"What is the definition of beauty? 」

On a warm afternoon, I was invited to meet a special girl. Her name is Chen Ning. She is under 30 years old. She has a unique and energetic face and gracefully introduces her new book to everyone. At first glance, it is no different from ordinary beautiful girls. It was not until I found the pressure suit hidden under her clothes and wrapped around her fingertips that I reminded everyone that she had experienced that terrible disaster that shocked the whole Taiwan.

In the summer of 20 15, an explosion accident of Eight Immortals dust changed the lives of 499 people. At that time, 24-year-old Chen Ning had 85% burns all over her body and finally came back from the gate of hell. After more than 900 days of repeated debridement, scabbing and rehabilitation, she finally returned to the sun and bravely showed her mental journey and scars, which is 15 degrees in the title. Although it is only a little, it has an indispensable influence. Similarly, she thinks that she is "just a little braver than others" because of this accident, and she knows people's resilience.

"At first, I didn't want to accept my body. It feels like it's not me. I'm not familiar with it. Her whole body was badly burned and scalded. Vestbo looked at the uneven wrist under the pressure suit. Although she has been scarred for more than two years, she is still unwilling to take off her pressure suit, and even put an extra layer of silicone film inside to endure the sultry itching, hoping to make her skin smoother and closer to the previous appearance.

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In the first sentence of Chen Ning's book, he wrote: "I haven't forgotten the expression on my parents' faces, but I am slowly looking at this daughter wrapped in a mummy with distress. In addition to enduring physical pain, I am more worried about dragging down my family and boyfriend who love me, but it is also because of their support that she can walk all the way here.

When her daughter spoke, Chen Ning's mother listened quietly. Although she will reveal her daughter's material from time to time, the tone of the joke reveals reluctance and love. My baby daughter, conceived in October and raised hard, changed overnight. Parents should be stronger in the face of their daughter's sadness. Chen Ning's mother said that at that time, the couple also discussed whether to resign to take care of her, hoping to help her recover soon.

During the treatment, Chen Ning's physical pain will inevitably affect her psychology, and she will even lose her temper with her parents who take care of her hard. At this time, her mother will remind her not to be over-controlled by her emotions. Chen Ning has now returned to social life. In fact, she will return to the workplace at first. It's also because her mother doesn't like her lying in bed all day except going to the hospital, and she is quite grateful for forcing her to return to the crowd.

The so-called beauty is not only the appearance, but also the soul, clothes and ideas. The definition of beauty should be decided by yourself. With extraordinary courage and self-confidence, Chen Ning shows the strong side of women. She said with a smile that "writing a book" is one of her 50 wishes in life, and it is also the most impossible one at the beginning. The dust explosion accident completely overturned her life, but it also gave her another possibility.

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Excerpt from Courage of 15 Degrees ── 900-day confession of a girl who burned dust

"I'm afraid that fireball is my brother ..."

The picture in front of the stall owner is as horrible. Some people take turns sitting in the ice bucket, soaking feebly, while others lean together and lie on the figure-eight swimming ring, receiving water from vendors and other uninjured people inch by inch. One after another, they cried, "Be gentle ... Oh, please be gentle ..."

"I'm in pain ... can I have some water? Can you help me water it? 」

"My girlfriend is dying! She's dying! ! ! Woo ... wake up, help, help! ! ! The woman in front of her began to tremble violently and fell on her boyfriend's shoulder, unable to stop, shaking all over. Her boyfriend was devastated. The girl was badly hurt and really couldn't hold on.

Then, the screams stopped with a loud chirp, and everyone turned to two fire engines coming straight. Everyone was very fast, even rolling and crawling with the past, hugging the fireman who had just got off the bus for help, but only two fire engines came to the site to put out the fire.

I am also weak lying on the eight-character swimming ring. The number one rescuer looks after several people at the same time. He belongs to everyone, but every few minutes, he still kneels beside me to help me pour water. As soon as the water poured down, the wound was stung by the water, but at this moment, the burning feeling inside the body really slowed down, not so hot, but the pain continued to follow.

My hands are shaking badly. In order to prevent myself from fainting or falling asleep, I began to try to talk to people around me to boost my spirits.

I shared a bottle of water with the boy next to me. He always looks calm, dealing with his wounds and pouring water himself, but sometimes he frowned slightly and groaned painfully. When we were dealing with our poor hands and feet, we had a chat that was not established. He is a fitness instructor and teaches in Taoyuan.

"I don't know what happened to my brother ... I'm afraid that fireball is him ..." His eyes looked at "there".

I told him it would be okay. Later, I asked him three or four times: "What happened to my face?" "My face looks ok? He also patiently responded: "Nothing. It looks good. Later, he disappeared. When I decided to concentrate on saving myself, he limped back and said, "Come here! There is water over there. 」

I struggled out of the swimming ring and followed him to the oblique rear, a shower that happened to be unnoticed. We stood under the shower head and let the cold water pour down to cool down. It is precisely because of this action that when I arrived at the hospital, the depth of my whole body burns was judged by the doctor as "at most two degrees deep".

After standing for about twenty or thirty minutes, an uncle came and told us not to take a bath again, or we would lose our temperature and faint. We were persuaded for five minutes before we decided to leave the water source.

My uncle asked me, "Can I go?" He said that in the past, most people went to the main entrance square, where an emergency station had been organized, and all the injured people gathered to wait for the allocation of ambulances and left us here. So, without saying anything, I entered the eight-character swimming ring and was carried to the main entrance square by four other patrol members.

