snake. Speed makes all the people present see only a heavy shadow, like a 10,000-kilogram chain tempered in the fire, with a dark and sharp scarlet light, which crackles the surrounding air for a while. Suddenly, a silver light appeared and rushed to this heavy shadow. Crackle, people haven't had time to react, then see the shadow has been born ahead, a silver sword handle on the strong man's chest.
Everything came too fast and ended too fast. It was over before they saw how he did it. Everyone held their breath, stare big eyes, and even dare not make a sound in the atmosphere. It took a long time to recover from that thrilling scene, and then there was deafening applause.
"good!" . "Duke Zhou, that's great ~"
The man walked away in the cheers of everyone, leaving only the man who was praised by all the audience like a fallen fairy.
Yue Lin is standing outside the crowd, near the street corner. She is not a lively person, but she can't help being deeply attracted by the white figure on the stage. As flexible and vigorous as Youlong, as beautiful as fallen immortals, that meeting in Zhou Fu made her recognize him at a glance. He appeared in a panic, just like the warm sun in April, which made people warm and itchy.
Seventeen-year-old, inexperienced girl, this feeling has never been seen before, it is simply wonderful.
"Aunt, when you were young, did you have wonderful feelings for other men?" She recovered from her thoughts and asked about things between men and women for the first time.
"Ahem ...". Xia Ting slowly sat in front of her niece, looking at the face that resembled her when she was young, and at those innocent and pure eyes that were clear as autumn water. Sad and lonely, but more calm. Bringing up the past seems to be telling a story that has nothing to do with you:
"Twenty-two years ago, I was twenty years old and as pure and kind as every girl. It's just that compared with other girls, I have a headache. " There was a smile on her lips.
"Maybe your grandfather has no children, only your mother and I are at home, so we were raised as boys at an early age. At that time, I was lively and naughty, especially unruly. At that time, several families proposed to your grandfather, including some Plutocratic family, but I refused, not because I thought highly of myself, but because I didn't want to get married like this. Which girl doesn't fantasize about a love of' holding your hand and growing old with your son'? If I can't meet my lover, I'd rather disobey my father than get married. What an immoral idea! But now, it has been realized. "
She chuckled at herself. I didn't expect such an absurd idea when I was young, but I really predicted it for her.
"So, you didn't meet the person you like in the end?"
"No" She paused slightly, and her relaxed expression immediately became dignified.
"At that time, Li Zhuang took over the custom wedding dress business. I took measurements at the girl's house and wanted to leave, but I happened to see a beautiful jade carving on the windowsill in the next room. Later, I learned that that family was a jade carving craftsman for generations, and the jade carving was made by the son of that family. "
Yangzhou jade carving: It has been circulated for thousands of years because of its unique craftsmanship. During the Qianlong period, Yangzhou Jianlong Temple set up a jade bureau to pay tribute to the court according to age. So there are many jade craftsmen in Yangzhou, including many famous teachers.
Although that jade carving can't be compared with the jade presented by the royal family, it is still a masterpiece. What caught her attention, however, was that it was not like the ordinary style carved by ordinary craftsmen. It is mellow, elegant and full of literary flavor.
"The son is the only scholar in their family. Since the yuan dynasty was incorporated into the craftsman's book, he has been a craftsman for generations and regained his freedom during the Shunzhi period of this dynasty. Now there is finally a scholar in the clan, as if seeing hope and finally getting rid of the identity of being a craftsman for generations. "
"So you like that scholar?"
"yes! He is gentle, modest and polite. At that time, I went to his house several times when I made a wedding dress for his sister. After a while, we fell in love. "
"What happened later?"
"At that time, your grandfather and his father didn't agree with us. Your grandfather wants to marry me to a rich family, but he is just a poor scholar. His father thinks that his son will be the top scholar in the future, and he should find a charming women to reach the top, not an embroidered mother. But how can men and women in love care about this? Besides, he didn't want to take the imperial examination at that time. The current political corruption and bureaucratic intrigue are not suitable for him. I remember that I was locked at home by your grandfather, but he would secretly come to me in private, so angry that your grandfather almost broke up with me. Seeing that I am getting older and older, I am going to be an old maid, and your grandfather doesn't care, saying that I will agree to this marriage as long as I take out twenty-two dowry. "
"Twenty taels? So much? "
"yes! Moreover, he assured his father that he could teach in a private school, and even if he did not take part in the imperial examination, he could still get rid of the identity of a craftsman for future generations. Finally, his father agreed to this marriage, but he refused to pay a penny. "
"Then what will you do?"
"He pawned the jade carving he had carefully carved for ten years, which was exactly twenty taels."
"Really? He really loves you! " Lin listened quietly with his head down, which made him envious.
"yes! He really loved me at that time. " Her still calm voice has choked me, and even her hazy eyes have some tears.
