I used to have a time like yours. I wonder how old you are. Hearing you say that you have no courage to live any longer, I really have an unspeakable taste. Everyone has the right and obligation to live. Living is not just for yourself. Do you want to die just because you are not good-looking? No, the more so, the more you want to live, and you can only change it in other ways. If you can't change others, change yourself first so that others can change. No matter how beautiful a person looks, she will no longer feel beautiful. After a long time, inner beauty is beauty. Although ugliness cannot be changed for the time being, you can only change your personality first. I know it's hard to do, but when you remember this sentence and remind yourself every day, you will succeed. You should be "shameless, be a shameless person, but be a kind person." . It means that you know that this person doesn't like you and hates you, but you still have to be nice to him (her) with a smile and try to be nice to him (her). You know he doesn't need you to be nice to him, but you still have to be nice to him. For example, you help him do what he has to do but doesn't want to do. When a person has no face or skin, he is not afraid of anything. As long as he can achieve his goal, you can use it how you want. I believe this person will change soon (but this method is not suitable for your beloved boy). Although you can't change your view on your appearance, you can change your view on you, and your appearance will change in that person's psychology. Think of that invincible ugly girl. In the play, she plays an ugly girl, but she conquered so many people in the company with her own personality charm, and finally conquered the boss as her boyfriend. But this is a bit divorced from reality, but the people around her and colleagues in the company are real. You can have plastic surgery if you have money. Really don't care too much about other people's eyes, how tired it is to live for others, and living for yourself is your own life.