Documentary, you still have a list to follow, and your peers are more or less bankrupt!
Since you choose this line of work, it shows that you still have feelings for him.
You can also choose to go out to study and save your strength. This is a fashionable industry, many people will envy you!
Communicate with colleagues more.
Make more friends.
Your direction is a little single.
Pay attention to adjustment
Finally, good luck.