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At present, there are many patients with glioma, and Li Ao died of this disease recently. My grandfather's eldest brother died of glioma in surgery many years ago. My grandmother's house (all residential areas of hospital families) is just across the street, and more than 80 old ladies have the disease. The situation is not good after the operation, and every time I see it, it is very complicated. . I always felt that I should have done more to alleviate my mother's pain. I felt guilty, but I still hid.
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My mother found her headache in the autumn of 2008 and told her menstruation. She is also a doctor. At that time, I just went to high school, and I didn't know it until late every day. Once I met my period in my house, it looked like an ordinary chat, talking about a movie. Later, I learned that they were discussing the treatment plan and studying whether to go to Shanghai, Beijing or just at the doorstep of Jiangsu. She lied to me. She was going on a business trip to study for a while, so she went to the hospital. It happened that Mommy just became the deputy chief physician in 2008, and the medical staff also received a lot of training. In my opinion, there is no doubt. Walking on the road, she said that she had a headache and wanted to rest on the bench outside my middle school. It flashed through my mind, but I didn't think much about it. It was not until the day before her operation that she missed me very much and called me to the neurosurgery department of the General Hospital of the Military Region that I understood what was going on. This is the third stage of glioma.
After the first operation, it seems that the effect is not bad. After receiving radiotherapy and resting at home for half a year, my mother returned to work in the hospital. Her physical strength is not as good as before, but she still works hard. The reality is cruel. She relapsed at 20 1 1. As a doctor, she is very aware of her illness. No matter how big and strong you are, you can't persist. She is a doctor, and we can't make up sweet words to whitewash reality. It was diagnosed as a recurrence, and it was suspected that it was accompanied by cerebrospinal fluid diffusion. Before the college entrance examination, she went to the brain hospital next door to her unit for examination. The operation is still in the military general hospital. I have been with her since the college entrance examination. I remember her adding an extra bed in the corridor of the neurosurgery inpatient department of the General Hospital of the Military Region and looking at me with hopeless eyes. God will kill her. The second craniotomy injured the frontal lobe of the brain, and the focus spread to the cerebellum and brain stem, which could not be removed by interventional surgery. After discharge, I went to the brain hospital to do gamma knife. Long after the instrument was repaired, the surgeon called my father to talk. What are we talking about? Nothing more than "refusing to operate on her because of uncertainty." I sat in the corridor with her and held her. A family of three lost their minds in the hospital. No one could say a word and drove home silently.
Later, when she spoke, she thought for a long time, and she forgot her words. High-dose radiotherapy is more harmful to her brain. By 20 12, she couldn't say a complete sentence, and she couldn't urinate. There is no treatment, nothing can be done, only to see her unable to move a little, and her face is no longer radiant. She sometimes watches me go home and tears silently. I occasionally think in horror, if I feel very painful but can't express it, will my mother be like this? I can't make it to the end and I can't hold my head. We dress her, feed her and straighten her head from time to time.
The world is so cold that the paralyzed patient has no dignity, and she has been tortured until 20 14.6.8. I witnessed the whole process of her seizure and death at home because of food suffocation. Dad did CPR until the medical staff confirmed her death. It's hard to accept this kind of farewell. That's the truth. My memory has no ps.
I can't be calm when I think of all the crimes she suffered before her death. No matter how superb her medical skills are, no one can avoid illness and death. Mommy protected the health of the whole family, but we failed to take care of her.