Time goes by, walk around, whether that person will still wait for you in the same place.
This year, A Mu, who was already very hard up, became very miserable because he couldn't think of too many things to stay at home. When he received the phone call, a hoarse and deep voice came: Biao, I think I'm going to be depressed. Come with me for a drink.
Like all people who are confused about their feelings, when I met A Mu in Nice Bar, Dilla's beard was dominated by that slightly grayish-yellow face. He just came out of the shower, his hair was still wet, and the wet broken hair on his forehead looked even more haggard.
"Maybe you forgot, this kind of unintentional mistake is becoming more and more profound in my heart. Somewhere, maybe there really is this song. If you hear it, will you think of me ... "
When A Mu and I were seated, the resident singer Xiao N sang "Songs that don't exist in the world" in the middle. On that rainy night, the hoarse and sad voice hit everyone who listened to music in the store like a shotgun, and it was dull and painful. Of course, A Mu and I, especially A Mu, are also included. I asked the waiter to serve wine, and A Mu said, don't worry, listen to this song first.
14 years, at a friend's party, A Mu met Jing Yi, who just graduated. Jing Yi often attends her party with her cousin to pass the boring time of unemployment, hoping to meet some people who can give jobs in this restaurant. Jingyi is actually not outstanding at all. It can be said that in the private room where they sang, Yan value was the lowest, but what fascinated A Mu was the ordinary face that was "harmless to people and animals".
He doesn't know what kind of emotion it is. In short, looking at Jing Yi's bulging hips and fragile white skin, he made an "evil" wish in his heart: take a nap, just for a while.
A Mu said that meeting Jing Yi was the beginning of a sudden collapse on his emotional road.
At that time, Jingyi's cousin was chasing A Mu, and she was in an ambiguous position-above AUO, the lover was not full, and it could only be an "opportunity" to confirm the beautiful relationship between men and women.
I can't tell whether' love' or' hormones' gave birth to too much, but A Mu didn't think so much. In front of Jing Yi's cousin, she left Jing Yi's phone number without hesitation, and then launched a fierce pursuit.
A Mu is the kind of clean boy with a bookish face and warm words. The little girl Jing Yi reluctantly accepted his invitation and slowly fell into the muddy and warm swamp love of Uncle. Although I struggled later, I was willing.
Before meeting Jingyi, A Mu and his friends made a partnership in hardware business, and made a lot of money, leading a somewhat decadent life. After being with Jingyi, he restrained himself a lot. Surprisingly, he has always been used to being alone, and managed to put Jing Yi into the' home' where he lived alone for a long time.
He doesn't like shopping, but he can follow her all day and accompany her patiently; Watch the sunrise and sunset together; Carry her for a long, long way. In a word, all the things that A Mu thought he wouldn't do when he was in love have been done. He didn't even want her to go to work, so he was a little wronged. He pays her every month to stay at home quietly.
No amount of heartache can resist the torture of wrong personality and the eternal consumption. In the end, it is not worth spending this life with the right person. A Mu, who is nearly thirty years old, is still an amorous prodigal son. A Mu, who likes to be free and unrestrained, soon can't stand the femininity of the little girl in Jing Yi. Those sweet actions at first have become something he is tired of.
A Mu began to participate in various wine fairs one after another, either simply not going home at night, or just knocking at the door and falling asleep outside, so they gradually felt unaccustomed to each other, and sometimes even disgusting.
That night, he scolded Jing Yi, cried, slammed the door, called Meng Ran and made an appointment to meet. To put it bluntly, it's about a gun.
Meng Ran is a woman that A Mu met when she just graduated. At that time, A Mu worked as an intern in a travel company. Every week, he needs to take guests to some shopping spots in tourist attractions for shopping. Meng Ran did the same job as A Mu. At that time, A Mu liked to have a moustache, and when the guests were choosing things, he ran to the quiet lawn at the side door of the mall to smoke silently, which was very melancholy. Meng Ran fell in love with A Mu's melancholy.
