Business in the teahouse downstairs is not very good. But the boss's purpose in opening this teahouse is not to make more money, but to live according to his own ideas and not to put too much pressure on himself. The teahouse is his own, he runs it himself, and there is not much cost, so even if there are few customers and meager profits, it is enough to support his life. Because the consumption there is very low, and the big pot of tea is provided free of charge, Vivian often goes there, sometimes sitting for an afternoon.

Vivian wants to talk to me. She said that in this cold city, there are not many people who can understand her, and I should be one of them. I don't know what this helpless older woman has, but she told her story.

Vivian went to a good university. After graduation, she went to Shenzhen to do jewelry marketing planning. This job has brought many opportunities and platforms to Vivian, among which the biggest gain is to know Mike, a native of Taiwan Province Province who is fifteen years older than Vivian. He is Vivian's biggest customer.

Vivian is young and beautiful, which naturally attracts Mike. Mike is mature and wise, and Vivian can't stand it. However, Mike has a family, and Andrew West knows that this is the pit she dug for herself, but she can't resist the charm of this mature man. Soon, they fell in love.

02

Vivian's dream had not been dreamed for a few days when she was awakened by a loud bus applause. Mike's wife came from Taiwan Province Province and cooked a delicious meal for Vivian. After she made a scene, Vivian knew that she couldn't work in a jewelry company. Mike's wife sent messages and emails to all her friends and relatives, telling the world that she had seduced a married man.

Vivian hid in a rented house and didn't go out for half a month She bought a box of instant noodles, turned off her cell phone and locked the door, trying to break up with the crowd outside. But she never let go of Mike. She misses him very much, but suddenly she hates him, hates that he can't make decisions for himself, hates that he hides like a coward at a critical moment, but suddenly she feels nervous and anxious. She knows what her relatives and friends will think of her when they know about her and Mike, which is beyond her imagination.

Vivian lost fifteen pounds in half a month. The moment she opened the door, her eyes were almost burned by the sun. She doesn't know that the outside world is still so bright, and it doesn't seem that she will become less warm because of her sadness. She is homesick and misses everything in her hometown. Vivian thought that if she had been with her parents, she might not have made such a big mistake and suffered such a big injustice.

In the mirror, the mark that was severely knocked off her forehead has faded, and Andrew West began to plan to go home. She finally turned on her mobile phone and there were hundreds of messages. Vivian looked at them. These missed calls are all from home. Mike disappeared, and he fled her world with his tail between his legs.

This blow is like a cruel storm. Some people learn to be strong in the wind, while others are more vulnerable after being injured in the wind and rain. Vivian felt that she was the plant that was bent in the wind and rain, and she could no longer stand up straight.

03

Back to her parents, Vivian didn't talk too much about her and Mike, but she had read the cruelty of Mike's wife from her parents' disappointed eyes. Vivian had the idea of running away again, but her parents stopped her. Her father severely reprimanded her, saying that as long as he had breath, Andrew West would never run out and fool around again.

Maybe the misfortune in her life was doomed from the day she met Mike. After Vivian returned to her hometown, she didn't want to talk about her feelings for five years. Sometimes the family urges her to have a blind date, and she always finds various excuses to refuse, which is really inevitable. She'll be back when she's done.

Vivian always misses that good opportunity at work. The economic environment in her hometown is nothing compared with that in Shenzhen. She earned a month in Shenzhen, but not a year in her hometown. Besides, the employment here is very harsh. It is impossible to get into a better unit without any background.

Vivian's feelings were blank when she came home, but her job changed every year, and even changing jobs became a habit. She always unconsciously compares her present job with her previous job, and after each comparison, she wants to give up.

04

Vivian knows that she has been gnawing at the old, living in her parents' house, and sometimes she needs parental subsidies when she is short of money. Emotionally, like a frightened bird, she is more worried about her past. Although those things have passed for a long time and others may have forgotten them, for Vivian, this matter has always been a pain in her heart.

Vivian knows that she may not be able to face life. She can't imagine what kind of life she would live without the support of her parents these years. Now, she is 38 years old, and it has been more than ten years since that painful thing happened to her, but she still seems to be in the shadow of it. She is very confused, and there seems to be nothing to look forward to in her career and feelings. The only thing she wants to do is to find a quiet place.

Of course, Andrew West also blamed himself. While gnawing at her old age, she didn't know that she still had the responsibility to provide for the aged. Her parents are getting older, and her mood changes with her mood. The joy of her old family is gone. Wei An knows that this depressing atmosphere comes entirely from herself, from her pessimism and incompetence, but she doesn't know how to change it. Halfway through life, many opportunities slip away. She doesn't know where the future lies. Sometimes she will tell herself that maybe God has other plans, and sometimes she will be content with the status quo, at least God will let her live so healthily. As for the future, she no longer expects anything. Let's take it one step at a time.