God, there is something really wrong with my waist. It's really a masterpiece of that fall. Perhaps the brain of thoracic vertebra and cervical vertebra has also been damaged to varying degrees, but obviously, it is mainly the waist, because there, I always feel that there is an airflow stubbornly blocking, and that is the disabled waist reminding me of its misfortune.
The female doctors of orthopedics in county hospitals are still very professional and have certain clinical experience. When I mentioned that my bleeding knee was in a coma for a short time after falling from a tree, she blurted out categorically: I must have hurt my waist, otherwise I wouldn't be in a coma.
However, as far as the naked eye is concerned, ordinary people's eyes can't see the signs of my disability, and ordinary doctors are no exception. At best, they will say that the road is a little special, but it will soon come down to different people and different road conditions, and they will still feel normal. Perhaps, only a very professional gymnastics coach or dance teacher will notice my strangeness, or only those who have hurt me will snicker proudly.
I remember one time, under that tree, I was with Wang Xiuli. I really can't remember whether it was before or after autumn. An adult came over and said with a smile that it should be called Liu. She even said it several times because her real name is her and snakes are slippery. Is he implying something? At that time, I felt very strange and abrupt. I thought he was trying to lead people's minds to snakes. Is he saying that Wang Xiuli is a poisonous snake? Is this the origin of the name "Liu Liu Lao Liu" decades later?
My disability is hidden to some extent, and only those who pay special attention can find it, but I still think it is a natural defect. Many years ago, my husband said to me, "Everyone in your father's company says you are a foreigner, but you are fine above your hips." He also said: "In fact, you are two-thirds of the ocean, but your hips are not good, up and down are not good, but your hips are a big shortcoming." Other people have two hips, but you don't. Other people's asses are round, but you are sharp. You must wear a skirt coat to cover up this shortcoming. "
Yes, my right gluteus maximus is weak or atrophied, and my right sciatic bone has also declined, but it is still not enough to attract people's attention.
When I showed people my back and pointed out the abnormal parts, they suddenly realized that it was as I said.
I went to the hospital to check the coccyx because I found a deformity here, but the doctor said there was no problem here. It may be true or it may be hiding the truth.
However, the doctor of Chinese medicine hospital said that the sentence of lumbar hyperplasia caught my attention. Maybe the waist is the real source of deformity.
Since Wang Xiuli was fished out of my memory in 16, all kinds of things I experienced in the past can't wait to jump out and collide with Wang Xiuli one by one, tearing my nerves. -they shine in my mind like stars in the sky, illuminating my dim soul; They are like a pair of clear eyes, shining with the light of wisdom. They are inextricably linked and restore the whole story.
My heart is shaking, and I see an invisible net. A group of ghostly shadows are floating in the dark corner, staring at me with their teeth bared, and I have fallen into it, rotating wearily, being pushed around by them, sometimes my head is broken, my breath is dying, and sometimes I desperately resist trying to crash and burn. ...
My heart is numb, hardened and awakened, and I have found a way out of life, that is, bravely fighting against fate, turning grief into strength, turning decay into magic and opening a new life.
I want to cure my physical disability, not to comfort my soul, but to find the meaning of life, and life will never stop fighting.
I can basically determine that the main source of disability is the waist. As the female orthopedic surgeon in the county hospital said, the loss of consciousness should be a fall and a broken nerve. There is no more sophisticated instrument in the county hospital to check the injuries of nerve, tendon and ligament.
Now, I recall the whole process of the decline, and the key points are as follows: 1. My waist really flashed twice, and I was unconscious. Of course, there may be a concussion; 2. When my grandmother picked me up after waking up, first my waist couldn't stand straight, my trunk and lower limbs were at right angles, then my right leg couldn't move, and finally my right leg had obstacles in walking, so I bumped when walking. 3. Later, my right leg was as clumsy as dislocated femoral head, and now it is still slower than my left leg. Although others can't see it, I can understand it.
I think it's a neurological problem. In the right waist, maybe in the left brain, but it's all related to nerves anyway.
Because of the brief coma, the waist and legs can't move, which is enough to explain the vibration of the nerves.
Because the initial movement after the fall was characterized by inconvenient movement of the femoral head, which was noisy but not painful, I guess the motor nerve that controlled some muscles was damaged, so that some muscles did not contract, which made people feel powerless and unable to exercise, and also affected the movement direction of the femoral head, which hindered its movement and collided with the articular fossa, making a noise.
In addition, the weakness of the right psoas muscle, the right gluteus maximus muscle and the decline of the right ischium all show muscle atrophy caused by disuse, which is also related to nerve injury. The decline of the right ischium makes me fidgety and fidgety, which is my most tangled and tormented state. I feel unbalanced, my waist can't support my weight, it's difficult to straighten my spine for a long time, and I'm very tired.
I think these injured nerves are located in the right waist, because there is hyperplasia in the right waist, which should be the sequela of repairing the injury. Although my left brain is damaged, I think it is also related to shock. I feel abnormal qi and blood in the left brain and hearing loss in the left ear, but I think even if the left brain is damaged, it has nothing to do with dyskinesia.
I've decided to treat my right waist as the source of my injury, just heal it and let the hyperplasia disappear.
For 50 years, I know that it is almost impossible to make weak muscles strong again and return the descending right sciatic bone to its original position, because they are the result of abnormal growth, and human growth is irreversible.
Even so, I still look forward to miracles, because the human body is an infinite life, and people, like the spirit of this universe, have created one miracle after another.
According to Yijinjing, you can easily change your bones and muscles by practicing, just like plastic surgery: "One year is easy to get angry, two years easy to get blood, three years easy to get pulse, four years easy to get flesh, five years easy to get marrow, six years easy to get tendons, seven years easy to get bones, eight years easy to get hair, and nine years easy to get shape ..."
Modern science also tells us that the human body itself has the ability of immune regeneration, which can remove foreign bodies, clean up wastes and regenerate tissues and organs.
I want to actively exercise and awaken the potential function of the human body. I want immune cells to recognize my hyperplastic tissue and swallow it like a frog shedding its tail. I want stem cells to rejuvenate and differentiate into new forces to fill my defective tissues and reshape my whole body.
I am looking forward to it. I'm trying.