Time is infinite and life is short. When we are still thinking about how to spend our lives and how to cross the world of mortals, time has taken us far away. Looking at ourselves in the mirror, our temples are all gray. The years of youth are just a flash in the pan, and in a blink of an eye, there is only a sigh of falling flowers; Time flies like moonlight in the water, and the breeze blows, leaving only a few ripples, alienating the pages of the years. \r

I always find fewer and fewer people around me; I always look back at the grass behind me. The people we meet in the world of mortals, no matter how many happy times they have had, always fade out of our lives unconsciously, leaving only the scene of meeting at that time and staying in memories. In the end, life is a lonely journey. Walking is inseparable, and walking is full of wind and smoke. \r

At this time, I am in a city in the south, thinking about the villages in the north, the smoke under the clouds, the sunset in the mountains and the shepherd's flute at dusk. Of course, I also remembered my childhood full of laughter and my friends who had no barriers at that time. At that time, we were naive. We didn't know what separation was. We just held hands happily, from mountain to stream, from morning till night. Many years later, people are in the end of the world, and the news is abrupt. I want to come here. \r

When I was in Beijing a few years ago, I could often get together with my friends, drink and chat freely. Although it is an ordinary pub and an ordinary dining table, its freedom and carefree are unparalleled. I used to think it was not difficult to get together. Anyway, they are all in that city. But now, it's only been a few years, and everyone is scattered. Once, they pushed a cup together for a change, but now they just drink and sing alone. Life comes and goes, which makes people helpless.

Four words-"No regrets".

There are many crossroads in life. Don't regret if you choose.

1995, one morning before the college entrance examination, the director of the academic affairs office walked into our class and told us, "Students who are interested in applying for military schools should register at the academic affairs office."

After a short silence, the whole class began to boil.

With a "wow", most of the male students in the class rushed out of the classroom.

I haven't reacted yet, just sitting in my seat. Looking at the scattered female students in the classroom, my brain is running at high speed: follow the trend or not?

You know, going to a military school is not only a matter of honoring one's ancestors, but also requires no high tuition and fees, and you can get a certain subsidy every month.

Besides, it is a real man to dare to challenge. If I don't sign up, what will my classmates think of me in the future?

Vanity and career drove me out of the classroom.

"Unintentionally inserted willows into the shade." Later, I was successfully admitted to Nanchang Army College.

I felt a sense of loss and loneliness the moment I stepped into the college gate.

On the playground, there are old students squatting on the ground in the scorching sun, wearing vests and "crunching" weeds. They are all dark-skinned and sweaty.

Coming to the student team made me even more unprepared. A blue brick two-story building in the 1970s and 1980s came into view, rustic, shabby and vicissitudes.

Is this where I will stay for the next four years? Is this the college life I yearn for? I'm so sorry for my intestines.

The following military school life really made me understand what a nightmare is.

Every morning, just before dawn, I am awakened from my dream by a quick wake-up whistle. Dress and wear hats in the dark, rush out of the barracks, and parade in drills. Free-handed 5 km, 400 m obstacle, physical training, equipment training, every subject can make us tremble with fear.

Relatively speaking, a day's cultural class has become our most relaxing and yearning time. The military physical education class in the evening and the physical training after the news broadcast are the most difficult and frightening times. High intensity training is enough to make people numb.

This is a day's life for military cadets, unforgettable and unforgettable.

During the four years in the military academy, we did everything except normal study and training, such as raising pigs, growing vegetables, cooking, picking up excrement, standing guard and digging fish ponds.

Now that I think about it, although those days were bitter and boring, they were full of fun and life, and they could also sharpen people.

"How can you see a rainbow without experiencing wind and rain?" . Military school life has cultivated our caring, helping, hard-working friendship and indomitable willpower, which is valuable spiritual and material wealth for us.

After a while, I regret being a soldier, and after a while, I regret not being a soldier all my life. I chose the military camp without any regrets.

If you use four words to describe the life you want, which four words are you going to use? I hope these four words are quiet years.

Recently, I found myself in anxiety and depression again. It may be that the work pressure is too great and I have been uncomfortable. It seems that there is always an invisible pressure that makes me flustered. When you hear noisy voices, you will be nervous and blocked. I almost went to the hospital to have an electrocardiogram, but I would rather not go for fear of any problems. Whenever I am hit, I immediately feel like a deflated balloon, depressed, insomnia and fidgeting. A few years later, I had a bad cold. I lost my voice for six or seven days at work, but it seems to be a rare quiet time. I no longer need to talk and socialize, but I can do my own thing more calmly. In recent days, I often suffer from insomnia at night, tossing and turning, and I don't know what time I fell asleep in the morning.

