Love three times is a thousand times.
On the small balcony of the bedroom, unlike many others, Xu made his own small world with flowers and comfortable sofas.
Xu held a pillow and slept on the sofa on the small balcony all night. At the moment, in the wild goose city, the black veil is being uncovered little by little in the morning light.
She has been in a state of shock since she came back from Xu Lingming's party last night.
"Jiang Zhengnan!" It is extremely difficult for her to pronounce the name in a low voice.
In recent years, she has not paid attention to or avoided it, so she knows something about him. For example, after she left for half a year, he met money.
Married; For example, it is reported that he and Qian went to Barcelona for their honeymoon; For example, he joined hands with money to attend various activities; For example, more than a year ago, his father was at
Take the news and help with the investigation. The latest news is that he divorced Qian a year ago.
However, she just knows. It's like watching a gossip of a top star, sweeping it away. It's time to make her feel better.
Light has boiled all the sadness into a faint past.
She called him for the last time before leaving Luohai. At that time, she silently told herself: "Xu Lian Zhen, for the sake of the child, call him."
Three calls. Anyway, at least you worked hard for the children. You won't regret it in the future, even in the face of children, you won't feel guilty. "
She did call him once, twice or three times. Finally, He Jun answered, but she heard his unprecedented cold and disgusting voice: "You!"
Ask her if she is short of money or wants to attend my wedding. You tell her not to call again from now on. "
Even before I called, I knew the result. But at the moment of hearing his words, Xu still felt the pain of being shot in the heart.
From now on, she will go with him to the future with nothing!
In fact, from the very beginning, she knew that this was the end. But he did everything he could to threaten her to come back to him. Occasionally, she always hopes there is a little love and joy there.
Yes, in that secret place in her heart, she Ceng Jing wants him to threaten her, just like many TV heroes, because of love.
However, Xu found that she was wrong. As before, she doesn't know why. Anyway, he never loved her.
After having children, Xu imagined it thousands and tens of thousands of times. What will happen if she tells him? However, no matter how many times she thought about it, she couldn't figure out where she and his future were. His cold eyes and ruthless words made her feel that maybe if she accidentally said it, the child would leave her forever.
His last words to her finally gave Xu the despair she wanted. Then, she turned around in despair and left in despair, and there was no greed anymore!
From then on, he was another person to her.
When he got married, Internet and TV reports were all over the place. At that time, she was really, really sad. She was breathless with pain and almost suffocated. The baby in the belly felt it and kept kicking her inside. She will always remember that she caressed her stomach and said to the children in an empty room, "Baby, be good, don't kick mom, let her cry for the last time." After crying, my mother will never cry again. "
The children are good and obedient. So, she sat behind the curtain with her arms in her arms and quietly burst into tears. Tears with those who took his memory in the air a little bit broken, disappeared.
After that time, I saw the report about him again, and there was really nothing I could do. Because she promised the children.
The reunion last night was so unexpected. What's more, she was arranged to be at the same table with him. After dinner, she followed everyone like a marionette. But fortunately, at least she managed to appear calm.
In fact, what happened between her and him in those years, Xu never understood. Even after these years, Xu is still unclear! The sentimental past, the scorching temperature of his body, his lips, his kiss, and occasionally half asleep, she felt that she had had several endless dreams.
She didn't even look at him for hours last night. She really looked like a stranger.
On the contrary, when she and Nian Dongsheng both left, He Jun greeted her at the door: "Hello, Miss Xu."
Xu youyou smiled; "He Laoshi, I wish you all the best."
He Jun didn't say much, but bowed: "Thank you xu teacher, goodbye." Xu smiled and said goodbye: "Goodbye."
So I left and went home.
Everything is as calm as a deep pool of stagnant water, with no waves at all.
And she, on the small terrace behind the curtain, stared at the lights of the wild goose city and spent the whole night in her nest.
I can't sleep anyway. Xu got up from the sofa, rubbed his stiff neck, pulled his slippers and walked to the bedroom. Go to the vegetable market to buy some shrimps and crabs and cook seafood porridge that children love. If you are lucky, you can also buy some earth eggs and make egg pudding for the children.
Her only regret is these two children. She made them lose their father forever. But even if it is selfish, she will keep them around. Because of them in the world, she can realize all kinds of small happiness and beauty in life, and she will feel that life has no regrets.
The current weather, with even hot and cold and suitable temperature, is the best season in Dayan City. Xu strolled along the street. A few years later, the city was so familiar to her, even the air. Five Blessingg and Luo Hai once became passers-by in life and hurried by.
That year, just like when she left Luohai for the first time, she came to Dayan City with her bag on her back and knocked on the door of Jiao Jie's house.
I stayed in Jiao Jie's small room and wanted to continue to help with the clothing store. Jiao Jie loves her dearly and can't bear to keep busy. Later, Dong Sheng knew that she was back and gave her some design work that could be completed at home at the first time.
Thanks to Jiao Jie and Nian Dongsheng, who accepted her like relatives and took care of her and her children over the years. Without them, she would suffer many, many times.
Over the years, she has had a good life, enjoyed it and never felt tired. If there is a little flaw, it is probably because the child asked her, "Mom, where is Dad? Where is Dad? "
I really don't think this kind of lens in TV movies is very melodramatic. In fact, life is so melodramatic. That's what children ask her.
But she can't lie like the heroine on TV and say, "Dad has gone far away." Far, far away place, generally refers to heaven. Jiang Zhengnan is healthy, his beautiful wife is in his arms, and everything goes well. Even if he is separated, Xu still can't curse him like this. What's more, in terms of distance, Luohai is not far from the wild goose city.
I remember when the children first asked her, she paused for a second or two for the sake of her precocity, then she chuckled and explained in detail: "The thing is, mom and dad walked hand in hand and got separated accidentally. My mother searched and searched, but I couldn't find my dad ... "Xu Lian Zhen spread out his hands and made a helpless expression. "So, my mother can't tell my father that there are two lovely babies like you, do you understand?"
The two children nodded inexplicably and continued to ask, "Mom, why didn't Dad come to us?"
Xu lost his mind for a few seconds. "Of course Dad is looking for us, but he hasn't found us yet."
The children persevered: "When can Dad find us?" Xu Lian Zhen rubbed the child's soft hair and looked out of the window: "Mom doesn't know."
After coming to their senses, Xu Lian Zhen did not forget to exhort me earnestly. As a result, the conversation: "So, when you go shopping with adults, you must firmly hold the adult's hand. Otherwise, you will be separated like your father and never find your mother again. "
Unable to find their mother, the children looked scared and nodded heavily to show their understanding.
Since then, whenever children ask about their father, Xu has made such a statement. She deceived the child and gradually deceived herself. The highest level of lying is to convince yourself that it is true. She almost reached that level!
However, whenever I go shopping, eat or shop, I see a family holding hands, or a child meets a father after attending kindergarten.