How many hurdles are there for Linyi hands-free candidates to fight the college entrance examination again?
What is the definition of happiness? Is life smooth sailing, having a happy family, or having a healthy body, enjoying the comfort of life and the pride of success ... It can be said that all people in the world have their own understanding and yearning for happiness, so that they are constantly chasing the footsteps of happiness. What's more, it will make onlookers feel that they don't know the true face of happiness, but they are just in happiness. A girl, a physically disabled girl-Li Zhihua, in her eyes, what is precious is not happiness itself, but knowing how to be happy and cherish. Life-threatening accident 1984 One day, a healthy baby was born in a farmer's home in Zhaojiabao Village, Yihe North Township, Zhalute Banner, Tongliao City, Inner Mongolia. The joy lasted for more than 100 days, but the disaster suddenly came. Because Li Zhihua's mother suffers from seasonal schizophrenia, every autumn and winter is the onset period. Unforeseen things happened. Just one hundred days after Li Zhihua's life clock, her mother left home because of illness. Li Zhihua's father left Li Zhihua at home and hurried to find his sick wife. At this time, Li Zhihua, who knew nothing about the world, knocked over a burning kerosene lamp, and a disaster swept her. Although she saved her life, she lost her hands forever. When I first met Li Zhihua, I couldn't find anything about her face and manners, but on the contrary, there was always a shy but strong smile on her not-so-white face. For her, the accident that changed her fate was not the destruction given to her by God, but a trial and test before she was demoted. Although she lost a pair of hands, it doesn't mean that she lost everything. She also has a pair of feet. With these feet, she not only completed the nine-year compulsory education, but also taught herself high school courses and resolutely closed the door of the university. Li Zhihua had a painful experience in primary school. She didn't know the difference between herself and others. She always thought she was born perfect. Her feet are as good as those of her peers and even more flexible than their children's hands. At the age of five, she could sew sandbags with her feet, write, draw, build a house and play house. When she watched her brother, sister and other children studying at school, she couldn't understand why her father didn't allow her to go to school, because she was stupid and poor, or because she had many speculations in her heart, but she never asked. She always stands outside the classroom secretly, taking down the teacher's words carefully. Because the window was too high, she found some bricks and piled them together, put her feet on them and leaned against the window. For Li Zhihua, every 45 minutes of class is not only a physical exercise, but also a sweet drop of rain and dew, which nourishes her eager brain. Perhaps in the eyes of ordinary people, standing and listening to lectures day after day is an insurmountable test of will. However, at the age of six or seven, she had no hands, but she had to overcome many problems in order to study. If you can't take notes, you can write with your heart, or you can sit on the cold ground and hold a stick with your feet. The homework left by the teacher goes home with a small blackboard and never stops ... For most children who are favored by heaven, writing homework can be said to be a task that has to be completed, and the teacher's evaluation of homework is even more depressing for children. But in Li Zhihua's view at that time, it was a precious courtesy to let the teacher correct the homework himself. In order to learn knowledge, she is afraid that the teachers and classmates in the classroom will find out her existence. She will sneak into her sister's class at the end of each class and come back to continue the class as soon as the bell rings. She thought she could fool everyone, and everything went well until that day ... the teacher asked a simple question in class that seemed to Li Zhihua, but no one in the class answered. She subconsciously shouted out the answer, but was found by the teachers and classmates. The teacher asked: Who are you? Li Zhihua didn't answer, just bowed his head. She can't explain her identity. She is even more afraid that when the words are spoken, she will lose the last small window where she can learn knowledge. What should she do? Tears swirled in her eyes and she gritted her teeth. The only belief is that she can't say anything. The teacher took her into the classroom and said to her classmates, "This classmate is very poor. Can you sneak her into our classroom? " Hearing this, Li Zhihua finally burst into tears. She opened her mouth, but she couldn't say anything ... so Li Zhihua walked from outside to inside the classroom, from standing to sitting. Even sitting on the floor of the classroom, even writing with trembling feet in the winter of MINUS 30 or 40 degrees, she is enthusiastic. "I am very lucky, I am very grateful to Teacher Tao. I can have classes with my students and give my homework to the teacher. I am really satisfied. " Turning to the exercise