When I was a child, my lower body was deformed and I kept it as a boy until 18 years old. I still vaguely remember when I was in junior high school, because of many physical problems (later proved to be normal secondary sexual development, but it was abnormal for me to appear as a boy at that time), like many boys, I stood to pee and ran around naked, but unlike other boys, I didn't have testicles, but stayed at home. Because there are no testicles, I went to the provincial people's hospital for examination when I was in kindergarten. But the doctor didn't check it carefully at that time. He simply asked and touched it, and determined that it was cryptorchidism in children and needed surgery. At that time, when I was young, I cried and didn't want to have surgery, so I put it aside afterwards and wanted to do it when I grew up.
Time flies, and it's junior high school in a blink of an eye. Like other boys, I like talking about all kinds of games. At that time, PSP was very popular. Everyone was online and had a good time. When I was in the second grade, I gradually began to like playing Warcraft. From time to time, I talked about some Warcraft topics in a World of Warcraft discussion group we formed. I was a male chauvinist in junior high school. I bully girls from time to time, and I am often bullied by boys who protect girls. I still remember one day in the third grade, our family suddenly raised a kitten, a little female cat just full moon. An idea flashed through my mind: "Why do you want to be reborn as a female cat?" At the same time, I am glad that I am a boy and I don't have to face the problem of having children in the future.
However, perhaps because of this, I was rewarded, and God made me "become" a woman (yes, I still think I was turned into a woman). 14 years old, suddenly hematuria one day in the second grade. I also went to the hospital and was diagnosed with urinary tract infection after urine test. Later, taking medicine was not good, and further examination was diagnosed as chronic nephritis. I am also a doctor of western medicine and transferred to Chinese medicine. From time to time, I go to a Chinese medicine hospital far from our home to prescribe medicine. In addition to the second day, many strange diseases followed. The buddies around me changed their voices, and I was still whispering. However, because I have been with my classmates for a long time, everyone has not regarded me as a "sissy", and I will get used to it after a long time.
My family never took my strange "diseases" seriously, thinking that I might grow up, including cryptorchidism, and I would come out gradually with my age, so I never went to the hospital for examination from junior high school to senior two.
I didn't have much pressure in the year of the college entrance examination, because I was an art student, and my major ranked very high after the college entrance examination. I didn't pay much attention to the study of culture class, so the third year of senior high school became my most relaxed year. Because I am almost 18 years old, my speech is still soft, and my testicles have never grown. My family was afraid that my cryptorchidism would lead to inhibition of androgen secretion, so I spoke softly and decided to take me for surgery in the winter vacation. That time, I still didn't want to have an operation, but I bravely went to the hospital for the sake of my future life with my lover and future generations.
Because of this operation, the hospital arranged a consultation for me. As a result, the diagnosis has put our family in a very tangled situation ... I not only have no testicles, but also have no glans, which means that I have nothing that men should have at all. On the contrary, that long thing is a strange-looking thing (you know that thing). And through in-depth B-ultrasound examination, the doctor found that ... my stomach has a complete set of female reproductive organs ... uterus ... ovaries, and blood in urine is actually * * (well, you know). . . So I was referred from andrology to other departments, and the chromosome examination was XX (female chromosome). . . I was officially declared a girl. ...
I didn't know the day the test results came out. Later, my mother suddenly said that I wouldn't have surgery (I don't know if I didn't want to do it because I was afraid, but I didn't expect my mother to say that I couldn't do it). I suddenly breathed a sigh of relief But in the next few days, my father lamented that he suddenly broke up with me, and I didn't open the Chinese medicine at home after eating it. This made me feel a little strange, but it wasn't much at the time.
/kloc-in June of 0/4, the college entrance examination was suddenly relaxed. Originally, I wanted to go to the Internet cafe with some good friends to have a good game of Warcraft, but this time my mother scolded me badly ... I still remember what she said that day: "Dad, take care of him!" " My dad said, "You should take care of it." My father used to be very strict with me, but that behavior suddenly became abnormal, and not only my father but also my mother became abnormal. I asked my mother why she wouldn't let me go to the Internet cafe. Later, I turned over the old accounts. On the day of college entrance examination, I bought a bottle of iced Pepsi, and she accepted it. Why? ! ! ! I was very angry and said, "My classmates are waiting for me!" "At this moment, my mother said," Husband, go out first. "My dad walked out of the house.
I thought it was strange, but the atmosphere at that time had left me speechless. Mom said something that gave me goose bumps all over: "Dabao, don't play with your classmates in the future." Mom will tell you something. ..........................................................................................................................................
