Today is the 510th day of rebooting. I have insisted on not watching pornographic content and have never broken the reboot. I occasionally have sexual intercourse, but I strictly control it. I stop it immediately when it occurs. Moreover, I have already stopped rebooting. Entering the stable period, sexual desire is basically gone. I also write this post in the hope that I can tell you about my rebooting journey and provide you with a reference.

Going astray:

As for my previous licentious life, I am basically similar to some of the fine posts in the forum. When I was young, I was influenced by some older bad boys very early. I have watched pornographic movies, and I know that when I was in the second grade of junior high school at the age of 13, I accidentally played with my private parts, and the pleasure was uncontrollable. From the time when I was in junior high school until I started taking the postgraduate entrance exams in my junior year, I basically engaged in adultery for more than 8 years, during which I caused huge losses. When I was in junior high school, I had just started to engage in sexual misconduct, so I had a relatively strong physical foundation, so despite the influence, I was admitted to the key class of the city's high school with relatively good results. However, starting in high school, I felt that my mentality began to become darker. I am rather narrow-minded, and I don’t get along well with my classmates and roommates. The relationship is relatively cold. I am also quite withdrawn, and it is difficult to communicate with girls. In addition, I have had ugly acne on my face since the first year of high school. I no longer have the confidence to communicate with others. In the final college entrance examination, my score was only 15 points higher than the second line score, which was really average. I had no choice but to repeat it for another year. The frequency of masturbation decreased during the repeat year, but I still had various symptoms, so my relationship with others was still average. , and I think I was slightly depressed at the time, and the pressure of re-study was also relatively high. I often felt depressed, sad, and had headaches, but I also admired my perseverance at the time and persisted in enduring various symptoms and studying hard. , and finally got admitted to a C9 university with a cost of about 50 more than the first-class score. Sometimes when I think back, I really regret that I still persisted in getting admitted to a relatively good university after causing so much damage due to sexual misconduct. If I had not taken this detour, my current level would be much higher than it is now. Of course, there is no regret medicine in the world, but This year's experience has given me a better understanding of myself. I am not bad at talent, and one of my strengths is my perseverance. These two points also had a great impact on my subsequent life, which is a story for later. When I got to college, there was no pressure and no external restrictions. I started to engage in sexual misconduct again. My interpersonal relationships were also rubbish. I didn’t have many friends. I basically didn’t dare to communicate with girls. I didn’t even talk to my girlfriend. I had been doing this for the past three years. In this way, I am just a gray person, as worthless as weeds on the roadside. It wasn't until my junior year when I began to consider whether to find a job or to take the postgraduate entrance examination that I ended my comfortable life and decided to take the postgraduate entrance examination. In fact, when I was in college, I gradually realized that my poor living condition might be related to masturbation, but I understood this aspect It’s not profound. When I started preparing for the postgraduate entrance examination, I felt that I would definitely not be able to do well in the exam based on my brainpower at the time, so I tried rebooting. During this period, I came across the rebooting bar while collecting relevant knowledge online, and systematically read Senior Fei Xiang’s " "Abstinence Is Good Medicine", after studying it, I felt that the concepts in my mind had been completely overturned. I was really shocked, but I also felt a sudden enlightenment. It turned out that the reason why I had been living a relatively rubbish life before was due to sexual misconduct. Yes, I finally found the root cause of all this pain. So now that I have a clear direction and enemy, I will continue to study rebooting knowledge while preparing for the postgraduate entrance examination, but the growth of awareness also has a process.

