Xiaoyun was born in a deformed family, and his mother was his father's student. In the process of exchanging knowledge, Xiaoyun fell in love with the teacher and volunteered. Her father was married at that time, but her father's original wife was an uneducated rural woman. They were arranged marriages and had no emotional foundation, so they accepted her mother's pursuit. They go for love, and Xiaoyun is the crystallization of their love. Because the relationship between parents was incompatible with the society at that time, Xiaoyun grew up with her grandmother, her parents lacked love, and there were gossips and cynicism from people around her. Xiaoyun is weak, sensitive and introverted, and is extremely eager for care and warmth. So she likes her student Jingjing very much. Later, she met Jingjing's father Liang Sijing, a promising young industrialist. Sensitive, she saw at a glance that Liang Sijing and his wife's mode of getting along was not normal. It turns out that Liang Sijing is an orphan. When he grows up, what company will he work in? The old man valued his talent and ability and decided to let him marry his eldest daughter, He Jingjuan. At that time, Liang Sijing was only 20 years old and He Jingjuan was 28 years old. Although it is not completely impossible for a little boy to fall in love with his sister who is eight years older than him, this love mode is generally either that both men and women are particularly talented and have special ideas, and the age gap can be ignored, or that the woman is properly maintained. However, He Jingjuan is neither brilliant nor a youthful and lively middle-aged girl. It is because she has neither cultural accomplishment (read only to junior high school) nor strong personality (helping her father to do business as a teenager, known for her diabolical means and scheming), so Liang Sijing can't love her. This is obviously a transactional arranged marriage, so Liang Sijing can only obey He Jingjuan in everything. However, Liang Sijing is a normal young man after all. He still yearns for pure love from the heart, so he gave birth to Jingjing with a Japanese girl during his business expansion in Japan, and He Jingjuan is a powerful role. She unexpectedly went to Japan and separated them, forcing Jingjing's biological mother to commit suicide. Therefore, although Liang Sijing looks glamorous, she is depressed and lacks love. So when she first saw Xiaoyun, she noticed her red raincoat, pale face and melancholy expression. Their first intimate contact was only when Xiaoyun caught up with the heavy rain after class for Jingjing. Jingjing and Mrs. Liang asked Liang Sijing to send Xiaoyun home out of courtesy. Two people in the same boat felt very excited at the first contact, and then Xiaoyun couldn't hide in his heart. She always arranged to meet him on purpose, just to see him. Liang Sijing is not straight. Xiao Yun's mind is not unknown to him, but he is also willing in his heart, so he cooperates with her every time. After many "encounters", he confessed to her. At that time, Xiaoyun let the tears flow freely for the first time in his life, which was a happy tear. But Xiao Yun didn't know that this was the beginning of tragedy. Like any girl in love, she is bound to hold Liang Sijing hysterically. She has always been conservative. For the first time, she used the visit of her friend Hui Mei as a cover, just to drive with Liang Sijing for an hour on business and then catch up with the hotel. She can't help having sex. This time, her body changed, but Liang Sijing didn't know it. Later, for their future, Liang Sijing agreed to Mrs. Liang's request to let him go to Japan to expand his business, prepare for Xiaoyun to go abroad, and plan to take Jingjing over. At this time, He Jingjuan gave full play to her scheming and diabolical. She said that she didn't like going to Japan, and she wouldn't go with him. She knew that Liang Sijing and Xiaoyun sneaked out and secretly went through the formalities of going abroad. Simple Xiaoyun is completely immersed in rosy fantasy at this time. She never thought they could hide from He Jingjuan, what's more, Jing He Juan was worse than a private detective. Just because she repeatedly called Liang Sijing's company, there must be rumors. But a series of strange things happened at the same time. First, her half-sister Xia met her uncharacteristically, and then her mother went to meet Xia again. After she came back, she looked in a bad mood and was ill for several days. When her mother got better, she talked about Liang Sijing in an awkward way. Xiaoyun is a sensitive girl, but she feels quite wrong about this series of things, but she can't tell what is going on. Women's feelings are very sensitive, but women in love often choose to believe for a fantasy. It was not until Jingjing's exam results were announced that she went to Liang Jia to congratulate her. Unexpectedly, it was He Jingjuan who had a showdown with her. She has hung up on the company and wants to take Jingjing to Japan. Xiaoyun didn't react. It turns out that her mother already knows her. Xia met her mother sincerely. When she got home, she found Liang Sijing's letter to her mother, which clearly promised her that she would never look for her again. She sighed softly. If she told Liang Sijing about her pregnancy, he wouldn't dump her easily. If she hadn't concealed the fact that her mother was pregnant, would she ask Liang Sijing to stop pestering her? If she confides in her good friend Meihua earlier, Meihua can also help her plead with her mother. . . . But it's too late. It's destiny takes a hand that they won't intersect. The novel ends with a cloud and a sunrise. Perhaps the author hopes Xiaoyun can get out of the emotional haze and usher in a bright new life. In the future, she will meet someone who really loves her and spend her life together.
