She is a little sister I met in the beauty salon before. When I met her, she was 30 years old, with long eyelashes and big eyes. She complained to her colleagues that her boyfriend looked like a child who had never been in love. I wasn't curious about her behavior at that time, thinking it was just a little girl coquetry.
Then one afternoon, I met her, and her colleague teased her and said, how much did your boyfriend spend on you last night? She said several thousand yuan, a gold ring and eating and singing, about five thousand yuan.
I feel fine, quite good, happy life, my boyfriend loves himself, getting married and having children, which is perfect.
If my colleague hadn't suddenly asked her when she would give birth, I think my story about her would have stayed here.
"I have had a vasectomy and can't have children," she said with a smile.
I was shocked to hear that. She smiled and continued, "I didn't think I would embark on the road of divorce before. I really didn't think about it. "
It turns out that she was married once.
When she was eighteen, she married a man in the village. At that time, they were also married in free love.
At that time, dolls in rural areas generally got married earlier.
After she got married, she gave birth to three children, the eldest son, the second daughter and the third son. At that time, the children were pregnant and gave birth naturally. Afraid of getting pregnant again in the future, she had a vasectomy. Because the old man in the family is feudal, if she is pregnant, she will definitely give birth. It is enough to have three children and two children. She doesn't want to regenerate herself, so she can't feed her.
She said that her life was very difficult. At that time, her husband was idle and had no job. He's just wandering around the village. He has no job. He takes care of the children at home and has no money.
The family is subsidized by her parents, or she and her sister-in-law go to grow peppers. It's only 40 yuan a day, and she is busy all day. She shivered as she watched her husband running around the field on his motorcycle.
But at that time, I didn't think about divorce, and I didn't have any money. When the child wants to borrow money to buy food, he talks with his husband about going out to work. Her husband didn't agree, but later the family was too bitter and agreed.
At first, she went out to look for a job everywhere. She didn't know anything and didn't go to work. She worked as a waiter in a KTV, and later went to work in Shenzhen with her relatives. It was then that changed her fate.
I thought it was because I had seen the world of flowers, or my husband cheated at home or something.
Unexpectedly, she said that her youngest son was missing, and she was only one and a half years old.
She said that her little son is very good, does not cry or make trouble, and is usually in good health. He has never taken medicine since he was a child. I am in good health and easy to take care of. I've never seen such a child to take care of. I just came to repay you. It's a lovely baby. I didn't expect it to be gone so young.
On the night he left, he was still fighting with his brother and sleeping. His grandfather also let his two brothers sleep well. I didn't expect to pick them up in the middle of the night to feed milk powder and found that they were out of breath.
I don't know how it disappeared or what he experienced, so it disappeared.
We all feel very sad to hear that, and the child is gone at such a young age.
During the days when the children were away, she worked in a clothing factory, and she was always pricked with needles, and her hands were dripping with blood, which she didn't do when she was studying.
I felt sleepy that day. I fell asleep without eating or taking a shower when I came back from work, and my colleagues didn't wake her up.
Later, her colleague woke her up in the middle of the night and said that her brother was looking for her, and she went out to find her brother. At that time, her family, parents, uncles and aunts were all there, and everyone was crying. Her mother told her, "Xiaoyao is gone."
She didn't believe it at that time, said it was impossible, and then called home. Grandma and dad answered the phone and cried all the time. After she knew it, she sat down on the ground, feeling that her body was not her own, and she kept crying.
That summer night, wearing a white T-shirt and slippers, she bought a ticket home without a soul. There were no tickets at that time. A * * * took five buses to get home for two days and three nights, during which he didn't eat a grain of rice or drink a drop of water.
The woman in the back seat is holding a child. Every time the child calls her mother, she plunges into her heart, and tears flow all the way like water.
Later, I finally got home, haggard and tired, and watched my family start crying again. I didn't eat or drink, and I couldn't eat at all.
Even so, I didn't catch up with the children for the last time.
Only after the divorce did she hear from her family that her mother-in-law was a godmother and always went to help people see a doctor or something. Once an old man in the village was ill and asked his mother-in-law to see it, but his father-in-law wouldn't let him go.
After marrying her mother-in-law, she took her youngest son. When burning paper money, the child was not sensible and reached for it, and neither the old man nor the mother-in-law stopped him.
Later, the child disappeared. They all said that they died because of the disaster. Now the old man is still alive.
But what's the use of saying this?
I still remember when she was pregnant with her youngest son, just less than three months pregnant, and the fortune teller on the street told her that your child was a boy. Your children will change your destiny, depending on how you look at it, but you can't leave, without which your destiny will be rewritten.
At that time, she didn't understand the meaning of fortune telling and didn't try to figure it out carefully. Now she understands, but it's no use.
Later, she opened a small jewelry store on the street and was busy with her work as a whole. Her husband is still idle, and she has no mind to take care of it. The relationship between husband and wife became weaker and weaker, and then the relationship broke down and divorced.
She is 30 years old this year. In fact, women of this age are not old. After all, she is only 30, but remarriage is more realistic. It is almost impossible to talk about love.
But she started again. She could tell her story with a smile. She put it down.
She was relieved, but her story is still in my mind. I'm almost 30, but there's no story and no wine. Life is dull, still struggling in life.
I always feel that it is not appropriate to write this story during the Spring Festival, but it is also a reassuring day.
In the new year, we all reconcile with our past selves and forgive ourselves at that time. May all of us be happy and safe in the new year.