At first, I wanted to be a poet, and later I became a layman. It's tacky to see mountains as mountains and water as water, which is meaningless.
Occasionally, I hear others talk about their dreams, and I just laugh without saying a word. I have passed the age of dreaming, and everything is very confused. Standing at the crossroads, I don't know where to go.
I don't want to go with the flow, and I don't want to go alone under special circumstances. I'll just turn around where I am. I'm still me. Different fireworks, different dust, the dust in the fireworks is like me.
Some people say that it is not easy to listen when I was a child, when I was sad, and when I was confused, but I dare not listen to songs anymore. The more you listen, the more confused you are, and the more sad you listen.
Later, I found that moving was temporary, and being with people for a long time was arrogant. For example, I used to be arrogant and pretentious, but later I became passive towards Nuo Nuo. Proud people are overconfident, while self-confidence is believing in themselves.
Sometimes ask yourself, do you believe in yourself?
At first, I was sure. Later, vanity began to work, ego began to swell, and finally it was useless. But at least for a moment, I dare to admit that I have the courage to be proud. In fact, all pride and indulgence need capital.
Now I am extremely insecure. I no longer trust anyone, but I have become dependent on money. I hate myself now, so tacky. But I have to be realistic, so tacky.
In this materialistic society, some people struggled for decades, but still lost to themselves. What's more, I am a college student who has just entered the society. Always thinking about reaching the sky in one step, ignoring the down-to-earth spirit of struggle. The headmaster of my junior high school once taught us to be realistic and pragmatic, and never look down on our eyes. This is a heartfelt sentence from the principal when I graduated.
There is a saying that "the heart is higher than the sky, and life is thinner than paper".
I am a layman, I just want to live in shallowness, I just want to live on the surface. Not good?