I didn't feel shocked after my mother said this, but I thought it was funny. I thought I was dreaming. I didn't force myself not to believe this sentence, but I really didn't take it seriously at that time, but after a while, suddenly "strange diseases" came to my mind, and combined with what my mother said, I suddenly realized the seriousness of the problem. . . I have goose bumps all over, and even suddenly I have a strange feeling of nausea, and I don't know what I'm thinking …
After a long time, I didn't know what to do, and I was full of curiosity about my future. The first thing I did after learning that I was a girl-I did a stupid thing (it doesn't seem stupid now), that is, I ... told my girlfriend that I was a girl through QQ (I talked with my girlfriend for four years, and she later learned about my "cryptorchidism", but she liked me. At first, my girlfriend said I was joking, but she didn't believe me that night, and I didn't know what to say, so I didn't continue talking to her. The day after the college entrance examination, I told my girlfriend that I would take her to eat spicy pot, so I called my mother that day. My mother didn't allow me to eat spicy incense pot because I urinated blood that day, so we changed the porridge shop.
Later my mother told my girlfriend that I was a girl. After my girlfriend knew it was true, she covered her mouth for a long time and looked me up and down. Later, after a long time, she snorted and smiled. Then the first sentence was: "Fortunately, I changed to a porridge shop, and I came to the pot for menstruation ..." Then there was a burst of laughter.
The afternoon when I had porridge with my mother and girlfriend became my happiest time. My girlfriend suddenly told me everything, and together with her mother taught me how to be a qualified girl in the future ... I suddenly felt extremely happy because of such close contact with my girlfriend, but then I gradually came up with the idea that being a girlfriend seemed better than being a girlfriend. Although I enjoyed talking and laughing with my girlfriend, at the same time, the topic that she and my mother echoed each other taught me how to be a woman, which made me feel like a critical meeting for me. At first, I was still alive and asked the hospital if I could continue to be a boy, but my mother said that the hospital planned to make me become a girl after the college entrance examination, which would not affect my fertility in the future. That's not just cosmetic surgery, but sex-change surgery, and it means taking hormones for a lifetime and not having another child ... so I had to follow my mother and girlfriend's idea later. ...
/kloc-in August of 0/4, she officially became a girl after the operation. At the same time, the good news is that I was admitted to the animation major of China Communication University.
After talking in the porridge shop, my mother began to let me try to wear girls' clothes, and I also knew the intention of my mother to let me have long hair during the winter vacation in senior three. However, women's clothes make me uncomfortable, such as tight fat and bra, as well as the extra parts I pretend to be a boy ... wearing a girl's NY makes me uncomfortable, and my mother looks at the prominent one in distress ... so after several failed attempts, I changed back to wearing the loose one before.
However, after a period of self-cultivation after the operation, I tried to adapt to wearing women's clothes again ... I felt very dark without my penis. What's more strange is that the pants worn by girls are too shallow. I always wanted to give up because I felt so flustered, but I finally put them on, so I "experienced" the feeling of being a girl from time to time until I simply put them on. I didn't think I would dress like this forever.
After I went to college, I seldom stayed with my parents. And had to live in a dormitory with a group of girls. After a long time, I found it dirty and troublesome. . . I don't like combing my hair, and I'm not used to makeup. My hair hangs loose all day, and then I have no choice but to wear a hat to go out. The classmates in the dormitory blow their hair, wear masks and make up, which makes me feel very uncomfortable. In the end, I had no choice but to rent a house outside and move out. The girls said I was always unkempt and looked like a man ... I told them I was a man. . . The result is a burst of laughter, thinking that I am a woman who likes to joke.
However, I didn't give up trying to change my state. I bought Kuriyama Mirai's red glasses from Taobao because I found it troublesome to make up, and often went out wearing a hat. As a result, I was later called Freckle Girl and Hat Girl, and finally I had to learn makeup from one of my girlfriends. Learn how to make up, how to make up makeup, and how to remove makeup. That best friend is also the only one who knows my "past life identity" (I wonder if she told anyone). Because she knew my former identity as a boy, she gradually chatted with me, and often asked me what it was like to be a boy, how to get in touch with my favorite male god naturally and so on. ...
In short, there are many things I can't accept after becoming a girl, but there are also many places that feel very good, such as wearing a lot of beautiful clothes. Compared with boys' uniforms, girls' clothes are varied. I am not a person who likes women's clothes very much. Sometimes I think those clothes are too feminine. Maybe there is a man working in it, but I won't wear shirts, jackets and other clothes that I used to wear when I was a child. I will wear some compact and neutral clothes. I learned to use Taobao in the second semester of my freshman year and began to be keen on buying all kinds of beautiful clothes on Taobao. Most of them are Japanese original clothes and clothes that can only be worn at home for appreciation, such as Japanese university uniforms and gymnastics clothes. Occasionally, I will buy some cos clothes worn by the characters in the anime, mostly from Japan, because I feel that the domestic ones are a bit too flowery. Sometimes I spend a lot of money to buy some British style, and later my parents found out. . .
Finally, to sum up, it feels good to be a girl, but sometimes I feel out of place with other girls, which is not bad on the whole. Well, I enjoy being a girl's body while keeping a man's heart.