In the sunny afternoon after the rain in the morning, A Mu went to smoke on the lawn again. Later, Meng Ran stood in front of him, holding two bottles of green tea in his hand, reaching out and handing him a bottle, sitting side by side with him, looking thoughtfully at the front without speaking.
In this way, the two of them have been sitting quietly. When A Mu lit a cigarette, she handed it to Meng Ran. She picked up a cigarette and A Mu lit it for her. She didn't even say a word to the guest before sending him back to the hotel to rest. This rare tacit understanding, like a sponge, gave birth to expansion.
Later, every time he took tourists to the mall, Meng Ran appeared in front of A Mu with two bottles of green tea, handed them to him and sat down side by side.
The second time, Meng Ran told A Mu that her name was Meng Ran. A Mu replied politely, My name is A Mu. Meng Ran' hmm', and then they sat quietly without saying a word to each other.
The third time, Meng Ran told A Mu more.
"I was married and I am the mother of two children."
"Hey, I got married very early."
"Is it too early?"
"Of course you look a few years younger than me."
"You really know how to read."
"It's been a long time."
"I've watched it for a long time" proclaimed Meng Ran's courage to throw himself into A Mu's arms.
For the fourth time, Meng Ran's courage, which people preached, turned into action. She wanted to tell A Mu more, even some hidden secrets.
"My life is terrible."
"What do you think of my life?"
"You should be as lonely as me, or you won't smoke silently here alone every time."
"I'm not lonely, I just want to be alone."
"I'm sorry, I misunderstood. I hope I didn't disturb you."
In fact, Meng Ran knows and understands how lonely a person who is obviously lonely but has to argue. She just didn't want to break his affection for her, so she perfunctory said that she had misunderstood.
"No, you feel good sitting next to me."
Meng Ran looked up at A Mu, looked at her, and there was no doubt that his eyes were like fire.
"You are so beautiful, young body and mature soul. I've always wanted to marry such a woman. I don't know who is so lucky, not only to get you, but also to get the two children you gave birth to for him. "
"I may get a divorce."
Then he fell silent, dreaming of what A Mu would think; A Mu wants to know why Meng Ran said that.
The fifth time, Meng Ran asked A Mu to talk about him when he handed A Mu water. A Mu didn't refuse. When he met Meng Ran, he actually wanted to talk about it for a long time. On that day, A Mu and Meng Ran chatted for a long time, talking about all kinds of things when they were studying, all kinds of things after graduation, life, work and feelings. A Mu even sincerely told Meng Ran about his unforgettable college romance.
I met Jojo at the welcome dinner of A Mu Hometown Association, when she was a sophomore. At that time, A Mu was already the president of the school's association, and Jojo was a fellow villager in another city and county in their province who had just applied for a freshman year and a junior year.
"Will you miss your predecessor?" Meng Ran asked.
Let me tell you this, remember to be too affectionate; I don't remember. It seems so ungrateful. In my opinion, that man is like walking on the road and hitting a circular pier on the sidewalk, which is very painful. When I walk on the sidewalk again, I will walk around the circular pier. Maybe after a long time, I can't remember how painful it was, but the circular pier I hit at that time will always be there.
The first time I met Jojo was at the welcome party of A Mu fellow villagers in my sophomore year. In such a lively dinner atmosphere, one of the girls could sit quietly in her seat, motionless, only nodded politely in response, and barely managed to squeeze out an embarrassed smile.
A Mu, who had just served as the president of his hometown, walked slowly to Jojo with a glass in his hand. The gentleman said, Welcome.
Jojo said: Thank you, President.
A Mu said, Why don't we get to know each other? Four years in college, a lot of time to take care of each other.
Jojo said: I'm not used to it.
A Mu said: Nothing, then do what you are used to.
Jojo looked at A Mu stupefied, revealing a sweet smile, which A Mu would never get in the future. The sentence' Nothing, do what you are used to' touched Jojo; That smile touched A Mu.
Jojo grew up in a single-parent family, and her mother always told her: be polite, take the initiative, be loved, try to integrate into various circles, and do a lot of things, but Jojo is biased. She felt that she was not used to all the good habits in the eyes of adults, and her stubbornness made her suffer a lot.
