I am used to talking to myself.

If love can be sublimated

Let it evaporate with tears.

How I want to catch up with the rush of this winter.

Looking back, I found that you and I were already at the ends of the earth.

I think I'll just go first.

Smiling means I will look back.

Maybe everything is just a dream I made up when I was awake.

I still think about it often.

That brief encounter cherished each other.

I really want to review it again.

A strange and familiar street view.

The seasons will alternate

It is inevitable that some hearts will wither.

Maybe we have to give up.

Hug you tightly in my memory.

If I had stayed where I was that day ...

-"I'm sorry, I love you"

It is getting quieter and quieter. There was a cup of warm honey water on the table, and Chen Qizhen's ethereal and clear voice echoed in the room. Write jokes on the computer, dribs and drabs, mourning the lost happiness. When you can't write, sit on the floor in front of the French window, with your hands around, and quietly think about some ideas.

Slight coolness began to spread from the fingertips, so he would always put my hand in his palm or directly in his coat pocket. Nowadays, only in sunny days, when the sun shines through the fingers, can every knuckle feel a little warmth.

"With the pupil, if you lose him, will your heart be warm forever ..." At this moment, how I want to ignore the loneliness in the eyes of catalpa. However, the sadness I deliberately hide has nowhere to hide. The only thing I can do is pray for the sunset: to be happy in a world without me.

"Fool, looking at your happiness is my happiness." When Yan Zi said this, her eyes always sparkled with crystal light.

Seeing couples repeating pictures that once belonged to us, I fantasized about something around me, but all I touched was the cool air and my own shadow. Sorry, I remember. Memories, memories that can't be returned. I will work hard and stop crying. Even if I forget, let me think again.

I am a child who doesn't know how to cherish myself, as you often say. Then every day, he sends me text messages to remind me to drink milk and eat on time, for fear that my stomach will abuse me again. When he is busy, he will call directly and say a few simple words to light up my day.

Once I had an inflamed throat, he fed me a cup of bitter tea like a child. When I finished reading it with my nose held, his face was spoiled and cherished. At that moment, he was just a child in my eyes, a child who loved me wholeheartedly.

In the saddest time, I often miss those simple and beautiful little happiness in the past. Yan Zi always tells me one joke after another at this time, and then I will find in his exaggerated expression that my happiness is still my happiness, but there is no room for me in my happiness. However, the sadness he brought me still refuses to fade.

After the cycle of four seasons, I can be strong enough not to let tears fall when I think about it. From meeting to falling in love to leaving, from beginning to end to now.

The sunset glow on the horizon makes this cold winter a little warmer, but it still can't slow down the passers-by in a hurry. In the weather with only 1 1℃, they all want to feel the warmth of home early. It's just that I'd rather wander in the park than go back to my home alone. Wrap a scarf around half my face, even if it doesn't make me feel too warm.

A new text message came from the mobile phone, "Yitong, where are you?" In the face of sudden love, I chose to escape. In this cold and bleak winter, I hope it is my family that warms me. The scene of eating quietly around the dining table with busy parents can only be seen in imagination. Close the phone and continue my trance.

"Ha ha, you're here." Looking up, I saw a dark blue trench coat, khaki slacks and Adidas black sneakers standing in front of me, panting. Regardless of my surprise, "why are you sitting here alone? What should I do if I catch a cold in such a cold day? " ! Can't you take good care of yourself ... ""How did you know I was here? " "I don't know. I remember you mentioned this street park. Try your luck. "Looking at this person in front of me, my cold heart seems to have a little temperature. Is it my illusion?

"I'll accompany you." Said, going to sit down beside me, very discretion to stop talking. Until the neon lights in the street lit up, when did this small town become so prosperous? I stood up to leave, my feet were unstable and I almost fell to the ground. He hugged me quickly. "Idiot, your feet are numb. Come, I'll carry you. " Before he could refuse, it was already on his back.

After dark, the temperature was lower, the air was filled with the faint fragrance of camphor trees, and there were not many pedestrians, so he walked slowly behind my back. Stubbornly keep a certain distance from his back, even though he is cold all over.

"It hurts me to be so quiet with Ling Tong, you know?"

"……"

"Tell me, how can I get into your heart?"

"……"

"Stop pushing me away, will you?"

My body trembled slightly, and he noticed it and stopped. It is undeniable that in him, I found a long-lost sense of security and saw that there is another me in this world. I can't find a reason to refuse this only warmth. The moment I nodded, a tear fell. He tilted his face. "Fool, I don't want to make you cry. I want you to smile every day. " Slowly lean on his back, put your arms around his neck tightly and put your head next to his cheek. Suddenly, I foolishly hoped that at the end of this road, we would all be white-haired. ...

Every day I pay is happy, and shallow smiles begin to appear on my face more and more. Catalpa Qi always said when my mouth rose, "With Puppy Puppy, you should always be so happy, even if I didn't give you happiness ..."

I hold my hand and walk on the clean street. The temperature from my palm is warm, not only my cold hands, but also my whole world. On the big screen of the square, there is a new advertisement of Youlemei.

"I ... what is yours?"

"You are my Youlemei!"

