I don't know how you survived such a marriage. Husband and wife are dependent partners, but your marriage seems to be unhappy. Because you have nothing, when you need care and support most, your lover ignores you instead of taking care of you. Do you have a future with him? Although I don't know how old I am. But your marital status is not good. Obviously, he doesn't love you and doesn't want to pay for you, so don't be sad, just think that his true love has been paid to the wrong person.
There are many examples like you in life, such as a couple I heard. They got married on a blind date. Feelings are not deep. After marriage, the husband went out to work and the wife took care of the baby at home. They seldom contact each other. Her husband will come back during the Chinese New Year, but the frequency is rare. Even though she was ill, she tried to take care of the children at home. Her husband didn't take care of the children, and even knew that she was ill without even saying hello. Later, I heard that they divorced. The reason is that the man seems to have cheated. After the divorce, she divided the property and took care of the baby alone. It's hard, but she feels happy. Now that the child is older, she hasn't found another object, and she feels that she has a good life alone. Feelings are sometimes really unreliable, especially when encountering difficulties. Not everyone is interdependent, and there are also disasters that fly separately.
In short, from the perspective of the problem, the subject's marriage is in a state of catastrophe and it is necessary to continue. Let's break up and take good care of yourself. Find someone who is good to you when you are better!