She has been looking forward to meeting the man who can make her unaccustomed one day.
A Mu's words are like a light, coming from 108,000 miles away, illuminating her and lingering around her.
Jojo said: I will have a lot of things to trouble you in the future. Will you help me?
A Mu said: If it were you, you wouldn't be in trouble.
After returning to the dormitory that day, Jojo couldn't sleep. The man's face never seems tired. He greeted hundreds of fellow villagers with great aplomb all night. More importantly, when he came to propose a toast to her, every word he said lit up her dark past like light; It opened her' closed' heart for many years; His words, like an aphrodisiac, made her girl's heart fluctuate; His words, like hormones, catalyzed her breasts again, and she felt that she suddenly became breast enhancement and buttocks.
Jojo's first "trouble" in A Mu was the first weekend after military training. My roommate took off his military training uniform and put on radiant clothes, which looked good. She also wants to tidy herself up. In high school, she heard her cousin say,' University is a city that makes people more and more beautiful. When you are around, you will become more and more beautiful, more and more like a woman, and you will deny everything before. The key is that you must learn to love yourself and do more things for yourself. At that time, Jojo watched the cousin of the "village girl" become a "girl with beautiful temperament" and was completely convinced.
When Jojo called A Mu, A Mu agreed to her invitation without hesitation. On that day, they went to many places, from morning till night, from a dollar's mala Tang to dozens of dollars' ice cream balls, from stalls to famous brand clothing stores in big shopping malls, she had the ice cream of love for the first time-Haagen-Dazs; For the first time, she touched thousands of dollars of branded clothes with English letters; She knew for the first time that there was a kind of coffee called Starbucks; For the first time, she knew that the screen for watching movies could be that big.
In just one day, he took her away and subverted all her understanding of the world.
The conversation with Meng Ran stopped in the sweet past, and the clever Meng then boldly doubted them, so he stopped A Mu.
Memory is a bridge, but it is a prison leading to loneliness.
People always ask why beauty is always yesterday. That's because we all unconsciously fell in love with a word called nostalgia.
Meng Ran wants to ask about A Mu's past, just as A Mu wants to talk about it. When they meet, they are destined to go to the' lonely prison' hand in hand. They carved the word' criminal' on each other's foreheads like ancient sinners. As long as I am trapped by loneliness in my life, I will think of the person who engraves for each other.
That night, A Mu and Meng Ran had a tacit understanding and opened a room in a nearby hotel. A Mu carefully asked Meng Ran afterwards, will this be the fuse of divorce?
Meng Ran timidly replied, I don't know.
A Mu kept asking this question until Meng Ran told him that she was divorced, and he kept asking, but she habitually replied: I don't know. It's just that the tone is more determined.
Later, like most people who go to bed because of loneliness, they forget each other when they are busy and yearn for each other when they are lonely.
On the night when A Mu and Jingyi had a big fight, she called Meng Ran. She was not surprised at all when she received the phone call. She seemed sure that he would call her sooner or later, and as soon as she got through, she asked him, What's the matter with you?
"No, I want to see you."
"Ok, where is it?"
"Have a drink, a nice bar."
"You go first, and I'll come later."
On the day they met in Nice Bar, they were silent for a long time. A Mu drank one glass after another and smoked one after another. Meng Ran looked at him without drinking or talking. When he saw the glass was empty, he poured it for him.
Later, they went home separately.
After Jing Yi and A Mu quarreled, she looked at A Mu's leaving back and walked to the sofa where they often leaned side by side, curled up and motionless. See drunk A Mu back, spirit not dozen 1 come, the result had a big fight again, this time Yu Jingyi slam the door, A Mu didn't chase out, he can't chase out.
A Mu sat for a while, and then called Meng Ran. She will arrive soon. As soon as she closed the door, he rushed to kiss her. She didn't refuse or respond. She just said simply, "There is a little girl crying at your stairs. If I remember correctly, it was the girl I saw you shopping hand in hand that day. "
At Meng Ran's words, A Mu woke up with a bang and rushed downstairs without saying hello. A Mu and Jing Yi have been entangled for a long time downstairs. Later, Meng Ran came down. She told Jing Yi that she just came to comfort A Mu, and it had nothing to do with A Mu, and then she turned and left.