In countless sleepless nights, you always have the same dream, in which the darkness is boundless, the wasteland and abyss are so clearly visible, and you always try to devour your soul. The abyss is at your feet, and you have to try your best to straighten up to avoid falling, but you still can't help but look down and see the unfathomable and endless hole. Dreams are terrible, but you still don't want to wake up. When you wake up, you are afraid to face the unbearable real world again. The song "Yesterday reappears" is played repeatedly in my ear, and many past events come back to my mind. .......

When I was young, when I was young,

I listen to the radio, often listening to the radio,

Waiting for my favorite song. Waiting for the beloved song.

When they play, I will sing along, and when they hear the sound, they will sing along.

This made me laugh. This makes me very happy.

What a happy time it was, what a happy moment it was!

Not long ago. Not long ago.

How I wonder where they went. I wonder where they went,

But they are back, but they are all my favorite songs.

Like a long-lost friend. They're back now,

All my favorite songs. It's like old friends parting and reunion.

Time flies, time flies. It's almost 17 years since I graduated from college. Whenever I am frustrated, confused, helpless or even confused, I still clearly remember the life teachings of my most respected teacher Jiang when I graduated, and also my graduation thesis tutor. At the graduation dinner table, the teacher told us that no matter what job you are engaged in in in the future, you should always remember one sentence, don't despise and look down on anyone, even if he is an ordinary cleaner, everyone's existence has its own value, but the division of labor is different. If you learn to respect others, you will naturally win their respect.

The teacher in my impression is always the best model of Industry-University-Research's combination, an endless scientific research project, and also our main course "Physical Chemistry" teaching. She wears a pair of glasses and has neat short hair. At that time, she was about forty. She is in a hurry every day. She is a capable woman, but she always smiles confidently. She is always happy when chatting with people, and her laughter is bright, amiable and dignified. I remember the most difficult exam, which was about PVT state diagram and phase diagram of gas, liquid and solid. When the teacher announced the test results, saying that the test was not satisfactory, and the highest score was 59, everyone burst into laughter. And I looked down at my brilliant and ironic 59 points on the test paper. I feel a little happy, and I'm really sorry for the teacher's hard work. I almost passed, but I didn't pay attention, even though the girls in our class didn't pass me this time. But because I like this teacher, how seriously do I listen to the class every time? Everyone else is sitting in the back, but I am sitting in the first row alone, without a deskmate. What lovely eyes and happy mood do I have to go to class?

I remember in a chat when I was doing my graduation thesis experiment, I mentioned my worries and confusion about the future. The teacher told me that you are enterprising and always so crisp and neat. Believe in yourself and you will succeed in the future. This is the only inspiring word I have heard for so many years. Even though I was just an ordinary, even a little rustic and stubborn rural student, the teacher did not look down on me, but encouraged me, inspired me and affirmed me. At the graduation dinner, the teacher saw me wearing a long gray gauze skirt and praised me, saying that you are so beautiful today! This gives me a lot of confidence and affirmation. Although I know that I am just plain, even though my skirt is still so unfashionable and ugly, the teacher does not spare his praise and gives me spiritual comfort. Sometimes, a warm word from others is enough to warm the inner winter.

In my university, there is also a teacher, that is, Bai Yan who teaches advanced mathematics. Her personality is as tall, pure and solid as her name, about 1.7 meters fast. She studied in America with her husband, so she occasionally tells us something about foreign countries in class. In her class, people are always full to occupy a seat. I always come early and sit in the first or second row. Changchun is still very hot in summer and during the day, so there is no air conditioner and fan. I don't remember it. The teacher is tall and slightly fat. The key is to always wear professional clothes, exquisite makeup, a string of white pearl necklaces, and professional shoes with flat feet and one foot, and always speak forcefully. I remember that advanced mathematics seems to be a two-hour class, with a break of 10 minutes. After each class, the teacher paced back and forth.

Steps, lecture back and forth loudly, and give high-intensity lectures on difficult high-number courses, derivatives, calculus, first derivative, second derivative, etc. Every time after class, she is always so tired that she sweats. She always has a white handkerchief at hand. She really forgets whether there is embroidery or not, and she will keep wiping her sweat.

During the break, I will take the initiative to go to the podium to clean the blackboard for the teacher. Although the students clean the blackboard spontaneously, I will take the initiative to do it because I think the teacher is really hard. The teacher always smiles and says thank you, and sometimes she says thank you politely. I also ask my teacher some questions, and she always answers them quickly and neatly. Although she didn't give us direct encouragement, we were deeply impressed by her serious attitude in class, strict requirements for her exquisiteness, even her summer dress and responsible attitude towards teaching.

