I am a child in the countryside. I spent my whole childhood in the countryside. My parents work outside all the year round, and I live with my grandparents. Grandparents don't care much about my study. They don't usually care about me, but this is the final exam.
Look at the report card only when you try. In addition to going up the mountain to see cows, I just played and never studied, so that my grades were average until the fifth grade. However, in the sixth grade, my parents built a house at home and cooked food every day.
Yes, I'm glad. I am also happy to help them dig, move stones and do everything, including reading. Reading and doing homework have become a pleasure, not a headache, which has never happened before. Somehow I ...
That year, I felt that I was particularly focused, with a good memory and a strong understanding. I always feel that my eyes are bright. I get up after six o'clock every day, but I never feel tired. In this way, after a year, I went from a level.
Ping's students became the first in the class, and now they know that it is a blessing of family harmony.
And then I-
Entering the county to study, the excellent state has continued and the results have been very good. My parents and teachers like me very much, and I have a good time. Every time my parents come home for the New Year, they like to test me with English words.
I can answer accurately and quickly, and now my parents still praise me for being very good at that time. But there is also a crisis behind this state: I masturbate occasionally. At that time, I didn't think it had much impact, but I felt that I fell asleep after masturbation that night.
No, I felt a little tired the next day, so I stayed in bed. I can't concentrate at all in class, and my state during the day is not as good as before. I remember what the teacher taught me clearly after class, and I can remember it clearly before going to bed.
Think back to what the teacher said in class and what the key knowledge is. But I can't remember it the next day after masturbation; After masturbation, you will also feel guilty, feel dirty and shameful, and make up your mind that there will be no next one.
Time! However, I have never been able to stop masturbating. Every time I masturbate, I feel a strong sense of guilt and am determined to change it. This vicious circle continued until I graduated from junior high school. At that time, because my heart was very resistant to masturbation and my willpower was very strong, so
I don't masturbate much. As always, my grades are top-notch, and I successfully entered the provincial key middle schools in our county with high scores.
High school learned to surf the Internet, and students often surf the Internet all night. I didn't know what to do when surfing the internet at that time. I spend most of my time chatting and watching movies on QQ. There are many movies on the computer in Internet cafes, including many pornographic videos.
Shadow, occasionally watching a little porn makes me feel sick, but after watching some porn, the scenes in the movie before going to bed automatically emerge countless times until they disappear after masturbation, so the masturbation times are more and more frequent. this
At that time, my body changed obviously: my hair began to get greasy, and it would get oily if I didn't wash it for a day; The face is oily; The quality of sleep is obviously worse; Unable to concentrate in class; Personality becomes impatient and impatient;
Poor memory, even forgetting the day before the next day. During this time, I often quarrel with my grandmother. It's not pleasing to the eye to go back for a holiday. I feel that grandma didn't do a good job in home hygiene and didn't cook in time, so she just
I will lose my temper with my grandmother and often quarrel with her. I haven't said a word to her properly. Although she had a lot of grievances and did a lot of farm work, I didn't listen to her and had a good chat with her.
My relationship with my grandmother has become very bad. During that time, I often saw grandma's eyes red and swollen when I got up in the morning. I know she cries in bed at night, because there is no one to talk to, and she can only put it down silently in the dead of night.
Tears. You know, I grew up with my grandparents. They kept all the delicious food for me and didn't allow me to do any heavy work. At that time, I was sickly and often had a high fever in the middle of the night. Grandma first wiped my whole body with ginger and rice wine, such as
If not, they have to carry me to the small clinic, so they basically don't sleep at night and continue to do farm work the next day. When I was young, I was also very sensible and filial to them. I remember once my parents were at home and cooked chicken and grandpa's milk.
Milk is still doing farm work outside, and my parents gave me a chicken leg. I secretly put the drumsticks at grandma's house because I was afraid they would come back without chickens. At that time, my mother quarreled with my grandmother, and I always stood on her side to help her.
In other words, now my relationship with grandma has changed a hundred and eighty degrees, and grandma is naturally extremely sad and lost. As a result, my grades plummeted, so that I failed in the college entrance examination in Sun Shan and had to repeat one year.
Later, I was admitted to the university and got the score line of duplicate books, but to be on the safe side, it is better to apply for two books. Later, I didn't take the postgraduate entrance examination and was transferred to two schools for postgraduate study. I learned to masturbate when I was in college and graduate school.