Can't stop shaking.

"Chen ... Ning ... vestbo ... Is that you?" A faint voice came from my right, and when I turned around, it was a small pavilion. We are angry with each other, saying that we should stick to it together, that everyone will be fine, and then continue to face their respective pains. Obviously, no one can share this matter.

Then the second rescuer appeared, a male college student and his girlfriend. They looked after me and the pavilion respectively, kept chatting with me, asked me where I lived and where I worked, and told me to stay awake.

But then, I was shaking more and more. The supervisor at the scene reminded him that it was time to keep me warm, so he and others joined forces to cover my body with two or three towels, but I still couldn't stop shaking. I suddenly became very tired. I wonder how this day came about. I just want to have a comfortable sleep.

At this point, he squeezed out a calm smile and said, "Ah! By the way, did you call your family? I will lend you your mobile phone. Who are you calling? What's the phone number? 」

I didn't look for my mobile phone all night, so I went out for help and reported my safety to my family and boyfriend, because I wanted to look at my father's mobile phone number weakly when I was a little decent: "Please dial 09 12...595 ..."

Dad quickly picked up the phone and said, "Hello? who is it? 」

Seeing the strange number, the cautious father naturally explained his defense: "Dad! ! I'm Vestabu, and I was burned in the Eight Immortals Paradise ... I'm in pain ... I'm waiting for an ambulance ... "I almost cried, but I held back my tears because it was so painful.

At first, my dad thought it was a fraud group that almost died. Later, my mother said to him, "Yes! She told me this morning that she was going to the Eight Immortals Paradise! She went to the Eight Immortals Paradise! At that time, my parents were playing cards at Aunt Luodong's house in Yilan. They immediately turned on the TV and confirmed my words.

Then my lover friends who traveled together also found me and Xiao Ting. My friend Sandy borrowed her mobile phone and asked me to call her boyfriend. My boyfriend, who was about to leave the department store, comforted me and said, "OK … OK … I'll go right away! Let me know if you get on the ambulance and go to the hospital. 」

So I started waiting for a long time. Because I answered quickly, my injury level got a green card. The green card should be the last one to get on the ambulance, because we have to wait, and we are willing to wait, compared with those who have gone into shock and suffered extensive burns.

It was about ten o'clock in the evening, so I couldn't hold on any longer. I said to my lover and friend, "I just heard that if someone can sit, I don't have to wait that long, and I seem to be able to sit …" So Sandy's boyfriend called three other boys and moved me to the front. I said to the pavilion, "Come on!" Then go straight to the gate.

The ambulance at the door has been waiting for a long time, but there are more injured people who need to get on the bus because they are stuck at the door. I keep reminding Sandy's boyfriend: "Tell them I can sit! So, the last ambulanceman pointed at me: "She got it first! She can sit down. 」

Three hours later, I finally got on the ambulance, and the signboard of the Eight Immortals was getting farther and farther away from me. My heart has never been so sour, and my name has become the key word of people's names in TV news pictures, and I have suffered a major accident.

Nurse, car attendant, very young. She just witnessed such a terrible situation, and her face was a little scared, but she tried to stay stable and accompanied me to talk to another injured person lying down. I said to her, "I want to have a rest ..." But she immediately retorted that I didn't sleep until I got to the hospital, and the doctor bandaged it and there were painkillers.

I nodded patiently.

Endure the pain and encourage another injured girl.

Another injured person, a girl, said to us in tears: "Why? I'm going to Australia for work and holiday next week ... I'm just coming to Taipei to meet my friends. Why? I have been looking forward to and planning for a long time ... I'm afraid I can't go again ... "

We encouraged her. No, when the injury healed, she applied again, but she responded that she was thirty years old. Thirty years old is the last year to apply for work leave, and we can't react any more. At that moment, everyone's dreams and lives seemed to be broken.

Later, he was sent to the Taipei Hospital of the Ministry of Health and Welfare in Xinzhuang. At that time, the hospital only accepted 12 injured people in the Eight Immortals, but the emergency room was in chaos. I was immediately pushed into a space separated by a curtain to examine the wound. The doctor came in and told practical nurse to cut off my bikini and pants, then turned and left.

I saw my body, which can only be described as black and blue. The nurse cooperated to apply a layer of scald ointment on it, insert intravenous indwelling needle, connect infusion, and then wrap it all over.

Later, the analgesic needle worked, and I felt less pain. Stay quietly in the negative pressure isolation ward until my parents come.

I didn't forget the expressions on their faces, but I slowly looked at my daughter who was wrapped in mummies with love. Unable to determine my injury, my parents frowned slightly. I feel a little pain in my nose, but it's not my fault.

Later, my boyfriend and his parents also came, with the same expression on their faces. Finally, we turned off the light in unexpected helplessness, and my mother accompanied me, and I fell asleep immediately.

"Go to sleep first! I should be safe. 」

Author \ Chen Ning 199 1 Born at the age of 26. The person injured in the Eight Immortals dust burning incident also served as a flight attendant of Singapore Airlines Scoot. The burn area was as high as 58% at the time of injury, and he was hospitalized for 7 1 day, twice in critical condition. I love writing very much, so through written records, I can truly restore my rehabilitation experience from injury and treatment to fighting contracture scars in the past two and a half years, and start my mental journey of "second life".