I can't remember how many times I watched it today. Every time I watch it, I feel different. Maybe I've been paying attention to life and death recently. The feeling of watching this time is more about thinking about death.
The play begins with the death of the heroine Rui Xiao Dan. After a shocking explosion, with the theme music Daughter of Heaven, Ray Xiao Dan said, "In the summer when I was 27 years old, I died. But my heart is so calm and content, with eternal love for heaven. Four days later, Lin Yufeng, a leading figure in China's audio industry, drove off a cliff. Liu Bing, a small record dealer in the ancient city, jumped down from the top of the 20th floor like a winner and a wronged child. Whether it is eternity or the death of two people within two months, it all stems from an unforgettable love and a gift. " All three people died of suicide, but the cause of death and the mentality of dying were quite different. What kind of thinking will we have from it?
0 1, survived
Ray Xiao Dan is a policeman by profession. In an operation, a gun was put on her head. She was suddenly surprised and thought, it's over. Surprisingly, however, the gun did not fire. She immediately realized that it was a smelly bomb, so she seized the opportunity of one thousandth of a second, subdued the criminal, and then took out the handcuffs from her waist. Ruixiaodan this just see clearly, this person is Wang Mingyang, the criminal group's number two.
While Rui Xiao Dan was about to handcuff Wang Mingyang, she suddenly saw a gunman preparing to shoot his colleague Zhao Guoqiang. Rui Xiao Dan shot the criminal in the head. The criminal fell to the ground and there was blood everywhere.
When Ray Xiao Dan completely calmed down, she really realized rationally at this moment that death passed her by again. There was only one thought in her mind: if it hadn't been a stinking bomb just now, she would never see Ding Yuanying again. At the thought of never seeing Ding Yuanying again, her heart ached and tears flowed silently.
She subconsciously took out her mobile phone and dialed the telephone of Ding Yuanying. The moment Ding Yuanying's voice reached her ears, she cried like a wronged child seeing her father and said, "I was almost killed just now, and the gun was still on my head. This is a stinking bomb. I'm afraid I'll never see you again after I die ... "There was silence on the phone. Ding Yuanying was silent for a moment and made a decision: "It is enough to get your confidante in this life."
After Richmond turned off his cell phone, he suddenly felt a sense of collapse. In a very short time, I experienced my own life from death to life, and then I personally ended a person's life, and I got the love I was striving for, from great sorrow to great joy. This mental journey gave her a profound experience and reflection on death.
02, discuss death
As a policeman, facing death is inevitable. On a trip, Ding Yuanying solemnly told her, "You should resign. Please note that you should, not I hope. As long as you are a policeman for one minute, you have to perform your duties for one minute, and you have no right to avoid danger. However, there is no shortage of a female criminal police officer who will be eliminated sooner or later in the state machine, and society should have one more talented person who can make great achievements. This is not the understandable value of popular heroism and public equality awareness. "
After a Buddhist discussion, Rui Xiao Dan thought for a long time in his mind, and then said, "I am a criminal policeman, and I quit my job because I am afraid of death. I can't do it. " You shouldn't say it. You should know how hard it is to refuse you. I believe your speculation. You judge my future according to the conditions you can grasp, but that is yours, not mine. "
This discussion also heralds the end of Rui Xiao Dan, and also opens the discussion about death between them. At home, Ray Xiao Dan drew the curtains, turned on the stereo and played the record of "Goddess". Ray Xiao Dan closed his eyes intoxicated and murmured, "I really want to die like this, in your arms, and then you threw me into the sea, and I am the happiest woman." Ding Yuanying said, "If you want to die, you must draw an arc in the night sky. What is this? "
Rui Xiao Dan said softly, "Look, what a beautiful night. At that time, I will lie in your arms and listen to music, and you will tell me the kingdom of heaven and hell. I will die quietly in your arms. My grave is full of little forget-me-nots In the early morning, you crossed the winding path and stood quietly in front of my grave with a flower in your hand. Ah ... I will live in your heart forever. "
Ding Yuanying said, "You just said you were going to the seaside. Why did you suddenly go underground again? " Rui xiaodan smiled, thought for a moment and said, "no, you have to throw it into the sea for me, so you can stand by and watch the sea." You looked at the boundless sea, shed two tears of German shepherd, and then wandered around the world and were taken in by a beautiful woman. "
From this discussion, we can understand why Rui Xiaodan finally chose to die peacefully. In her heart, with Ding Yuanying's love, she is not afraid of death. This is what Yuan Haowen said in "Fishing": "Ask how the world is and teach people to commit themselves to life and death." Love to the depths, death is no longer terrible, which is why people who are killed by two people are not afraid of death.
