This is not the first time I have struggled with this desire. I have experienced countless failures in recent years, and it is these countless failures that really tell me a lot and make me more determined. It can be said that these experiences that make me want to cry when I think about it constantly inspire me. There are many reasons, but knowing does not mean understanding. These experiences made me know and reflect on my life.
However, many precious things have also flowed away in my own indulgence and struggle. At least for me, I certainly don't want to talk about it with my relatives and friends. Therefore, whenever I am upset about this matter, there is no one to talk to, which makes me even more upset. When I need encouragement and support most, no one can comfort me by my side ... This feeling of loneliness and helplessness must have been experienced by some friends here. I spent a lot of time and energy fighting with myself, and time passed quietly.
A lot of things can be made up for when they are lost, but what about time? ! Time cannot, youth cannot, and life cannot!
Every time I think about it, it's really hard. Many of my good times have slipped away in guilt and depravity.
I have thought about giving up, thinking about the idea that everyone occasionally has: leaving this world.
But I can't! Deep in my heart, I can feel that there is still a pure land, where the ever-emerging hopes and longings make me look forward to the future. I believe everything will be fine in the future and my dream will come true. I can't just surrender.
Surrender? Surrender to who? Myself, instinct, or something?
If you have to answer this question, one answer is to surrender. But it is cruel and reckless to say that you are your enemy. So surrender to instinctive desires? Then I have to ask, what's wrong with this desire? This desire is inherent in human beings. Do you blame the creator for this desire? It can be said that ignorance is innocence!
So what is my enemy? Is a concept and inertia!
When I say ideas here, I don't mean harmlessness. These are all external information. I'm talking about an inertia formed in my heart (of course, the formation of this inertia must be related to these concepts), and the inertia of people makes this inertia bigger and bigger and more out of control. Everyone should have the energy to know that he is wrong, but he will still make mistakes unconsciously. This is the power of inertia or habit! Inertia should be equal to habit, but inertia is more like unconsciousness.
Faced with this powerful inertia, I am afraid of loneliness, loneliness, and not being understood, and I am secretly sad and desperate. Along the way, I felt the power of loneliness.
Loneliness is neither an unfriendly enemy nor a hypocritical conspiracy. It is so real, but it can't be seen through. The power of loneliness is enormous. It keeps me away from impetuousness, lets me hear my heartbeat, lets me see my call, lets me get rid of illusion and reality, and lets me have myself completely.
In recent years, in the process of fighting inertia, I have gradually changed. In fact, how I wish I could become what I want overnight, but is it possible?
It's a mess After all, there are only 30 days, but these 30 days have a lot to say to me. Many may be just emotional venting, but there are two things that may be useful. First, use actions to guide your life direction, don't just read the posts without taking action. Second, don't be afraid of repeated defeats. It is great to realize that it is constantly fighting against the inertia that corrodes life. We will learn many things that others can't tell us when we never give up.
Come on!