And our head teacher, Mr. Wei, a handsome and attractive male teacher with gold-rimmed glasses, was in his thirties and looked like a doctor at that time. Young and promising, he has opened his own jewelry store in Changchun. It seems that he also has his own jewelry company in Shenzhen, and several outstanding seniors graduated from his company. He taught our specialized course "Jewelry Appraisal". Because specialized courses are only held in junior year and senior year, it is difficult for freshmen and sophomores to meet each other except at ordinary times. In my impression, he is a mysterious and admirable character. And one of my senior sisters, who also instructed me in my graduation thesis. It seems that her name is Zhao and she has a good learning ability. Later she graduated and went to a research institute in Beijing. And Mr. Ma, who is in charge of the laboratory, is very nice and has a loud voice. He always asks us to be careful not to break the experimental instruments. I once broke a glass beaker, but I was afraid. I didn't seem to be punished in the end because I had to pay a fine. Teacher Ma was unmarried all his life. Fortunately, with my sister working in the school library, the years are not too lonely. But because of my cheerful personality, I seem to have never seen sadness. I heard that he died of illness a few years ago.

When they sing to a place.

He broke her heart, broke her heart,

It really makes me cry,

Just like before, just like before,

Back to yesterday. It's like the old days are happening again.

Many years later, when I look back on the first half of my life, in the darkest valley of my life, in the years before and after giving birth, faced with numerous setbacks and blows, when I feel discouraged and want to give up, I will think of my teacher's words of encouragement. I am an impulsive and emotional person, and I can't help crying every time. Finally, with the encouragement of the teacher, I survived. Maybe in the eyes of people who fall into the hole, I am a weak person, and I can only be beaten, bullied, suppressed and resigned to my fate, but I finally struggled hard and came back to life, making the jokes that some people want to see empty.

In a difficult situation, I gave up the opportunity to work in the Beijing branch and chose to stay in the headquarters of the small town and live another ordinary and slightly stable life. Although I am very depressed and confused, whenever I come home, I see my child's smiling face like a flower and listen to his childish babbling calling my mother, my heart is so satisfied and I want to cry happily. Everything you have suffered, the injustice you have suffered, is so worthwhile.

I also want to thank people who make me depressed. You let me mature gradually, let me learn to think about life, and let me know what kind of life I can live and what kind of life I want. I am not as beautiful as others, and the word success is not in my dictionary. There are many things that others have, but I haven't, but I never follow what some people pursue. I just want to live the life I want, and silently keep the hard-won family life together.

Now that life is over half, I can't stand the toss. Although we don't have rich material conditions compared with others, isn't it a blessing that our family is safe and healthy and our parents are still alive?

Years are quiet, which is the word I sign the most every time. I hope my life can go on so peacefully. I don't want to be vigorous and prosperous, but I want peace of mind and quiet years.

In the quiet years, I would repeat the same thing every day, get up and make breakfast for my children, then clean up and walk to work. I will put on headphones and listen to my favorite music. I will also read my favorite books in my spare time to make my soul empty. Sometimes a person walks quietly in a crowded street, watching the noise around him and enjoying the simple happiness and freedom; I also keep a diary occasionally to record my feelings.

I told my children to have a grateful heart and be grateful for everything in the world, even if it is a grass and a tree, a ray of sunshine and a spring breeze. Which one is not a gift from nature? We feel that the four seasons alternate, and nature brings us comfort and pleasure for free, which makes us feel the wind of the four seasons of life, the flowers in spring, the rain in summer, the fallen leaves in autumn and the snow in winter. How valuable!

The sun is still shining, the years are mottled, and the years are vicissitudes. In the years like water, I only wish the years would be quiet and smile safely. ...

God bless people.

My birth is a kind of luck. Family planning was severely cracked down at that time. If my eldest brother dies, I don't exist at all.

Xiao Sheng didn't get the key points in the initial examination. Results In that year, enrollment encountered a bottleneck, and the school admission line dropped by 30 points, which successfully entered the bottom, and laid the foundation for successfully entering the high school stage of our school.

Senior three was lucky enough to meet several serious and responsible teachers, and with their own efforts, they entered the forefront from the bottom and successfully entered a book.

After graduating from college, my family was demolished, and the pressure of employment suddenly decreased, so I came to Tibet to realize my dream.

In Tibet, he became the only young man who stayed in a key department in recent years and learned a skill.

Now, God has given me a wonderful marriage. We know each other because QQ numbers are completely symmetrical (each other's QQ numbers are each other's, hahaha). Then I found that the three views fit perfectly. After knowing each other for three years, we naturally came together. There is nothing to pursue and express, and there is not much difference between two people's thinking about marriage.

So I want to use "God bless the people" to describe my first half of my life. God, he's really nice to me.

So no matter what happens in the future, I will bite my teeth. God takes good care of this wretched life, and I can't feel sorry for it, hahahaha.

Describe my life experience in four words: it's a bit bumpy. .

I think these four words completely describe my half life.

It's really stumbling. Born as a child, he is not a lucky child. When I was born, I was severely malnourished, only more than three kilograms, which was not as good as my newborn kitten.