03. Facing death
Ray Xiao Dan had an accident with the wanted man on his way back to the county seat after seeing the family of the captain of the criminal police team home after performing the task. Her first reaction was to call Ding Yuanying. She turned on her mobile phone while driving, and immediately turned on: "Yuan Ying ... Listen, don't interrupt me. I am on a dirt road back to the county seat in the windy beach area of northern Shaanxi. In a word, I met the wanted Huang Man Fuhai, who was the chief culprit of three armed bank robberies in the ancient city. There are still three that I haven't seen clearly. They changed the tires of the jeep by the roadside. It is only 15 kilometers away from Qingu County, and it takes 20 minutes to drive. " Ding Yuanying was silent on the phone, so he was silent for a few seconds.
Rui Xiao Dan then dialed the cell phone of team leader Ceng Hua, informed the situation and requested reinforcements. Turn off the phone immediately after the phone call, which can make her calm down and concentrate on the immediate emergency. After a period of juggling, she was finally affected by suicide bombing, losing her legs and ruining her appearance. Perhaps because of his training, even after the explosion, Ray Xiao Dan still had a gun in his hands. She insisted on confronting the first offender, Huang Fuhai, until reinforcements arrived.
"Paradise" does not show that Ray Xiao Dan committed suicide, but the original book "The Distant Savior" describes the scene of suicide. When she watched the motorcade coming, many policemen and armed police rushed down before the bus stopped. She saw Captain Wang ... but in her mind, she saw Ding Yuanying carrying a box of instant noodles before the Spring Festival that year and said to herself, "Hey, I can't hurt you any more. Find something to eat by yourself. " She struggled to hold herself up a little, put the gun to her chest and pulled the trigger. With a bang, she committed suicide. Everyone present was stunned by this scene!
Ray Xiao Dan committed suicide, and almost no one could understand her suicide, let alone Ding Yuanying's silence on the phone. Before the end of the book, Wen Ya asked Ding Yuanying these two questions.
Little Wenya asked, "Why did Xiao Dan commit suicide?"
Ding Yuanying replied, "Because she thinks she is useless."
Wen Ya Jr. said: "Suicide when it is useless is generally considered as trampling on the dignity of life."
Ding Yuanying said, "Is it dignified to talk about dignity? The dignity that can be trampled on is not dignity, but courtesy. The dignity that can be said is more dignified. After all, there is no dignity. "
Little Wenya asked, "Xiao Dan called you, why didn't you stop her?"
Ding Yuanying said: "Xiao Dan's phone has only one meaning, saying goodbye. What can I say in the face of such a farewell? what can I say? I know I can't stop her, and Dan knows I won't. Xiao Dan won't have a choice because I stopped her. I didn't stop her because I couldn't stop her. "
Wen Ya Jr. asked heavily, "Why?"
Ding Yuanying said quietly, "Because she is a policeman."
This conversation explains why Xiao Dan committed suicide. Although I know all this in my heart, in the face of Xiao Dan's death, no matter how Ding Yuanying fought, eased and concealed it, it didn't help my inner pain. It is a heart-wrenching, unbearable and uncontrollable pain.
He thought he was a smart man, he thought he could be calm and philosophical, but when he quietly made a cup of tea and drank it into his mouth, the cup of tea was blocked by a lump in his throat, that is, at the moment when he tried to swallow it, something beyond his physiological control suddenly came out of his chest. Instinctively, he shut up and quickly walked to the bathroom sink, spitting out a mouthful of bright red blood. Before, he always thought that vomiting blood was an exaggerated description of literature, but this moment made him realize that it was not an exaggerated description of literati, but that it was not a sad place. At this moment, his reason, his strength ... collapsed!
He suddenly felt weak, and Venus danced around in front of him, as if thousands of needles were stuck in his heart. The colic that broke out like magma tore my heart and cracked my lungs, and my chest choked and I couldn't cry. Then he was told by phone that Ray Xiao Dan's father wouldn't allow him to attend the funeral. This means that he doesn't even know where her grave is. She left him an eternal soul and eternal beauty, and she was happy in heaven without regrets.
The question of life and death is something that each of us must face. Most people like life and hate death, but after Ray Xiao Dan survived, he looked down on death and even regarded it as the eternity of love. Facing the death of Ray Xiao Dan, Ding Yuanying muttered to himself, "To live is to live, to die is to die, and you can come and go freely. Girl, it's not easy! " This sentence is the best portrayal of Rui Xiao Dan's view of life and death.
20 17/07/09 ? 22:22 Yu Zijun's residence