One of the worst things in the world is feeling unworthy of the person you like.

It's like standing on a rainy roof. You can't go up and say "Let's go together" because you don't even have an umbrella.

-Comments on Netease Cloud Music "Deep Sea Light"

I heard this song on a bright and cold early spring afternoon.

I sat on a cold stool in the teaching building, leafing through a long list of songs from Netease Cloud, and saw this song in the listed song titles, just like the scene described by the title-

A fish saw light in the deep sea.

In the dark and cold deep sea, an ugly and ordinary Yu Ri lives simply day after day.

There is no morning, no day and night, and the days in the deep sea are long and short.

In this corner where the sun can't touch, fish often spend their whole lives measuring the passage of time.

Until one day, a bright light shot into the deep sea, cutting a bright channel in the solidified darkness.

The light in the deep sea shocked the life of fish. It is so bright and shiny that the fish feel eager and at a loss.

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"So tremble humbly and go with the flow as you please."

The song of bitter fruit is turbid and clear, just like the inner world of that fish.

Longing for the light to bring it warmth and take it out of this boundless cold and darkness;

But there are too many obstacles and obstacles in my heart, so I would rather close myself and choose to escape.

No one likes loneliness, but loneliness makes people feel practical compared with cold and hot.

The fish knows in his heart that even if the light is bright, it is far from himself.

"Sometimes I see you, sometimes I can't breathe."

Fish in the deep sea will never reach the warm sea.

And it can't float to the surface-the change of pressure will break its body and make it unable to breathe.

Just like the trembling feeling of my heart in the face of that light.

The deep sea defines it, and it cannot change its identity.

Therefore, it chooses to swim deeper into the deep sea, choose to bury itself in its "accustomed" darkness and escape from the light that makes it feel like a drum.

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The world has followed its own set of laws since its birth.

Trees cling to trees, flowers embrace flowers, and everything will instinctively approach the same kind.

Anyone who can't control his restless heart and likes someone completely different from himself will be punished by the rules.

Sometimes, even looking at him from a distance and even thinking of him occasionally can fill your good mood all day;

Sometimes, without him, just looking at his name is enough to destroy all your confidence.

In your life, the deep still water is him, and the waves are him;

He is the smiling man and the heartbroken man. But anyway, he's just him, not you.

Zhang Ailing wrote to Hu Lancheng:

"Seeing him, she became very low, as low as the dust, but she was very happy and blossomed out of the dust."

The girl's unique pure feelings are described so beautifully in Zhang Ailing's works:

Miss Genius, who was once arrogant, fell in love with someone, so she began to humble herself willingly for that person.

This is a look up that only people who are in love can enjoy.

But the truth is:

You can love someone in the dust, but no one will like you in the dust.

Why do we unconsciously feel inferior when facing the person we like?

Apart from specific factors such as emotions and occasions, it is mainly because we are an imperfect and substandard existence.

It is the appearance of that person, like a bright light, that illuminates you in the deep sea.

Let you find yourself panicked.

It's raining, and you two stand side by side under the eaves. How much you want to take him home by the hand, but he won't go with you without an umbrella.

You are the light. Before you came to my eyes, you had already lit up the mountains and rivers, the sparkling sea and the delicate and soft beaches of osawa.

And I am just an ugly and ordinary fish in the deep sea.

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It is very difficult to summon up the courage to express your true feelings.

Especially between two very different people.

You can see his courtesy and kindness. He never has the heart to hurt others and always takes care of others' feelings carefully.

He's really nice.

You can imagine the embarrassment he unconsciously shows every time he receives your message, and you can understand how embarrassed he is.

How much pressure and trouble you will bear, and you want to refuse, but you are afraid of hurting your self-esteem.

In the Korean drama "Ugly Woman Turn Over", the ugly and ordinary fat girl Kang Hanna is such an example.

169cm，95kg。 Such data belongs to a girl in her early twenties, which is a bit unacceptable anyway.

Hannah's life has been trapped in this "deep sea dilemma" caused by appearance defects:

Obviously, he has a heavenly voice, but he can only voice the stupid vase behind the scenes forever;

Her boyfriend abandoned her because of her appearance, so she chose to commit suicide, but she gave up after all.

But poor, she was still full of longing for life, and fell in love with the producer Han Xiangjun, who appreciated her talent very much.

He never talks to himself in a fierce tone. When everyone is watching her jokes, he will call her to his side. He seems to like his good personality.

However, it seems that this is all.

But after all, Hannah knows that such a good one will definitely not choose a fat man who will crush him when he is picked up.

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The ending of movies is always idealistic and romantic. Hannah had a full-body plastic surgery and became a high-profile beauty.

Not only did I realize my musical dream, but I also succeeded in being with my beloved.

But in real life, how many fish can swim out of the deep sea with their own courage?

There is a high probability that we are all forced to endure the pain of suffocation and forced to leave, just like the song sings.

The fish chose to listen to the light from a distance, not because it didn't understand the preciousness of love.

On the contrary, fish understand everything thoroughly.

At the first sight of the light, it has already felt the bitterness of love.

So, he must not find out. This script that was written wrong from the beginning, let me finish it alone.

After all, I like it. You should be upset, too, right

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