This is a battle between her feelings and self-esteem. On the one hand, she sincerely likes Mr. Rochester, which can also be said to be her first love; On the other hand, her education and experience make her have a strong self-esteem, especially when she has obvious status differences with the other party, she should stick to her self-esteem. Her pride made it impossible for her to be Rochester's lover without his wife, which made her unbearable. Because she thinks that she has no beauty, no wealth and only self-esteem, she can never abandon it and become a lover of a rich man.