"He gave the money to your grandpa, and we got engaged smoothly. The wedding date is set for next month. According to etiquette, men and women who are about to get married are not allowed to meet before marriage. But I have no choice but to suffer from lovesickness. In private, we have seen it secretly several times. However, most of the time, I stay alone in my room to make a wedding dress and plan the date of the wedding. "
Here, she paused, as if trying to suppress something. Listen to her voice hoarse, deep said:
"The night before the wedding, it rained cats and dogs. I was sitting in my room, watching the lightning in the window, and I was a little flustered. Suddenly, a shadow appeared on the window, which was so ferocious on the night of lightning and thunder. I was shocked and was about to shout when the door was suddenly pushed open from the outside. It turned out that he was caught in the rain. "
"I hurriedly come forward to wipe the dripping hair for him, but he has been silent. It took me a long time to make up my mind. I whispered, "An Ting, let's postpone the wedding!" " "
"ah? Why? " Yue Lin really can't understand: "Doesn't he really want to marry you?"
"I don't understand. I asked him, and he only told me that he would take the imperial examination. "
"The imperial examination? Isn't he not interested? But even if you want to take the exam, it won't be bad for a while. You have to get married first! "
"I was surprised at the time, but when I saw his complicated and worried eyes looking at me, I felt that he must be hiding something, so I didn't ask. But he lovingly lifted my face, looked at it quietly for a long time, and then gently dropped a kiss on the corner of my eye, whispering,' Wait for me, my An Ting.' "
"Is he really gone?"
"Yes, the next day, that is, the day we should get married, he left without saying a word. After he left, I heard some rumors from the street. He seems to have offended some people, involving temples and officials. It is not a good thing that officials are involved in this world now. I think maybe this is why he decided to take the imperial examination! "
"So you've been waiting for him?"
"Although I don't know what happened to him, the only thing I can do for him is to wait for him. I know he didn't tell me because he didn't want me to get involved in this right and wrong. So I will wait for him, and I will wait for him silently. No matter what happens, no matter what happens in the future, he still has me, and I am still his An Ting. " She spoke in fits and starts. Unexpectedly, after more than 20 years, it still hurts to mention something that should have been forgotten long ago.
"And he didn't come back after all. Have you been waiting until now?"
She looked at the niece who was under twenty years old, just like looking at her clever self more than twenty years ago.
"Moon" she sighed. "Have you ever heard of it? In legend, there is a "Three Dangers Mountain" where three robins live. They are the messengers of the Queen Mother of the West, and they can only be seen in Penglai Fairy Mountain. Because Penglai has no road, it only relies on the jade bird to transmit information. "
"After he left, I embroidered three bluebirds on the left cuff of my wedding dress. It is said that before the visit of the Queen Mother of the West, a bluebird will report first. I want to express my love for you through these three bluebirds. However, a year later, he really came back, and he still came back with the glory of the new champion. At that time, all the people in Yangzhou were beating gongs and drums and greeting each other through the street. That day, I went to see him at his house after careful grooming. I didn't expect to see a beautiful woman coming in with a woman's bun, and all the maids around called her' madam'. "
"Ahem, ahem ..." She suddenly coughed violently. I don't know if it was because she caught a cold or something else. I saw that her eyes were red, and the whole person couldn't stop shaking.
"Aunt, are you all right!" Yue Lin hurriedly stepped forward and patted her on the back. When she calmed down a little, I brought her a glass of water. "Aunt, that kind of ungrateful person is not worth it."
She shook her head. "All these years, it doesn't matter. Actually, I didn't believe it at the time. I tried to ask him, but I was stopped by the guard at the door. At that time, I suddenly realized that he and I had been separated by too many things. I am still the naive Anting, but he is no longer the poor scholar with no ambition. "
"One night, he finally came to see me, but the first thing he said was to break off the engagement with me. He said that what he owed me in this life can only be paid back in the afterlife. Isn't that ridiculous? He never paid me back in his life. What am I going to do with an imaginary afterlife? I took out the wedding dress embroidered for him, unfolded it at him, and then lit a fire in front of him and burned it clean. "
All the karma and debts in this life went up in smoke with the fire.
"So you're not married?"
"Injured won't fantasy. Besides, I was old and divorced at that time. How can there be a good family? "
"What about that man?"
"He came back just for revenge, but under unfortunate circumstances, he cracked a major rebellion case. Coupled with the strength of his wife's family, his career has soared. "
Yue Lin looked at menstruation who had calmed down. Years have left too many marks on her face. The beauty of the north, independent of the world, is too beautiful to resist the erosion of time. The fire not only burned her love, but also her innocence and freedom.