A Mu looked at the back of Meng Ran's departure, twitching under the faint street lamp. He knew she was crying, and before turning around, she still smiled so brightly. He chased him out, but Meng Ran seemed to be flying, and he couldn't catch up with him.
After that day, Jing Yi left without saying a word. A Mu left because of business failure, and got bogged down in the swamp, making it difficult to walk. He became more and more decadent. He has been hiding at home, playing games, sleeping when he is tired, shouting for dinner when he wakes up, playing games, and so on.
Until Jojo sent a message to A Mu. Jojo told A Mu that she would come to him, but he didn't refuse. Jojo is different from other girls who have been to his house. She cleaned the room as clean as the hostess and washed his clothes. Buy him food and cook; Sleep with him; Get up early to make breakfast for him, but look at the clothes in the closet that Jingyi didn't take with her when she left. She told A Mu that she didn't care about anything, as long as he would come back, she would be by his side and accompany him through the difficulties.
In fact, it never occurred to A Mu that they fell in love in the simplest years, but were separated by their separation after graduation. They lost to a distant place, and every time they met, they were like' booty friends'. But he knew he loved her, but there was no way to dilute it.
On the night when A Mu called me to have a drink, Jojo just got on the express train home. A Mu said: Biao, I cheated Jojo away.
"why"
"JingYi in the fifth month after losing contact, and sent me a message. She said she would come back tomorrow. "
"What did you say to Jojo?"
"I said I would leave for a while."
"What did she say?"
"said a lot"
"Then how far do you think you and Jingyi can go?"
"Mark, I can tell you that if Jingyi comes back now, I'll take her to the Civil Affairs Bureau for registration at once."
"It doesn't mean anything."
A Mu later told me that Jing Yi is the woman he thinks loves him the most and the woman he wants to love most now. That's what people do. Once they have feelings, they are too timid. I told A Mu: Think about it. I don't want to suggest anything, I just need you to understand and make yourself better. Then whoever you choose will be happier, and whoever you don't choose, let her be quietly happy in others.
A Mu said, Biao, let me tell you something about Jingyi.
I said, okay.
A Mu filled our glasses with wine, then took out a cigarette and lit it. He took a sip and said, I remember one night I drank too much and was bitten by a wasp flying wildly in the toilet. Hearing the cry, Jing Yi rushed into the toilet, desperately flapping the wasps flying around the toilet, and then crushing them one by one. The toilet was splashed with disgusting wasp liquid, and she just sat there holding me.
A Mu gave me a look, and then said, I drank a lot that day, but I can still clearly see that Jing Yi's eyes are full of tears. She snapped a slap at the wasp, which was ugly, but I saw the girl who became brave because she loved me, the girl who was willing to become cruel because she protected me, and the delicate little girl who seemed to grow up overnight. She carried me downstairs, limped downstairs and took a taxi to the hospital, and stayed by my side all night.
A Mu then handed me a cigarette, filled it with wine, touched my glass and gulped it down. When I bowed my head and took the lighter, I saw the tears flashing in this man's eyes.
He said trembling: Biao, in fact, I am not afraid of anything. Love rat like me, meeting them, no matter who I choose in the end, is enough for me to do my best to love.
I don't know whether it's too cold or too excited. A Mu kept shaking. I said: A Mu, let's call it a day and listen to your good news of being suddenly enlightened next time.
Some people just show up to write stories with you, write something unforgettable, and write something unforgettable in this life. Someone will accompany you to read stories, the plains and the world.
I hope A Mu can understand that no matter how much he loves and pays, it is a sin to be affectionate. If he can't get rid of it, no one will be happy.
Sometimes I want to fall in love, only to find that it is just an appointment; Sometimes I just want to make an appointment, but I accidentally fall in love.
Bless A Mu, bless Jing Yi, Meng Ran and Jojo, and bless those who love each other but can't. Bless yourself. ?