In reality, there are many girls like Xiaoyun. They live in a single-parent family and easily fall in love with married men. But men are very rational, and they will worry about their responsibilities to their wives and children, as well as their social status and reputation. If they divorce their lover, they will lose everything they already have, and they will not take risks. However, the girl who is a mistress still foolishly thinks that he is sincere to himself and will give her a birthright sooner or later. Men can find out all kinds of things even if they don't get divorced. Liang Sijing's situation is quite special. In fact, in essence, he is not bad. Originally, his marriage with He Jingjuan was a business without emotional foundation. It is reasonable to fall in love with other girls. He has a sincere and kind side in his heart, so he will love Xiaoyun from pity. He is not irresponsible. He also tried to give Xiaoyun a future, but as Xiaoyun said, his biggest shortcoming is that he is too obedient to reality, indeed. With the support of his father-in-law, if he divorces, he will have nothing. When he was a child, he suffered from lack of money, so naturally he would not give up his existing resources and status. As Lao She said, "The love of the poor can only be bought and sold, and the love of the rich can only be born." This story is actually a bit like Zhang Ailing's novel How Much Hate, but it is actually very different. Yu Jiayin and Xia in How Much Hate are both economically and ideologically independent people. Yu Jiayin is not as sensitive and weak as Xia Xiaoyun. She is a very strong and considerate girl. Xia's original wife was a rural woman without knowledge and ability. She was seriously ill. She will die soon. Xia relies on her own ability to do business without the support of her husband's family, so divorce is not difficult. Besides, in order to combine with Yu Jiayin, Xia is determined to divorce. Both sides are equal in love relationship. Xia loves Jiayin not out of pity, but out of appreciation. Yu Jiayin is not as hysterical as Xia Xiaoyun. She is always supercilious. They were very promising. If it weren't for Yu Jiayin's undeserving father, he would always get into trouble for Xia, pretending to be an old man, and the gossip of snobbish ladies-in-waiting spread to the original ears. The original match is crying and laughing, and she is determined not to divorce. I have to say that Xia is much more car-scrapping than Liang Sijing. According to the marriage system at that time, Yu Jiayin could stay with him without divorce, but she had to be his official wife. If he is not officially married, he will. Yu Jiayin is also a girl with great backbone. Although she cherishes love, she won't give up her dignity and put herself in an embarrassing position in menstruation in order to have love. She is kind and unwilling to take advantage of others' danger. In the end, she resigned on her own initiative and lied to Xia that she would marry her cousin and go away to find her own way.
In the past, many critics said that the background color of Zhang Ailing's novels was desolate and helpless in the face of fate, but in fact, the heroines in Zhang Ailing's more successful novels were actually very strong. No matter Cao, Ge or Gu, they all rebelled against the established fate like Oedipus. Cao and Ge later became terrible because of the allergic reaction that strong and healthy desires were not released. Bai Liusu dares to divorce and return to family life. Not to mention having experienced so many bloody events that ordinary people can completely destroy their will, they can still stubbornly lead their sons to live a single mother's life. This is related to Zhang Ailing's own personality. Zhang Ailing is also a maverick, not like her father, but like her mother and aunt (this is probably familial). Her aunt is even more exotic. When she was young, she had a crush on a married man. At the age of 78, she married her young sweetheart. Lin was born in a scholarly family, and her family was harmonious. Her own personality is also the glittering and translucent and gentle type of Bing Xin, so it can't be Yu Jiayin.