Huang Yifan, Zhang Ailing's mother, is the daughter of a Qing dynasty aristocrat. She likes western culture and is willing to go abroad to receive advanced ideological education. Huang Yifan speaks fluent English and exudes feminine charm under the new education. Zhang Ailing's father is a feudal old man who sticks to the tradition, leading a decadent life and self-indulgence.
The disadvantages of arranged weddings are gradually revealed. There are contradictions and disputes in this family. Huang Yifan couldn't stand her husband's bad habits and finally chose to study abroad when Zhang Ailing was four years old. Four years later, my mother finally returned to China at her father's request. Eight-year-old Aileen was ecstatic. Unable to restrain her inner joy, she wrote a long letter to her friend to express her excitement.
My mother often plays the piano for her. She worships her mother so much that she wants to be as proficient in piano, chess, painting and calligraphy as her mother. Little Aileen looked at Gao's mother and pinned an emerald brooch on her chest. She wants to do the same thing when she grows up. Xiao Ailing is very happy and cautious when facing her mother. She is worried that she will make her mother unhappy.
Mother taught Zhang Ailing to play the piano, to teach her manners, and to teach her how to keep a lady's temperament in advanced dance. However, Zhang Ailing never failed her mother's expectations. She never grinned, never walked gracefully, and she didn't like going to parties. ...
Huang Yifan began to look at her daughter critically. Her daughter is like an idiot in dealing with people. She didn't even dare to get a haircut or meet strangers, which made her mother very disappointed. She gradually gave up her training.
This is just slowly devouring Zhang Ailing's love for her mother. Her mother even yelled at her when her emotions were out of control, saying more than once that she wanted Zhang Ailing to die, which made Zhang Ailing, who was already sensitive and fragile, feel helpless and miserable. Nevertheless, Zhang Ailing still loves her mother, a belief that exists as a god.
Zhang Ailing mentioned that she went shopping with her mother, and after accidentally touching her hand, she felt very strange and cold. She has no feelings for her daughter as if she were a stranger.
Zhang Ailing drifted away from her mother. At the moment of extreme lack of money, Zhang Ailing finally earned the tuition in 800 yuan. She happily took the 800 yuan to find her mother, but she didn't get her mother's appreciation. Her mother just coldly asked her to put the money on the table.
Look again in two days, 800 yuan has been lost to the casino by her mother. This is like a bolt from the blue for Zhang ailing, and this love is shattered!
Zhang ailing secretly made up her mind to return all the money her mother spent on her! She wants to save money!
Zhang Ailing finally saved enough money and changed two gold bars. She waited carefully for the return of the creditor's mother. Finally, when her mother came back from abroad, Zhang Ailing smiled and handed her two gold bars: "Thank you for spending so much money for me. I am very sorry. " This is not gratitude to my mother, it is more like a way to "clear up misunderstandings" and more like a stranger's courtesy.
Mother was in tears and knew that there was an impassable canyon between them. Mother went abroad again, and Zhang Ailing never saw her again. Before her death, her mother wrote a letter to Zhang Ailing: "My only wish now is to see you."
In the end, Zhang Ailing did not see her mother for the last time. After she gave the gold bars to her mother, she was ready to die of old age.
She and her mother love and hate, and their contradictory feelings are mixed together. How much they love and hate.