Put your mind right, there is no need to be too depressed and uncomfortable. Your own face value is given by your innate parents. No one is wrong. Only if you have a good heart can you know that filial piety is the best.
Besides, there are some people who are worse than you, and some people are alive and well, without your idea. Kindness does not necessarily mean kindness. There is no need to compare with others. You are unique and the best person. You should have confidence in yourself.
Do what you should do, don't be paranoid, and have a good attitude? Everything will be fine, that's all!