Not long ago, I posted a paragraph in a circle of friends: "If you haven't secretly cried in the middle of the night, you are not qualified to talk about life." Then it attracted the praise of countless people.

Actually, when I sent that message, I just cried. I cried in my room. That night, my mother was ill and just left the hospital, but her health was still very poor, her memory had declined and her reaction had slowed down. Mother doesn't like taking medicine, but she won't get well without it. This makes my father and I very anxious. Dad was impatient and spoke loudly, so he began to blame his mother. I advised my father: don't say that about my mother. She just left the hospital. She is still a patient.

As a result, my father was unhappy, so he began to talk about me, saying that I shouldn't go to work so far away, saying that I shouldn't travel around, saying that I shouldn't be so old and still delay getting married … Then, I cried. I went back to my room and secretly cried. Tears flow to cheeks and corners of the mouth, salty.

I cry, I am sad, I am helpless, because I am not understood. I want to realize my dream, and I want to be a cultural industry. Only Beijing is the most suitable place for China. I travel, not just for fun, but to collect materials, broaden my horizons and prepare for new creations. I put off getting married because I don't want to criticize those who don't want to get married for the sake of getting married, and those who don't want to get married in a hurry.

Perhaps, many people think that I often travel around without work, that I have many works and many fans, that I have many beautiful clothes to attend all kinds of tall activities, that I can wake up naturally when I am my own boss, and that I can start making "feather jewelry" and wear all kinds of jewelry ... Everyone thinks that I am very successful, and some are envious and some are jealous.

In fact, I am not as successful as everyone thinks, and I am not so glamorous. Traveling to various places is partly at one's own expense and partly at the invitation of institutions, and most of them have writing tasks or publicity tasks. There are indeed many works with many fans, but there is still a long way to go compared with the most popular and popular writers, and at least so far, I have not made any works that are familiar to the public. I do dress up for all kinds of high-altitude activities, but more often I sit in front of the computer and type in my pajamas. It's true that you can sleep until you wake up naturally, but it's more stressful and more responsible. It is true that making a jewelry brand is more suitable for women, but it is also laborious to make a brand.

Of course, I can't talk about failure. If people think that a woman over 30 who is not married is a loser, then I am a loser. However, I really enjoy my life, especially my life alone. I like to clean the house, buy a bunch of lilies, let the sun shine through the window, turn on the wireless speaker and let my favorite music spread throughout the house. Then I write, read, watch programs, or take a nap. It was really enjoyable.

I am in no hurry to get married, but I also reject marriage. I may be more anxious about my children's expectations than I am about my marriage. I'm not in a hurry, but my parents are. I like my lifestyle, but my parents despise my lifestyle. They are my parents, and it is difficult for me to change them. Therefore, I can't go against my heart to cater to their wishes, but I have to take care of their feelings. So, when I hit a wall at work and couldn't pay the rent, I never cried. At that moment, I cried.

At that moment, I was thinking, has everyone who looks glamorous and has a successful career ever secretly cried at night? I think it must be. Behind the glamour is more sweat and hard work, a unique loneliness, an incomprehensible embarrassment, and a torment that is still struggling in the economic crisis. Don't cry secretly, how many big bosses jump off a building because of insolvency, stock trading failure and business failure.

A good friend of mine is beautiful, has a good family background and is married to a good husband's family. He lives in a big villa, drives a Mercedes-Benz BMW, drives Chanel and has a lovely son. What is rare is that she and her husband have a good relationship and go hand in hand everywhere. I simply envy others. They say she must have accumulated virtue in her last life.

But one day, she cried because she talked about her career. It turns out that her husband's career has never been very good. The company he founded was unprofitable and later closed down. He does what he likes without making money. I don't like anyone who can make money, but he is always a little lucky, or a little unfinished. Therefore, my husband is particularly insecure and insecure. He was afraid that she would dislike him, so he had to go to the gym to vent. She was very sad and cried when she saw her husband. Career is a man's self-esteem and face. She tried to help him, but failed. She doesn't know what to do. Therefore, when she is alone in the dead of night, she will secretly cry and she will suffer from insomnia.

These successful people who seem to have a good life have all secretly cried in the middle of the night, not to mention the general public.

You may cry secretly in the middle of the night because your boyfriend cheated on you, you may find a rich man to cry secretly in the middle of the night because your girlfriend dislikes you and dumped you, you may cry secretly in the middle of the night because you can't afford enough money to buy medicine for your parents, you may cry secretly in the middle of the night because you are fired but dare not tell your relatives and friends to save face, or you may cry secretly in the middle of life because your dream has not yet come true.

You may cry in the middle of the night because you still can't afford to buy a house after struggling in Beijing for ten years. You may cry in the middle of the night because your child can't afford a good kindergarten, but someone else can get in. You may cry in the middle of the night, because marriage is like chicken ribs, and you don't know what to do. You may have an argument because the noodle shop owner gave you less beef in the beef noodles. After the quarrel, you were sad, because this is not the life you want, so you cried in the middle of the night. ..

Sneaking in the middle of the night, what a picturesque scene, what a sad scene, what an infectious scene.

As adults, we can't cry, be hungry and hurt like children, cry whenever we want, make trouble whenever we want, and have no scruples.

Some time ago, I saw a classic saying: How I wish I were a child, because a bruised knee is easier to heal than a broken heart.

As adults, we have suffered great grievances, setbacks, pressures and injuries, but due to face saving and consideration of other people's feelings, we forced a smile, pretended to be relaxed, broke our teeth and swallowed blood. Therefore, only in the middle of the night, when no one can see or hear, secretly cry and vent.

I cried and vented. The next day, I still faced the world with a smile, as if to tell the world that I am fine, I am really fine.

Yes, I'm fine, really fine, even if I cry secretly in the middle of the night.

But who hasn't secretly cried in the middle of the night?