Yes, when the New Year bell rings, we will really be thirty years old. I used to think it was terrible for a woman to be 30 years old, because I looked at myself when I was young and felt that age was an insurmountable gap for a woman's appearance. When I was 25 years old, I thought about playing hyaluronic acid and doing micro-plastic surgery. However, I still let nature take its course and live to be the truest self.
In the first 20 years, according to my parents' expectations, I grew up in a very clear range. No boyfriend, no weekends, no short-term jobs in winter and summer vacations. My parents can allow me to study badly, but they will never allow me to get out of their control. I have been trying to be the obedient girl according to their requirements.
/kloc-at the age of 0/2, at the moment when my father returned the gift from my male classmate, I pretended not to accept the gift, although I was wronged and disagreed with my father's practice, and listened carefully to his indirect teaching about puppy love.
During the five years from the age of 20 to 25, I lived with relatives in different places at the request of my parents not to rent a house. I hold on to the tail of youth and live carefully. I went home to work for several years. I want to find a like-minded boyfriend like my best friend and live a carefree life in a distant big city. However, I just fantasized in my mind, but I didn't have the courage to step out of the boundaries drawn by my parents. Life is like this, so is work.
At the age of 23, when others loved me to death, I talked about my first love in life. I am used to reporting everything to my parents, and this time is no exception. I talked with my parents about my boyfriend a few days later, so they were in a hurry and came all night to meet the boy face to face. In this way, my first love ended in a hurry because of my parents' analysis. I'm really in a hurry, only ten days, but it makes me feel like I've lost the whole world. Even so, I still act indifferent in front of my parents, and then secretly wipe my tears when no one is around. I want to be brave and do what I want.
In the five years between the ages of 25 and 30, I accomplished two great things: getting married and having a daughter. Maybe because of marriage, my parents don't ask about everything as before, or because I have children, I don't bother my parents with everything as before.
When I got married at the age of 26, I was really surprised that my parents, who had been tying me tightly, agreed to let me marry far away. At that time, my mother said, "If you don't stay, you have to leave. Then go to your favorite place with the person you choose. " Only then did I know that for more than 20 years, it was not the arbitrary coercion of my parents, but that I took their love too seriously. In fact, my own heart is too fragile, and I have never fought for myself, even if it is only a little bit.
It was not until these years that I experienced the initial joy and fear of marriage, then struggled and finally calmed down that I was willing to put down my burden and really be myself. Don't change because of others' eyes, don't make do because of others' preferences, and don't flinch because of others' blows. Especially in the year when I am about to turn 30, I can talk and laugh with impunity among my classmates, regardless of their views on me; In the article, I can write my own voice and let more people see it, instead of deliberately avoiding writing as before; I can stop helping the east and the west at work and concentrate on my own work. So, this year, I gained more friends, made a great breakthrough in writing, and was appreciated by the leaders.
Thirty years old is not a beautiful age for women. Fortunately, I finally found what I wanted and did what I loved. At the age of thirty, I finally lived the life I wanted.