The process of rebooting:

The first round of rebooting: It started two months before the summer vacation of 2015. The longest I lasted was about 10 days with perseverance. I persisted for more than 40 days that time, and then I broke the habit four times when I went home during the summer vacation. The second round of rebooting: I returned to school after the summer vacation and had more than 100 days to take the postgraduate entrance examination, so I continued to learn rebooting knowledge while taking the postgraduate entrance examination. I persisted for 100 days until the first test of the postgraduate entrance examination was over, but I broke the habit during the winter vacation. During these two stages, my understanding of sexual immorality and rebooting was still relatively superficial. I didn’t think about getting rid of it completely. I just had important things to do, so I stopped temporarily. I would still break the reboot once I got home and felt at ease. The third round of rebooting: in 2016, in the second semester of my senior year, I returned to school and continued to learn rebooting knowledge. My awareness had greatly improved. I persisted until the summer vacation after graduation. Since I spent a long time at home during the summer vacation, I was free. I thought it was okay, so I persisted at home for about 10 days and broke the habit again. From then on, I realized the shallowness of my own enlightenment and began to summarize the experience of breaking the law during the holidays. The third round of rebooting: I officially started rebooting in the last half month of the summer vacation in 2016, probably around August 13th. Due to continuous study, my consciousness has been greatly improved. My understanding of sexual misconduct is both from experience and myself. The painful lessons have made me more thorough. I decided to completely quit pornography and never masturbate again in this life. I did not quit pornography during the winter and summer vacations of my first year of graduate school. I have persisted until the 510th day. I feel that I have indeed grown a lot.

Reappointments:

I have gained a lot from rebooting for more than a year. First of all, my body is much better than before, I have more energy than before, and my mind is clear. It has improved a lot and is no longer as dizzy as before; the facial skin has not completely returned to normal, and pimples often appear on the chin, but the face and forehead are much better than before; mentally, the condition is much better than before. Changes have occurred, and I have become more active, and my ability to deal with people has improved significantly. Both boys and girls can communicate and get along with each other calmly, so there are also a few girls who have a crush on me, but I will graduate in half a year. After working, I wasn't very inclined towards long-distance relationships, so I didn't take the initiative to develop a relationship. Over the past year, my old classmates have said that I have a genetic mutation, so my whole person has changed. I am quite happy about this, which means that my efforts have not been in vain. Zeng Guofan once said, "Every spirit is worth a career; every spirit is worth a career." When a person has enough energy, he will gradually be able to do many things that he could not do before. After these gains, I became more determined to quit sex.

Existing problems:

Although my body, mind, and life have undergone tremendous changes as mentioned above, I must admit that my state has not fully recovered, and my physical condition has only improved. 50% of the time it is in an ideal and normal state, and the rest of the time it is slightly bad or in a relatively bad state. Especially after nocturnal emissions, the physical state will still be affected for 2 to 3 days. Moreover, I am currently studying in Harbin. Traditional Chinese medicine says that people’s yang energy is restrained in winter and their physical fitness will decline. In addition, Harbin’s winter is really cold and it is impossible to run and exercise. Therefore, my physical condition has recovered relatively slowly since the beginning of winter. Slowly, and I have caught colds three times now. My physical condition is indeed not very good. When the physical condition is weak, the ability of the kidneys to fix semen will also decrease, so the frequency of nocturnal emissions has also increased slightly. In short, winter is a bit difficult, but this winter My physical condition is still much better than last year. Last winter, I suffered from continuous headaches and was weak for a month. There were many pimples on my face and forehead, which was very painful. There are no such symptoms this winter. But after persisting through last winter, I feel that my physical condition has obviously improved when spring gets warmer. I estimate that when spring gets warmer in a few months, my physical condition will jump to a new level again. I am looking forward to it.

