This is what a 38-year-old man said in front of the camera.

In order to be beautiful, he changed from a man to a woman, always pursuing Barbie's general appearance.

However, he had 160 plastic surgery in his half life, just to get recognition, but in the end he failed to get respect and love from others. Still didn't get what he wanted.

The man who used to be a man and later a woman is called Rodrigo alves.

1984, he was born in Brazil, and he was born in a rich family. His father is a successful businessman in England and can be said to be very rich. Rodrigo alves is a standard rich second generation. He didn't have to worry about life since he was a child, and he had no worries about food and clothing.

This background makes many colleagues envy. But it is not money that makes you happy.

Rodrigo alves's childhood may be happy and carefree, but he is not happy when he grows up.

After entering adolescence, he found himself different from other boys. All the other boys have Adam's apple. When his voice changed, his chest began to develop because of hormonal imbalance, just like a girl.

Because unlike ordinary people, Rodrigo alves was bullied at school. Both boys and girls laughed at his unusual body.

Because the illness was discovered late, he 16 years old at that time and missed the treatment time. He can only bear such pressure silently.

A year later, Rodrigo alves, who couldn't stand the strange body any longer, chose to have the extra chest removed by surgery. After the success of the operation, he finally became no different from boys of the same age.

I thought I could start a better life again, but he went further and further. For him, "plastic surgery" is like Pandora's box. Once opened, it is difficult to close it again.

When he found that he could change his figure through surgery, he began to have a crazy facelift.

In order to make his appearance look more handsome, he raised his nose and narrowed his nostrils;

If the facial features are not standard enough, go to the cosmetic hospital to take medicine and fill them immediately;

The skin is not delicate enough, and he brushed a lot of acid to make it grow back. ...

Rodrigo alves will do anything to make himself look good.

There is nothing in the world that only gains and does not pay.

The price he paid was that his whole face looked very stiff like an industrial product, and there were traces of plastic surgery everywhere.

However, he doesn't care. In his opinion, do it again if you are not satisfied.

Besides, he has money and time. At that time, his grandparents had several rows of villas themselves, and they earned a lot by collecting rent every moonlight. More importantly, when they died, they left him a large legacy. Less than 30 years old, he already has a wealth of 240 million.

In addition, there is medical insurance reimbursement for plastic surgery in Britain, so he doesn't have to worry about money at all.

"Plastic surgery" can make him get more attention, let more people see him and make him even crazier, because this is just the beginning.

It is not enough to have a whole face. He also wanted a good figure, so he went to the hospital and pulled out the fat on his legs so that he could put on tight pants without exercising. The extracted fat is not wasted, and it all goes to the hip position, in order to have an upturned hip.

It can be said that he pursues what is popular, but forgets that pursuing himself is the most important thing.

When fitness became popular, Rodrigo alves envied those men's abdominal muscles and chest muscles. He also wants to have such a figure.

However, as a rich man, he naturally won't choose fitness.

He asked the doctor to implant prostheses of abdominal muscles and chest muscles into his body to get a "good figure".

In less than 10 years, the number of plastic surgery in Rodrigo alves has reached 73 times.

Because of his unique experience and his love to send beautiful photos on social platforms, he became a celebrity and often participated in programs.

In the process of recording a TV program, the staff next to him found two more holes in his nose. After being sent to the hospital, it was found that the prosthesis collapsed and the whole body was festering.

After the operation, he kept his nose, but lost his sense of smell.

When injecting gel into his arm, he was infected with bacteria, which almost killed him this time. Fortunately, Rodrigo alves was fatal, but he survived.

After being pulled back to the jaws of death twice, the outside world thought that Rodrigo alves would stop for a while, but both underestimated his determination to pursue beauty.

He went to India alone, had an iris operation, cut the eyeball, fitted an artificial iris with ice blue, and got a pair of beautiful pupils.

Because of frequent plastic surgery, Rodrigo alves began to appear on various programs, even on the cover of magazines.

It's just that everyone is curious and doesn't agree with his behavior.

Repeated plastic surgery did not make him confident again. Doubts from outside made him feel inferior. He began to get drunk and indulge in drinking.

Long-term drinking has made him fat and it is difficult to put on his original clothes.

In order to lose weight as soon as possible, he went to the hospital to get four ribs and reduced his waistline.

He even said in the program: "In pursuit of beauty, even if I sneeze now, I will die, and I admit it."

Rodrigo alves's behavior has gone beyond fire, and people's attacks on him are getting louder and louder.

In 2020, Rodrigo alves suddenly disappeared. He emptied his social media and didn't appear in public for a long time. However, he did not quit the net, but went for a sex-change operation.

After the reunification, Rodrigo alves changed her name to Jessica. She used anna smith, the top player of Playboy, as a template, and had several plastic surgeries, and her breasts were enlarged to H cups.

In the face of media interviews, he said that he was a real Barbie doll. Because the plastic surgery was too crazy, all his friends around him gradually left him. After his father died of illness, he even lost his only relative.

All this doesn't seem to stop his determination to continue on this road. He also founded a variety show for himself, aiming to find his own Prince Charming and really get love.

Jessica, 38, still posts photos on social media. But before that, he had been diagnosed with serious appearance anxiety, depression and physical problems.

Even so, he has no regrets and enjoys walking on the road of "plastic surgery".

His madness is puzzling, but what is hidden behind his madness?

Perhaps because his family didn't give him too much love, he was bullied by his classmates when he was a child and didn't find out in time.

Perhaps the experience of being bullied as a child made him deny himself, thinking that only by "becoming perfect" can he gain respect and love, which made him become what he is now, and he is still stubborn.

Perhaps he never accepted himself, and the harsh words of others hit him hard, which caused him to have a healthy world outlook when he was a minor and failed to heal himself when he grew up. Therefore, he is completely obsessed with plastic surgery.

But he doesn't understand that after 160 plastic surgery, he is actually not happy. Only when he is strong inside can he get what he wants.

Therefore, he still failed to get rid of those dark days.

In a hypnotherapy, he kept repeating a sentence:

"Don't hurt me, I'm not a monster ..."

His behavior seems ridiculous, but in the end, he is also a poor man.

A happy childhood cures a lifetime, but an unhappy childhood cures a lifetime.

He keeps getting plastic surgery, but what he can't stop is his heart that has nowhere to put it.

If there were no bad experiences as a teenager, maybe his life would be a different scene. But that childhood nightmare, if he doesn't break it himself, really no one can save him.

"Buddha does not cross people, but people cross themselves."

He is eager to be liked, but he must like himself first.