"ah? ! I am milk tea! "

"In this way, I can hold you in my hand."

Luo Qiu stood in front of me, holding my face in both hands, and her mouth rose into a beautiful arc. In his pupil, I saw my happy self.

At Christmas, he appeared in front of me, holding a bunch of roses and a dazzling red. I didn't tell him that I liked white roses. He refused all the invitations to the party and held me tightly in his arms. "I just want to be by your side." But why is there sadness in his eyes? Am I too sensitive?

Time passed slowly, but I still gave me the most love. It's just that every time my fingertips cross his slightly wrinkled brow, they always give me a gentle smile and pretend nothing.

The night before his birthday, he walked along the embankment, clutching his fingers. The wind was not very strong, but I sneezed. He held me in his arms. "Is it cold?" "No." On the contrary, he held it tighter. "Hey, what's the matter with you?" "With the pupil, I am afraid that you will suddenly disappear." "Fool, how can it be?"

At home, the mobile phone rang, and a strange number, press the answer key, came a woman's voice, "Are you a primary school student? Hello, my name is Yali, and I'm your ex-girlfriend. We have separated, but I still love him, and I know that he loves you now, but he must marry me to get his father's financial support and his career can be smooth. " Therefore, there can be no future between you. He has been unwilling to hurt you, even more than once for you and his family. Then this bad guy is me. If you really love him, please leave him. "I can't say a word before I hang up.

Back against the door, slowly slide to the floor, holding your knees, without tears. Which idol drama is this? I really want to tell myself that this is just a prank, but my heart, which is so painful that I can't breathe, cruelly tells me that all this is so real. My world is so quiet that I can only hear the sound of my heart breaking all over the floor. Scenes of sweet pictures are staged in my mind. Who can tell me if all this is just my illusion? Or, this is just a dream, a beautiful dream. If so, can you keep me sleeping? ...

The light came through the French window, and it was dawn. Today is Ruoqiu's birthday.

At the gate of the playground, Ruoqiu is already waiting there. We agreed to ride the ferris wheel together. Seeing me, I walked very fast and my lips were still beautiful. Take a deep breath and give him a smile he likes. "Hey, you're here. Let's go in. " Say, take my hand, natural action, but so warm. After today, everything can only be nostalgia.

The ferris wheel turned slowly and reached the highest point. I looked up. "I love you with my eyes." Gently print my lips. It turned out that he always remembered that I told him the legend of the Ferris wheel. If two lovers kiss when the Ferris wheel turns to the highest point, they can go on. However, legends can only be legends forever. Chin on his shoulder, hold him tightly, don't let him find the sadness in my eyes. Hey, you said you loved me when you left me. Should I laugh or cry?

Come out of the grid of the ferris wheel, "hey, I'm thirsty." "That I buy you a drink, you darling wait for me here, don't go away. Huh? " "Very good." I stood there and watched him drift away. Oh, how I wish I could watch every sunrise and sunset with you, how I wish you would give me warmth in every winter, how I wish … Fate has given me too much care, but it doesn't allow us enough time to test what eternity is.

Turn around and leave, this is my last pride.

Walking towards the merry-go-round, my sadness is revealed in front of every carefree smiling face. Take out your mobile phone, "well, forgive me for not telling you personally. Thank you for every happy moment, but I am not the one to grow old with you. If someone is destined to leave first, I'd rather it was me. Tell me, you will be happy. Happy birthday. " Send.

In an instant, "Ruoxun" began to appear on the screen of the mobile phone, and my thumb was placed on the answer key and I never pressed it. I'm afraid I'll be reluctant to leave when I hear his voice. Then, it is a short message after another.

"Pupil spirit, what's the matter with you? Did something happen? "

"Pupil spirit, where are you? Don't hide, okay? "

"With the students, Yali looked for you, didn't she?"

"No matter what happens, please believe me."

"How can I be happy without you?" My heart began to ache.

"And pupil, I really lost you?" I feel cold all over.

……

The cold right hand gripped the middle finger of the left hand. There is an old saying that the heart and the left middle finger are interlinked, so when you feel distressed, the left middle finger can also feel it. Turn off the phone, take out the SIM card and put it in the recycling bin on the roadside. What I threw away myself, and happiness that doesn't belong to me. When the music stops, I'll leave, that's all. Goodbye, Luo Qiu. Never again. In the next reincarnation, let's not meet again.

Tears began to blur my vision. I kept going, with no direction, just trying to escape as far as possible. All the wishes we made together were so sincere, but God was too busy to realize them all. Sorry, I don't want anything, as long as you are happy, even if your happiness is not because of me.

I used to be glad that I found another arc in my life, and I could piece it together with myself into a complete circle. However, in his doting, I neglected that our radii are different.

A person walking on a familiar street is still quiet, with a faint smile on his mouth, hiding his lingering sadness. Many times, Yan Zi will take me to one interesting place after another that he knows. Looking at his bright smile, fortunately, I brought him more than sadness.

"Pupil, shall we take the Ferris wheel? You know, the Ferris wheel has a beautiful legend ... "

the end

Happy birthday.

Wish. Ann.