book of Li Zhihua primary school, it is hard to imagine that it was written by a person with his feet. When she was admitted to Yihe Middle School in the village and won the first place in the whole flag, there was such a passage: "I am the happiest. I have my parents, brothers and sisters who love me the most. My father is the sun in my heart. Although my mother is ill, her love is like rain and dew. Although intermittent, I still rely on it most. My brother and sister play with me and never bully me. I have a pair of hands that are different from others. I can do everything my classmates can do. I can help my mother work, help my father cook, jump rubber bands and kick sandbags. My' hand' can do so many things, and I think I am the happiest. " From then on, Li Zhihua knew that he could get happiness without his hands. Junior high school students learn to stand on their own feet, and children in China are generally short of calcium. On the one hand, parents do too much, which makes children lack the necessary self-care ability; On the other hand, most children have no sense of self-reliance and have long developed a kind of inertia and inertia of relying on their parents. Li Zhihua, who lost his hands, did the opposite. Going to junior high school depends on her brother's giving up. In the face of this hard-won gift, she cherishes "the greatest advantage of junior high school life is learning to be independent." This is Li Zhihua's personal experience. The middle school in Li Zhihua is far from home, so it is inevitable to stay in school. The troubles caused by physical disability are exposed at this time, especially going to the toilet. "Because the students came from different villages and didn't know each other, it was inconvenient to ask others for help, and later they learned to go to the toilet by themselves. That is the biggest problem in my junior high school life. " Another embarrassing thing that Li Zhihua faced during school was making quilts. "I used to be a mother at home. I was told to get up every day. I was afraid that my clothes would get cold, so I baked them with fire and put them on. I never let me fold the quilt. " Li Zhihua still clearly remembers the first time he folded a quilt at school. At 5 o'clock in the morning, she tried hard at the four corners of the bed from time to time, and the result backfired. After tossing for more than three hours, her legs were sore and her feet were numb, but she still didn't fold the quilt. Is it really that important that a child who has lost his hands is folded? Has it ever occurred to her that because she has no hands, it is understandable that some things can't be done in this life? "When I grow up, I will learn to stand on my own feet. My lack of hands is not an advantage, but a disadvantage, so I can only stand at the starting line with you if I overcome this shortcoming. I think people in an environment, a lot of things you never know if you can do without trying. I worked hard, I can, I succeeded. " With Li Zhihua's efforts, she can finally fold the quilt. She is still a tofu quilt in the army. When the film crew took her to the army to perform, everyone in the army was shocked. A military leader also asked the film crew for video tapes as teaching materials for training new recruits. "Three years of junior high school life, although not as happy as primary school, is a link I must experience when I grow up, which gives me the ability to live independently." This is a summary of junior high school life in Li Zhihua. Happiness should be cherished. Everyone should have a heart that can understand happiness and know how to cherish what is around them. That is the greatest happiness. When Li Zhihua really understood this truth, she had lost her mother. That's 1998, Li Zhihua graduated from junior high school. Because of her physical condition, her school did not allow her to take the entrance examination, and she has been suspended from school ever since. It was in this autumn that her mother ran away from home again. When people found her mother in a frozen river, her mother had already left this world. That year made Li Zhihua unforgettable. "I dropped out of school at home and could take care of my mother, but I lost my mother. My sister is not at home in high school, and I have the responsibility to take good care of my mother, but I didn't fulfill this responsibility ... "In most people's eyes, Li Zhihua lost her hands because of Li Zhihua's mother, and she will more or less have some resentment against her mother in Li Zhihua's heart. But her answer was unexpected. "Since I began to know the world, I haven't thought about it. I think if one of us owes anyone, it's me. I owe my mother. Because I am too young, if I were older, if I had the ability, my mother's illness would have been cured, and she would not leave us forever ... "In Li Zhihua's memory, the scene of that autumn was vivid: her father and brother worked in the fields every day, and she had to cook and do housework, and she was often busy without hands. My mother's symptoms are a little strange at this time. In the past, she was sick every year without hitting or cursing, but this year she often got angry for no reason. Just