I went home after dinner that night and didn't check drunk driving that year. I drank some wine and then drove home. It suddenly rained heavily on the road. I was just about to slow down. Unexpectedly, an electric car suddenly appeared in front of me. I quickly braked, but I heard a crash and a figure fell to the ground. I was scared at that time, so I quickly got off the bus to check it out. Fortunately, the man was only scratched, so I quickly went forward to help her take her to the hospital for examination. As soon as she looked up, I saw her face clearly. This is a face that has puzzled me for many years-curved eyebrows, big talking eyes, high nose and just right mouth. In the rain, her plain appearance is even more touching. "Alina Zhang ..." I blurted out her name. She paused and seemed to recognize me: "Wang Lin?"
"Yes, it's me. I didn't expect us to meet again in this way. " I couldn't restrain my excitement, and my hands and feet trembled with my heartbeat. I haven't felt this throbbing for a long time, as if I were back in high school.
"Psst …" When she frowned, I realized that what I should do now was not to catch up. "I'm sorry, I forgot you were injured when I was excited. Let's go to the hospital first ... "
"It's okay, so you don't have to run anymore ... what can you do if you run for 20 years ..." Then she snorted and smiled. "I'm kidding you. After all these years, I didn't expect you to be so stupid. You haven't changed at all. "
I recognized her humor and smiled shyly. When I was almost forty years old, I actually felt shy.
Then I helped her get on the bus and sent her to the nearest hospital for examination. Although I stopped the car in time because of the low speed, she was still broken. The doctor suggested hospitalization, and I quickly went through the hospitalization procedures.
Because I had to inform her family to be hospitalized, I quickly asked her family's contact information. Her playful face suddenly lost its luster: "I divorced and moved out with my children." The child is now in a boarding school and there is no one at home. "
I coughed twice apologetically, indicating that I would take full responsibility and take care of her until she left the hospital. She moved to wipe her tears, and my heart is like a litter of kittens, sometimes itchy, sometimes painful, and I can't say how it feels. Seeing that she was asleep, I quickly called my wife and told her about the car accident. She is anxious to go to the hospital. I politely refused to let her take care of the children at home, saying that I could do it myself.
Hanging up the phone, I felt a twinge of guilt. I don't know why the words on my lips came back. I kept Alina Zhang from my wife. I don't know if it's because of my guilty conscience ... Alina Zhang, she was my first love, specifically, infatuation.
Looking at Alina Zhang's sleeping face, my memory goes back to 20 years ago. When we were in high school, Alina Zhang was very beautiful and lively, and many boys liked her. I am one of them. But I am plain, and my grades are average. How can I enter the eyes of Alina Zhang? In those days when I secretly loved her, my eyes always fell in her direction involuntarily in class. She often appears in my dreams, and only in my dreams do I dare to confess. In my dream, she was so gentle, her soft hands and pink lips ... When I woke up in the morning, I was always embarrassed to find that the sheets had to be changed again ... In this way, Alina Zhang accompanied my youth. If it weren't for the fight, maybe I could see her for another year. ...
That day, I can't remember the cause. Got into a fight with some buddies and the school next door. I don't know who accidentally broke the other person's head. With the generated blood and the chaotic crowd, I can't remember what happened afterwards. I only remember that the next day, we were forced to leave school forever, leaving my dream of Alina Zhang.
Maybe it's a shame. I've never been back to school, let alone attended any class reunion. With the passage of time, people around me changed one crop after another, and Alina Zhang appeared less and less in my dreams. That is, in recent years, I have been unable to have sex, but every time I think of Alina Zhang, it seems that I have returned to that year. In the time and space that my wife doesn't know, I have sex with Alina Zhang again and again with my soul. ...
"Ward round ..." The nurse's voice pulled me back from my memory. "Take your lover's temperature, and I'll get the watch later." The nurse gave me a thermometer, and I took it, but I was inexplicably excited ... Is it because of the word "love"?
Alina Zhang was awakened by the noise. I handed her the thermometer, and her face turned red ... I wonder if she heard that sentence. To break the awkward atmosphere, I asked Alina Zhang if he was hungry. Then I went downstairs and bought some fruit and food. Alina Zhang's arms and legs were injured. I suggest feeding her. At first, she was embarrassed, but after trying to raise her arms, she agreed to my proposal. Hey, hey, Alina Zhang's tears came down from her big eyes.
"I'm sorry, I'm just ... I'm just a little touched ... no one has been so kind to me for a long time." Alina Zhang choked up.
That night, we talked late. I just found out that the goddess I have secretly loved for so long has such a sad past.
Alina Zhang lost her father in her early years, her mother took her to remarry, and her stepfather drank heavily, but even so, her mother could not divorce because she had no financial resources. All these sufferings are blamed on Alina Zhang, because she can only marry a rotten person. Alina Zhang's mother punched and kicked her after being beaten. It also reminds me of why her face hurts from time to time. Under such circumstances, Alina Zhang has finally grown up, and her stepfather will naturally not provide for her to go to college. Besides, her grades are average, but fortunately, Alina Zhang is very beautiful. Her stepfather and mother regard her as a cash cow. After failing in the college entrance examination, she was betrothed to a rich local family as a wife.
I thought I could live a hard life after marriage, but I didn't expect her husband to be an alcoholic and a domestic violence bastard. As there has been no job, she can only bear it silently. It was not until the children went to boarding school that she escaped and made up her mind to divorce. In order to support herself, she delivered takeout, which she brought back in the rain in this car accident. ...
After listening to her experience, I feel more protective as a man. I hope I can protect her, take care of her and give her a home. Give her a home ... when I first thought of this idea, I was shocked.