Get used to it. My body gradually found out many diseases: rhinitis at first, arthritis and gastroenteritis later, and it still hurts for several days after playing a ball. I have been to the best local military hospital for treatment and spent a lot of money.
But the effect didn't last long, and these chronic diseases have been bothering me; On the other hand, my parents can't save any money no matter how hard they work and work overtime. Uncle and aunt are not in harmony and want to divorce; Father's sister's husband
Divorce with menstruation; My aunt's eldest son ran away from home and has not been heard from for 9 years; Grandpa is paralyzed in bed and blind; After I got engaged, I broke up and emptied my family savings. There are more than 70 thousand gifts and hardware, as well as banquet ceremonies
Products, back and forth add up to hundreds of thousands, and the shares of a relative have also been retired; The work was not smooth, and the first job was fired; I am a law major, working as a paralegal, and practicing in a law firm in Shenzhen.
Teacher, if you want to take the lawyer's license, you need to practice in a law firm for more than one year after passing the judicial examination. The Justice Bureau will issue a lawyer's license. When I finished the registration and file procedures, I found that we couldn't hang the internship certificate.
I didn't ask to resign because I thought my boss was very kind to me at that time. I have been working for more than half a year, and I have to wait seven months before I can hang up my internship. I don't know why my life, work and family relationship are getting so bad.
Cake! I'm confused.
Until more than a month ago, I had a friend who knew this knowledge and he warned me.
I don't want to masturbate, because masturbation will ruin your good luck. He said that if you quit, after three months, you will find that your family is getting more and more harmonious, your health is getting better and better, your illness will be eliminated automatically, and your interpersonal relationship will be getting better and better.
Wealth will increase. He broke up with his long-time girlfriend because of masturbation. I am skeptical and try to do it. So far, I have persisted for more than a month, and the effect surprised me: I began to feel stronger.
Strong, energetic, especially attention and memory have been greatly improved, rhinitis and arthritis have improved a lot, and the nose is no longer blocked during the day, but it is a bit blocked when sleeping at night; When parents get along, mother often laughs.
Sound, even the usual serious father began to give a hearty laugh. I don't understand this phenomenon. I don't think it's strange that my body has changed since I quit masturbation, but why does the status and relationship of my family gradually change?
So what? My friend explained to me: If you commit adultery, you will see the disharmony around you gradually appear. Your family is the closest person to you and will be implicated in innocence. Once the family is not harmonious, you are not safe.
Ning, this is torture in disguise for you. The purpose is to make you suffer the corresponding retribution, while your family is innocently implicated because of your lewdness. Therefore, I advise all people who have masturbation habits with the experience of someone who has experienced it.
Both men and women should quit, and don't trust the opinions of western experts easily. In fact, masturbation is very harmful, and the view that masturbation is normal and forgivable advocated by experts is wrong. We suffer from masturbation.
I don't know, this is the most dangerous thing. Western experts believe that masturbation is harmless and normal. This kind of understanding will only give masturbators an excuse to forgive themselves, but also an excuse to indulge their bad habits, although psychologically there will be.
Comfortable, but the impact is real, and our health is only known to ourselves. Experts believe that the so-called moderate masturbation is beneficial and completely wrong, because a person with masturbation habits is meaningless.
Ambitious people can't control this degree. Moderation will only make the consequences less, but it is inevitable to damage the good news.
Now I am back in the sixth grade and junior high school. This feeling is so comfortable. I feel a bright aura shining all over my body. For example, the winter sun shines on me, and the whole person is not as depressed as before. I used to think I was full of energy.
The bad thing is that I exercise too little. I deliberately went to the gym to exercise and play basketball, but it didn't work. I even consumed more energy and my health was worse. This is because I didn't find the real reason. What do I have with me now?
Loyalty is getting bigger and bigger. I have read Zeng Guofan's letter before, which said: "Looking at Qingming is like the rising sun." Translated into vernacular, my heart is aboveboard, just like the morning sun rising in my heart. I don't have
What kind of state it is to know the law, and now I finally realize it. I feel extremely honored to share the same feelings with a saint! I am very grateful for the inspiration from my friends. I sincerely hope that this article can help people who see me.
Help me, I believe that as long as you insist, you will definitely see and feel this feeling.