Let's look at the relationship between the characters in Nuo:
Watanabe: Hero
Muyue: Also known as Watanabe's only bosom friend.
Naoko: Muyue's girlfriend.
Qing Zi: Watanabe's classmates.
Yongze: Watanabe's "friend" at boarding school
Chumei: Yongze's girlfriend.
Reiko Kobayakawa: Naoko's roommate in the nursing home.
At the beginning of the story, Watanabe is on the plane. From the conversation between Watanabe and the stewardess and the state when getting off the plane, we can see that Watanabe is alone at this time, and this is the end of the story. In a blink of an eye, the story went back to twenty years ago and began to recall youth. Watanabe is not a person who likes to talk with people, so he has no real friends, but he changed this situation after meeting Muyue. I don't know why, he can talk a lot with Muyue and play table tennis together. In the process of interacting with him, I found that he is a very interesting person, good at capturing interesting parts of other people's words, and will not make everyone feel embarrassed when getting along, but strangely, Mu Yue's interaction with other people is not the case. Later, Muyue introduced his girlfriend Naoko to Watanabe. Naoko is an innocent and lovely little girl. She prefers listening to others than speaking for herself. From then on, they started a threesome date. Naoko and Muyue grew up together and naturally became lovers. Naoko loves Muyue very much, but there is a problem between them, that is, Naoko and Muyue can't have a normal sex life. This may be because they are too familiar with each other, or it may be because they grew up together and explored the differences between the sexes together, but they are not sensitive to this when they are old. The reason is that Naoko and Muyue are not sensitive to this.
One day in May when Watanabe was eighteen, Muyue suggested playing table tennis together. Muyue played very seriously in this table tennis match. After the game, he said, "I don't want to lose today." Watanabe was stunned by Muyue's performance today. This is a wooden moon that he has never seen before. That evening, he received the news that Muyue committed suicide in his garage. At that time, Muyue was seventeen years old.
Why did Muyue choose to end his life? Why is the suicide mode chosen so cruel that it slowly suffocates to death? (The author mentioned: I don't know how long it took him to die. )
I quickly read the whole book, trying to find clues about Muyue's suicide, but in vain. It should be noted that all the people related to Naoko in the full text are related to the age of seventeen: Naoko's sister committed suicide at seventeen, and she had been ill for four years before that; Uncle began to get sick at the age of seventeen and committed suicide four years later; Muyue committed suicide at the age of seventeen; When Muyue died, Naoko was seventeen. Naoko's mental state has been bad since Muyue died. This life lasted for four years, and at the age of 21, he finally chose to commit suicide. Finally, with Reiko Kobayakawa, I feel like a girl of 17 years old, while Watanabe feels like a girl of 17 years old. Seventeen may be an age worth remembering in the author's eyes, because he met Naoko at seventeen and lost his only intimate friend at seventeen. Maybe he wants to stop at seventeen.
? From the descriptions of Naoko and Muyue, Muyue may really love Naoko. In view of Naoko's description of Naoko's visit after chest surgery, I have seen different understandings of their relationship elsewhere. Some people think that it can be seen from here that Muyue doesn't really love Naoko, because if he really loves someone, he won't visit or accompany him after the operation. But my opinion is just the opposite. Maybe Muyue loves Naoko so much that she can't face her lover lying in the hospital bed. A person who goes to visit is complaining about why he doesn't take good care of her. Naoko also said that Muyue is a fragile person in essence, and he can't cope with such a situation. Later, he took Watanabe's company to visit Naoko several times, perhaps to encourage himself through Watanabe's company. Naoko also said that when Muyue was alone with her, she lost her bluff and became emotional and soft. Isn't this a state that only happens in front of the person she loves? She can take off her armor, not the brave man who tries to be brave in everything, but the little boy who will be afraid and cry.
? After Muyue's death, Naoko later went to a nursing home to recuperate because of mental problems. Reiko Kobayakawa, a roommate of the sanatorium, revealed that Naoko began to have symptoms after Muyue's death, and there were also family background factors. After reading this, there may be an explanation for Muyue's death: Muyue and Naoko grew up together and talked about everything. Then he must know that Naoko's sister and her uncle committed suicide together. He is worried that Naoko will go with him. In his subconscious, he thought that as long as he went to Naoko instead of Naoko, he would survive. In addition, we can't ignore that the only negative information mentioned in the article comes from Naoko's mouth: "He always wants to change himself, but he can't, and he is anxious and sad. Originally, he had very good and beautiful things, but until the end, he had no confidence in himself. He has to do that. He has to change it here. He is full of these. " It can be inferred that Muyue may be dissatisfied with the status quo and lose confidence in himself. Watanabe said that Muyue is very smart, but Muyue basically doesn't make friends with people other than him, so Muyue may also be lonely. This loneliness could not be released, and he finally chose to solve the problem in his own way.
Muyue's death was a great blow to Watanabe, and he had the idea of fleeing to other places to start a new life. From Muyue's death, I realized that death is not the opposite of life, but as a part of life. Death will capture us sooner or later, but on the contrary, we were not captured by it before it captured us.
Recorded on May 8, 2020/kloc-0.