"Aunt, twenty years ago, let it go! The most important thing at present is to take care of yourself. These days, I have to change this wedding dress quickly and send it to MISS ZHOU. You'd better find a bigger light. I think this cold is more serious than usual. "
"Isn't there a doctor to prescribe medicine? Take some clothes first. "
Second,
A few days later in the morning, Lin Yue finished grooming early in the morning and was ready to go to Zhoufu.
It was already a little hot in May, so Yue Lin thought about it and decided to change into a thinner dress. When she was about to untie the belt around her waist, she suddenly remembered Yu Pei, the white butterfly he personally brought to her waist. In an instant, her cheeks were like shy flowers, blooming with a gentle smile.
Butterfly jade: white and shiny, moist and elegant, popular in Ming and Qing Dynasties. Butterfly lovers once turned a double butterfly into a love story.
She took the butterfly out from under the pillow, hung it around her waist and went out.
Zhou fu:
"MISS ZHOU, it has been changed according to your requirements. Please try it. "
MISS ZHOU wore a wedding dress, a dragon and phoenix dress, a pure gold rockhopper, a garland of pearls and emeralds around her neck, and purple tassels hanging down. The whole person is as radiant as a burning peach blossom.
Wedding dress is really the most beautiful dress for women.
"Miss Wang looks rosy today and looks good!" Bearer is the owner of the Zhou family-Zhou Mo.
He looked at Yue Lin, who was standing beside him, and saw at a glance Yu Pei, who was holding her waist. Today, she obviously changed a dress, but she still wears the Yu Pei he gave her. For an instant, he felt that his mood was simply brighter than the sunshine outside.
"Brother, why are you free today?"
"Why, as a brother, can't you come and see my fairy sister?" He giggled and watched the blush on his sister's face with satisfaction.
"Brother, you are joking." She scolded shyly.
Just then, Mrs. Zhou's voice came from outside:
"Ting son, are you ready? Your father is waiting for you in the study. Let him see how beautiful his baby daughter is in a wedding dress. "
"OK, Mom, I'm coming." MISS ZHOU ran out happily, leaving only the two of them in the room.
"Let's go together!" Zhou Mo looked at her tenderly, and Yu Pei looked at her waist with a smile from time to time.
"I won't go! I am not suitable as an outsider. "
"How can you be an outsider? After all, you are also the embroidered mother in charge of my sister's wedding dress. It happens that my uncle is dissatisfied with something, and I can tell you face to face. "
After that, without waiting for her response, she took her hand and walked towards the study.
Zhou Fu's research:
Led by him all the way, Yue Lin felt his heart almost jump out. It was not until she entered the study that she broke away from him and leaned against a corner alone. And Zhou Mo doesn't seem to think that what they just did was a little too intimate, but subconsciously approached her.
"What's the matter, dad? Good-looking? "
"Of course! My An Ting is of course the most beautiful girl in the world. " Adult Zhou looked at her daughter lovingly and smiled.
"Haha ..." MISS ZHOU threw himself into his father's arms without any image, coquetry: "Dad is the best!"
Mrs. Zhou nodded her daughter's nose with a smile on her face: "Sir, look at what you used to do with her, no big or small."
"no, mom!"
A family of three frolics together, and nobody cares about the two people in the corner. Yue Lin looked around unnaturally, ignoring the person standing next to him.
Suddenly, her eyes fell on a painting on the opposite wall. The picture above shows the wedding dress, next to the Su Xi Pavilion written by the Tang Dynasty poet Dai Shulun:
The grass grows on the Suxi Pavilion. Who will stop on the east wind for twelve days?
Swallows don't return to the Spring Festival Evening, and it's a misty rain and apricot blossoms.
The whole poem is written in regular script. Except, of course, the word "ting". Only the word "pavilion" is modeled after the capital letters of Mrs. Wei's hairpin, and the font is slightly slender and delicate.
"This was painted by my uncle." Zhou Mo seems to be aware of her discomfort. Seeing her eyes staring at the painting all the time, she spoke to resolve this embarrassing atmosphere.
"Really!" She smiled at him and walked forward so that she could see more clearly.
Lord Yu Zhou? Why use such a feminine font just to write this word? Yue Lin really don't understand. Then she looked at the wedding dress on the painting:
Impatiens collar, big sleeve shirt; The chest is embroidered with golden thread and dragons and phoenixes; The sleeves are also embroidered with auspicious things such as mandarin ducks and pomegranates. Gold lines are vertical and horizontal, and dark lines are widely distributed. If the wedding dress on this painting is embroidered, it will inevitably take some thought. Just in line with Sue's, shouldn't she be a dissatisfied housewife who has lived in a boudoir for a long time and looked at the West Building? Why is it a purplish wedding dress?
When her eyes crossed the cuffs of the wedding dress, she suddenly froze:
I saw the left cuff of the wedding dress, and suddenly three brightly colored bluebirds appeared.