Experience:

1. Learn rebooting knowledge systematically and professionally. I think there are two reasons: 1. Like me, many people may know that their state is not good, and they want to work hard to change it, but before learning the knowledge of rebooting, they don’t know that our real enemy is sexual immorality, and sexual immorality is us. The root cause of unsatisfactory conditions in all aspects. Only after learning the knowledge of rebooting can we clarify a direction for advancement and attack. 2. Human beings are animals that seek benefits and avoid harm. When we are unaware of some huge harms, we think that masturbation only brings us pleasure, so we will crave for such benefits crazily. Only when we clearly understand the consequences of sexual immorality After experiencing the harm and bitter consequences, we can understand that compared to those few seconds of illusory pleasure, we have lost much more. It is actually a huge and stupid loss-making transaction. Only after understanding this can we work hard to quit sex and gain more. Big benefits. (PS: Here I recommend reading "Quiting is Good Medicine" by Senior Fei Xiang. Friends who are good at English can check out foreign websites such as NOFAP and your brain on porn, which are also relatively professional and can also learn foreign languages.) 2. Keep it up Be careful, although I have been rebooting for more than 510 days, I have already reached the stable stage of rebooting. According to some experience posts, I can reduce the frequency of studying to once a week, but I still insist on checking the rebooting WeChat public account every day. No matter how long it takes, you must read the articles on the account. I have elevated the issue of rebooting to the most core and basic position in life and life, and I must not relax. (PS: I have been following public accounts such as quitting as good medicine on WeChat, and articles on rebooting knowledge are pushed out every day, which is quite good.) 3. Set goals for your efforts. You need to pay attention to rebooting, but you cannot always put your mind on it every day. Regarding this matter, the most important thing is to make your life meaningful again. I believe you must have a job you want to do, a promotion and a salary increase, make friends with interesting people, catch a girl you like, or any other goals you want to achieve, then set them Set goals and plans, and then persist in working hard step by step to get what you want and live the life you want. When your life becomes fulfilling, you will find that living this way is truly handsome and truly enjoyable. Happy, happy, full of hope. After experiencing this feeling, looking back at the previous lustful life, it is really boring and stupid, and I sneer at it. Only a fool would go back to his previous life. 4. Try to avoid nocturnal emissions. In fact, nocturnal emission is a normal thing. When the semen is full, it overflows. Normal people usually have it once every half a month or so. However, people who have long-term sexual immorality have a loss of kidney qi and the kidney's ability to consolidate semen. Moreover, due to long-term sexual immorality, the brain itself is prone to deflect external stimuli toward sex. Therefore, there will be a long period of time after the cessation of sexual immorality, and the frequency of nocturnal emissions will increase. It will be on the high side. This is really not good for the body's recovery. I have been rebooting for more than 510 days now, and a nocturnal emission will still be affected. Regarding avoiding nocturnal emissions, I have also summarized some experiences from my own practice and shared them with everyone. I hope it will be helpful.

Don’t drink alcohol, eat less meat and greasy and spicy food, and eat more light food; don’t watch harmful content, and don’t allow adultery; moderate running exercise, with a slight sweat is enough, but not excessive; don’t drink too much water before going to bed, and wear loose underwear. The quilt should be light and thin, so lie on your side without the quilt between your legs, and don't touch your lower body with your hands; don't eat too much at night.

Thanks:

This part is about some of my feelings and gratitude. I have been able to quit smoking for so long. I am very grateful to the seniors of the rebooting bar, especially Senior Fei Xiang for his good medicine. , provided me with teaching materials for systematically learning rebooting knowledge. I would also like to thank all my comrades for their company and encouragement, especially in the early stages of rebooting. I persisted for a long time but could not see any improvement. It was really frustrating at times, but luckily I persisted. Now that I think back to at least the first 200 days of rebooting, I felt like When we pour water into a water tank filled with sand, we cannot see the water level rising, but when the water level exceeds the sand, we will feel that our state has improved and progressed every time, so please also be in the early stages of rebooting and feel Comrades who are in pain and confused must strengthen their faith and keep going, and they will surely see the light of day. I have lost so many beautiful things during these years of adultery. Since there is no use regretting it, I will regard this as a growth experience and sharpen my perseverance by defeating adultery and controlling my desires. Use this weapon called perseverance. With a sharp sword, we can carve out a glorious path of our own.

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