Seriously, the first few days of breaking up were really hard. I don't think I can get out. She not only took away her own things, but also my love and my belief in life. Looking at the empty room, my mind was full of her figure, just like a movie, showing all the bits and pieces of her with me, and I couldn't help crying. I didn't expect that I would cry so much, sobbing in bed and even crying while driving. I really can't bear to part with her, but I can't say goodbye.
She and I were introduced by classmates. We hit it off at first and cared about each other. Then, on April Fool's Day, I used her to send an article lamenting Weibo on April Fool's Day, and I successfully confessed. Next, it is what many couples do. They use their brains, give each other nicknames, chat day and night, miss each other and talk about work. We are still in a long-distance relationship. She works in other places, and her home and mine are the same place, so every weekend, either I drive to find her or she comes home to find me. Those days were really beautiful. She invited me to see cherry blossoms. She gave me a dress with our heads embroidered by her own hands. At that time, I felt that I had met a treasure girl. Although sometimes there will be a little contradiction, it will soon pass. I accompanied her to the amusement park, accompanied her to her alma mater, walked the way she walked, and fell in love with each other, thinking that we would be together forever.
The epidemic in 2020 made us cherish each other more. She is good at online shopping and robbed me of a mask. Let's buy protective equipment together, and we look forward to the early end of the epidemic. Later, she returned to our hometown and found a job with a higher salary than before. I'm glad that my home is close to her work, so I invited her to live in my home. At first, the difference of living habits caused the contradiction between us, but she gradually adapted, and I was still very kind to her. She can be very headstrong sometimes. I coaxed her at first, and then I gradually lost my patience. This is a new challenge after cohabitation. Later, I met a big problem, marriage. Because although they are all in the same city, the customs on both sides are still different. In addition, when talking about marriage, her father drank some wine and his attitude was a bit tough. My parents are a little unhappy. Originally, it was said that jewelry and diamond rings could be discussed, but parents were unwilling and tough. Then her house was waiting for demolition. She felt that the old house for marriage had no face and insisted on waiting for the house to be built, but she did not receive a notice allowing demolition. In this way, there is no fixed date for the wedding and the two sides are deadlocked. Because of this, she called me when she was on a business trip and cried, which made me make up my mind to get married. Deeply touched, I went to discuss with my parents. Then I asked my colleagues to do their own calculations. If it was too late to build a new house, my parents said that their parents would discuss it. Later, when she came back, she quarreled with me, because after I conveyed what my parents discussed, she said that I would listen to my mother. The last thing I wanted was for others to say that about me, so I asked her to hit me in the face, so I had to have the cheek to save it. At that time, my mind really collapsed. Why is it so difficult to get married? I try my best to coordinate, and I have to say myself. My mother scolded me for this, saying that I couldn't do it anyway, but when my mother wanted to make peace, she was angry with me and contradicted my mother, and my mother was unhappy for a long time. The relationship between mother-in-law and daughter-in-law is really difficult, but it is also the first time I have seen that she really can't communicate with her elders at all. I have always been concerned, but I can only try my best to teach her.
Later, things went well and her house was demolished. Waiting for reconstruction, the wedding date can only be postponed, but it can also be completed in the next year, which is a good thing. Unexpectedly, however, a few months later, we broke up. In the middle of things, I think about it carefully. Whether she is right or not, I am not good, because I can't have patience and face problems with a good attitude. Sometimes I yell at her and she cries. I don't want to coax her, but I also want her to remember. Many times the next day, we chatted as usual, and she was alone. Some things will be mentioned to me again, especially marriage, Mid-Autumn Festival and Dragon Boat Festival, otherwise I will feel humiliated if I don't get there. Then my family stopped paying attention to such things. I just took a box of milk to the Mid-Autumn Festival. Some people may think that I dig. Who cares? I can only say that I really don't dig her, just because it's not the time to send her. She went out to dinner with her friends, and after listening to what her friends said about her boyfriend, she couldn't stand it. Once I had relatives at home, and she didn't even want to come up. We were already living together at that time. She insisted that I go down and talk to me about it. I said you should come up and say hello, but she hardly came up. A few minutes later, we went down. I didn't expect her to tell me to stay away from her. She wants to call and tell the truth. Later, she said that she was asking about the classmate who introduced us. Is this a custom in my family? I didn't control it at the time. I thought if you told me to leave my relatives or elders at home, I would talk to you about the past, and then I got angry and had a bad attitude. After that, when it comes to weddings, I don't want to do this at home. All in the country. Needless to say, ostentation and extravagance She didn't think she would mind. I wonder if it's because she's ashamed. Then we quarreled, packed our things and went home at night. I said, do you have to go? Don't go home for two days and then consider whether to break up. She doesn't think it's necessary to get along anymore. She feels that there are many things that she can't tell me. She's bored. I said, then don't go. I will change. She said she didn't think I could change. I thought her parents would make peace, but her parents said to let her decide for herself, so, really, all of a sudden, our vow to be together forever disappeared like a collapsed wall.
On the day of farewell, she said that she really couldn't bear to part with me, but she couldn't help it, because she really felt that breaking up was better for her. I hope I can understand. I also said a few words to her, and then things went even further. She thought I was bothering her again and told her the truth. She thinks I don't care about her at all. She thinks I'm just a child who listens to my family. It's a pity that I used to accompany him to improve her willfulness. Finally, she didn't want to accompany me to correct her problems, so we couldn't walk together without saying a word, ending our running relationship together. In fact, she has a bad impression on my relatives, but I will take her to integrate. Even if I am finally persuaded to forget it, I still think I will accept her if she wants to come back. Now, who is to blame? I sometimes blame myself for being a sexist. I blame myself for not being able to face contradictions well. I don't want to blame her. If I am strong enough, why not?
2020 is really a magical year. I survived the worst of the epidemic, but I made it to my wedding day. I was still looking at which wedding photo I took the day before, and I broke up the next day. In the future, our world will never be together again. We will all start a new life. She will find someone strong enough to coax her. I will also face up to my shortcomings again and wait for the next time. Although it is really difficult to get out, I will think of her love for me, but there is no way. No matter how much I love each other, it's all in the past. Sincerely bless each other.
Finally, it is absolutely reasonable to say a few more words and cherish the people in front of you. Some people don't know how to cherish until they lose it, but it's useless, so we must face the contradiction with a good attitude, because at this time it is two people who are facing the contradiction, not him who is facing her, and the emotional world has not won or lost. If there is no happy ending, both sides will be hurt eventually. Even if this wound in my heart can heal one day, it will leave a long scar. One day in the future, you will recall the days when you were together and remember that you will love for life. So, don't let the other side become a regret. Brave enough to love. I sincerely wish every couple can grow old together, and I also wish myself to come out as soon as possible and find the next one. If we can meet again, I will never let go. Come on!