On Pengshan Road in the distance, Jade Bird brought good news.
In an instant, she understood everything. Suddenly, she felt qi and blood upwelling, her hands clenched into fists and squeezed hard.
Yue Lin looked at a happy family of three, a lovely daughter and a beautiful wife. Think about the aunt who is still at home alone in her forties. At this time, her eyes were red, and she really couldn't accept the fact in front of her.
Ding ding. The man who gave my aunt the most beautiful love and ruined her life. At this time, she was calling her real name, but she called him and someone else's daughter.
Lin Yue couldn't help asking, why? Why are you so cruel? Since heartless, then forget each other in the Jianghu, why defile my aunt's reputation again. If there is a knife in front of her at this time, I think she will cut open his heart mercilessly to see what color it is. When his aunt is alone, he enjoys family happiness here.
"What's the matter?" Zhou Mo noticed that something was wrong with her, and suddenly it seemed that the whole person was sending out a cold breath.
She tried to suppress her anger and looked at him coldly: "Nothing, just a little uncomfortable. It seems that the host is satisfied. I don't think this wedding dress needs to be altered. Say goodbye first! " Then ignored him and walked out directly.
Just out of the office, I heard Zhou Mo's voice coming from far behind:
"Miss Lin, please wait a moment." He's chasing after him. "You ... accepted that piece of Yu Pei?" His eyes rested on the butterfly jade hanging around her waist. Delighted and nervous, waiting for her answer.
"Sorry, Duke Zhou, I forgot to return this jade to you." She took the jade from her waist and put it in his hand.
"Why?" He froze in an instant. Doesn't she have any feelings for herself?
"I am a civilian, how can I be worthy of your young master?"
"You know, I don't care!" His voice became a little deep.
"But I care!" She was a little excited and then said slowly, "In the future, you will care."
They were talking here when suddenly an anxious voice interrupted them.
"Yue Lin, quick! Come back with me! " The bearer is her neighbor-Xiao Fang.
"What's the matter, Xiao Fang?"
"Your mother asked me to come to you and said that your aunt had an accident."
"What?" Before she could come to her senses, she took Xiao Fang and ran home.
Third,
"Ahem ..." Yue-gang Lin ran to the door and heard a severe cough in the room.
"Aunt" she rushed into the room and saw her aunt leaning on the bed, pale. A doctor is sitting at a table and writing a prescription.
"Doctor, what's wrong with my aunt?" She ran to the doctor and asked eagerly.
"Cough ~ ~ ~" Before the doctor could speak, another severe cough came. Yue Lin turned to look at the aunt on the bed. When the white handkerchief in her hand was removed from her mouth, a mass of bright red blood appeared on it.
"Hemoptysis!" Her eyes widened and she was too shocked to speak.
The doctor sitting next to the case has written a prescription and handed it to her, sighing helplessly. "The situation is not very good. Get ready early. "
After the doctor left, Lin woke up and stumbled into her aunt's bed.
"Aunt ..." She was speechless with grief and collapsed on her aunt.
"Well, Moon, don't be sad, everyone will have this day, just sooner or later!" She patted her niece lovingly on the back. Even in the face of the fact that she was going to die, she remained calm.
"Aunt, God is so unfair to you!" She choked in her aunt's arms: "Why do you have to go through so much, but there is no good result?" He has a good life. "
Xia Ting sensed something was wrong with her words: "What do you know?"
"I know all about it. That man is Zhou Daren, right? I mentioned Duke Zhou the other day, and I saw the panic in your eyes, because that ungrateful man is his uncle, isn't it? " She looked up at her aunt with firm eyes.
"Yes!" Xia Ting knew that he knew everything, so he stopped hiding "these old grievances. I didn't want to involve you, but I didn't expect you to know."
She gently wiped the tears from Yue Lin's face and looked at her affectionately:
"The whole world wants to have a perfect love. Liang Zhu experienced a lifetime of love robbery, but it was never completed. People would rather believe that they became butterflies and stay together forever than admit this tragedy. People have always admired Zhuo Wenjun's love with Sima Xiangru, selling wine and joining hands with the world. For example, in the past, Qi Mei was not as beautiful as brothels and the capital was prosperous. Can a poem of Sorrow Lang really win back her husband's heart? How can those historians know the sadness in this story? "
She gently brushed the broken hair from Yue Lin's forehead:
"Aunt doesn't think God is unfair to me. Not all girls can have love like a moth to a fire. When I was young, I loved it without hesitation and hated it sincerely. These are much better than a calm and wave-free life. "
"Do you still hate him?"
"Don't hate! Actually, I can't blame him. After all, you never know. It's just that I always wanted to marry love, but what he wanted to marry became a reality. Besides, haven't I had a good life these years? Although I didn't get love, didn't all the girls wearing my wedding dress have happy endings? My life is also complete. "