a few days before her mother left home, she slapped Li Zhihua for cooking. This is really a big blow to her who has never been beaten by her mother. But today, when Li Zhihua recalled the slap, his heart was full of guilt and bitterness. "I think if there is no slap, I will be more sorry for my mother. That slap is not pain but love for me. " Li Zhihua has always felt guilty. In her opinion, her mother's death was caused by her. "Why should I cook at that time? My father and brother can work without a meal. It's not too late to do it when dad and brother come back. Why can't I follow my mother, why can't I take care of my mother ... Since I was sensible, my mother always walks when she is sick. I think my mother walks every day, so I was really careless and didn't think of the consequences. If I do, I won't lose my mother who loves me ... I think that no matter what environment people live in, the important thing is not to be happy, but to know how to be happy and cherish. If you don't cherish, you may never be happy again. " Li Zhihua, who is disabled and struggling to lose her mother, has once again undergone tremendous physical and psychological tests. The fear of being alone at home at night and the guilt for her loved ones surrounded her tightly. In the autumn when my mother died, my father and brother both went to work in the fields, leaving her alone to look after the grain in the barn. After the dead of night, because of fear and loneliness, she squatted in the corner alone, sometimes turning up the TV at the maximum volume, and didn't hear anything outside the barn. The next morning, when she went to the barn to get food for the pigs, she found that the barn was empty. It's a bolt from the blue, and the hard work of my father and brother for a year is like this ... This is undoubtedly worse for the Li Zhihua family who can't even afford a box of matches. "I think I am really useless. If I can't do some housework, I won't be able to spend that time. I have been working, letting my father and brother have hot meals and taking care of all the chickens and ducks at home. This is the only thing I can do. " After dropping out of school for two years, in order to make up for his guilt and consider his family's financial situation, Li Zhihua spent most of his energy on housework, especially during the autumn harvest. Every morning at one o'clock, she will try to fight against the sandman, rub her sleepy eyes and go to the fields to do farm work with her father and brother. Her task is to drive a tractor for five or six hours, which is a new test for her who is young but disabled. Without her hands, she can only hold the steering wheel with her arms, pedal the clutch or throttle and drive the huge machine with difficulty. When she got home, she started another day of housework. In spite of this, Li Zhihua still didn't give up research and study. In her view, although life is overwhelmed by heavy housework, her spirit is empty. Mother's death and her dereliction of duty brought losses to the family, just like a huge net, wrapped her tightly. Only knowledge can make this spiritual net open a small gap and let the sunshine illuminate her guilty heart. After finishing housework every day, she uses the rest of her time to teach herself. Chinese, math, physics, chemistry and other high school courses all come to her mind. Maybe Li Zhihua's spirit touched heaven. God rewards hard work. Through her own efforts and the help of others, in September, 2000, Li Zhihua was finally admitted to Baotou Light Industry School where her sister was located. In 2003, she took the college entrance examination and was admitted to the Art Design Department of Xi 'an Eurasia Vocational College, which realized her long-standing dream of university. "I have a dream in my heart, and I will make you forget all the pain by singing ..." When Zhihua sang this song, I couldn't help crying. Watching her with a heavy kitchen knife between her toes cutting thin shredded potatoes, I dare not count the scars left on her feet; Staring at her putting the thread through the pinhole with her foot, I dare not ask her how many times she was pricked by the needle; Listen to her, the first time I cooked, I couldn't imagine her being burned. When I watched her write down the words "I am happiest", I finally understood that it was a spiritual strength. Negative people always complain about the wind direction, while positive people always look forward to the wind direction and adjust the sails. "I cried because I had no shoes until I saw the man with no feet." Think about it, most of us are actually very lucky, healthy and normal in all aspects, but we still can't really understand what happiness is. A child, a disabled child without hands, can still do this and know how to cherish happiness. Don't those adults and healthy people who can't "walk by themselves" have a little shame and shame? Cherish happiness, what a simple but complicated word. Looking back at us, how much happiness we neglected. If you miss a moment, you lose your life. Don't lose what you have now, and don't let regrets accumulate in your heart. Happiness needs to be understood and cherished. You can choose, sort out and abridge it yourself.