Your wisdom is very good, and you have compassionate thoughts at a young age. You should have studied Buddhism in previous generations, and now the Buddha's fate is mature. A lot of things, as long as you are willing to learn, will go further towards becoming a Buddha! As for masturbation, there are some spells to say, but the most important thing is not to read things on those websites, to control your heart and observe your intentions. Many websites attract people to click with some obscene words. I suggest you study Soda-based Kampo's Lecture Notes on Bodhisattva. You can download the electronic version from zhibeifo. Sodaki Kampo's suffering is life, doing is getting, and so on. There are also many books to recommend to you. Please add 445,222 and 5 12. Visualize yourself as a Buddha, bodhicitta and so on. , are all concepts emphasized by Tantric Buddhism, so I think you are also the foundation of studying Tantric Buddhism.