But I soon became addicted to taking care of Alina Zhang. During her hospitalization, we lived together day and night, and every day I saw her bright smile, I felt that I had the whole world. I have found a throb that I haven't had for many years, and I feel like a young and ignorant teenager. That feeling is so wonderful that I am intoxicated with it.
After Alina Zhang was discharged from the hospital, I still found an excuse to go to her house to buy things and send medicine. I seem to be a young man in love, and I never get tired of listening to her. Alina Zhang seems to be interested in me, too. She accepted all my kindness and kept me at home for dinner from time to time. We are like lovers in love. At this time, I seem to have forgotten that I am the husband of another woman and the father of two other children.
And I'm getting colder and colder with my wife, always looking for Alina Zhang as an excuse to socialize. Soon, my wife discovered my abnormality. Once when she came home, she found a shopping receipt in my shirt pocket, which was a receipt for clothes I bought for Alina Zhang.
This time, in the face of my wife's intransigence, I felt bored without a trace of guilt. I made a dash for the door under the pull of my wife and went straight to Alina Zhang's home. That night, we had sex
After the war, my wife was surprisingly calm. What was waiting for me was a divorce agreement. This is exactly what I want at the moment. I left my house, car and savings to my wife and children. I thought it would be a man who did this. Then I moved on to my new life without looking back. At that moment, I was relieved, and I was looking forward to a sweet new life with Alina Zhang.
At first, Alina Zhang and I lived in her rental house. Because I am innocent, I have no savings and can only live in Alina Zhang temporarily. At first, Alina Zhang was very kind to me. She thinks the company is still here, and I will always make a comeback. The first few years were the happiest time after we lived together.
But the longer we spend together, the more I discover Alina Zhang's shortcomings. She is eccentric, moody and always suddenly hysterical. She has no sense of security, and wants me to report my whereabouts at any time. She always calls when she socializes, and makes a scene when she goes home slightly. She is very suspicious, always checking my phone records and WeChat records, and checking my clothes for traces of women every time I go home. She also controls every penny of mine and pays all my income. I apply to her every time I spend money. She always makes a mountain out of a molehill, sometimes she fights with me for trumped-up charges and even scratches my face. All this makes me unbearable and suffocating. The subordinates in the company are pointing at me behind my back, so many customers are lost.
Every time I tried to talk to Alina Zhang, she cried like a pear flower with rain, and told me about her tragic experience, and I was always soft-hearted. But over and over again, I seem to be immune to her tears.
The fuse was my father's stroke. That year, I was 45 years old, and my father had a stroke and went to the hospital in the city. My company can't leave and I want Alina Zhang to look after it for a few days. I didn't expect my mother to call me and cry the next day. Alina Zhang not only doesn't take care of the elderly, but also says that my parents are an old woman. What makes me even more unbelievable is that she didn't pay my dad's hospitalization fee. I asked her, and she said coldly, "He is your father, not my father. Why should I take care of him? I have never eaten a grain of rice from them, and they have never recognized me as a wife. "
In anger, I raised my hand and hit Alina Zhang, which was the first time I hit her. That day, she tore at me like a madman, screaming at the top of her lungs ... I felt like I didn't know the woman in front of me. How did that gorgeous girl become like this?
After running away from home, I went to the hospital. In front of my father's bed, my ex-wife and two children were there, watching them talking and laughing. I dare not go in. Guilt and regret haunt me.
After the divorce, I wanted to bring my children to accompany me many times. I always flinch when I look at Alina Zhang Darla's face. So I drifted away from the children. Children also resent me for abandoning them. Alina Zhang kept his mouth shut about my money, and I didn't pay child support. Alina Zhang said that I left innocently and gave me everything I needed. I have no face to see my ex-wife and children again.
Alina Zhang has been lukewarm to me since I hit her. Every time I go home, I don't have hot meals. You don't even wash my clothes. Later, when I was old and my business was not enough, I sold the company directly. I want to take a sum of money to enjoy my old age.
I later found out that Alina Zhang secretly used the money to buy a house for her daughter. She told me that I would rely on my daughter to provide for the elderly in the future anyway, and I didn't care too much, even though the child looked at me with hostile eyes every time. She probably always thought I had destroyed her parents' family. ...
Three years ago, Alina Zhang's daughter was pregnant and asked Alina Zhang to see the baby. I followed ... but it's not appropriate for me to live together. Oh, by the way, I forgot to mention that Alina Zhang and I haven't got a license for many years. Alina Zhang always said it was a piece of paper. As long as we are together, it's all the same. Besides, her divorce lawsuit has been going on for many years, and I haven't mentioned it again.
I am alone in the rental house. At first, Alina Zhang came back to see me every few days, and then he came back every half month. Once I fell to the ground, and my neighbor took me to the hospital. It costs a lot in the hospital, so Alina Zhang always gives me cold words. After leaving the hospital, I can't move easily and always limp. I didn't know that Alina Zhang cut the rent directly. I just got kicked out by the landlord.
When I limped to find Alina Zhang's daughter's house, I didn't expect another cynicism. Alina Zhang's daughter said that we have nothing to do with the law, and they have no obligation to prepare for my retirement. I didn't ask them to support me either. I only asked Alina Zhang to give me half of his savings, but Alina Zhang said he had no money. I suggested that her daughter's house was also bought by me. Her daughter's son-in-law directly called me an old rascal, saying that her mother had slept with me for 20 years and served me well. Even if she hired a nanny, the money would be enough. I was so angry that I couldn't speak. I didn't expect Alina Zhang to put in a word for me. Instead, he helped his daughter and son-in-law kick me out.
Now, I am sitting alone on a park bench, reviewing my life. This may be the punishment of impulsiveness in those days.