A country you can never go back to.
The primary school I attended when I was a child is now deserted. There are kindergartens and primary schools in that primary school, and the playground is covered with yellow mud. When boys fight, they roll around on the ground. It's noisy, imposing and imposing. The outer circle of the playground is planted with French phoenix tree and magnolia grandiflora, which are beautiful in summer and autumn. One of the joys of my primary school is looking forward to the fifth grade, because the contracting area of the fifth grade is to clean up the fallen leaves on the playground and pile them up, and then a bunch of people run up, trample them to death and finally set fire to them. It was fun. I fell into the past when I recalled my childhood, and now I am back to the topic. ) But now these are all gone. Two brand-new teaching buildings were just built a few years ago, but they were abandoned before they started to use, because there were a lot fewer students and the teachers left. When children in our village are only five or six years old, they will go to study in the town, which is an hour's drive from home. Some relatives in the town live in relatives' homes. If there are no relatives, parents rent a house in the town, or simply buy a house for their children to study nearby, while their mothers accompany their children to study, and their fathers go out to work or farm in the countryside. It is really painstaking and costly for a family to study for a child.
Peach blossoms in spring in the countryside, fireflies in summer nights, golden rice waves in autumn and continuous bamboo forests in winter are all so touching. There are few fireflies in summer now, and there are no large golden rice waves in autumn. Because more and more fields are barren, not many people in rural areas, especially young people, go to cities to live and create more material wealth.
The countryside is getting more and more depressed, and some houses have long been uninhabited and overgrown with weeds. If you go back to your hometown at this time, all the young people are working outside, all the children are studying in the town or downtown, and there are only women and old people in the village. You may see several old people, women and a bunch of cats and dogs sunbathing under the eaves. The old people and women are thinking about their children's life in the city, or waiting for their children's phone calls or breaking their hands to index the date of their children's return home. Only during the Spring Festival will the whole village be more lively. At other times, the village looks lonely and empty, and the beauty of the village has long since disappeared.
A hopeless city life.
Children from rural areas face many difficulties in living in cities, especially in first-tier cities like Shanghai.
The first is housing. Shanghai's housing prices and rents are rising, like a hungry sponge, expanding day by day. And wages will never catch up with house prices. As long as the transportation is convenient, the rent for a single room of 10 square meters should be at least 1 0,000. People with a monthly income of no more than 4,000 can't afford to live alone, so they have rented houses and ant families, and the greatly reduced personal space has led to inner anxiety.
The second is the price, which is seriously out of proportion to the income of ordinary people. At one time, the lettuce in Shanghai rose to 9 yuan, ginger 14 yuan, and cherries were sold to 30 yuan a few days ago. At these times, I said that I can't afford to buy vegetables and fruits, and my life is under great pressure. Go to any shopping mall, and ask 500 yuan for any clothes. I think of a director (6000 yuan a month)
People in rural Jiangsu told me that he bought his own clothes. That day, he took a fancy to a down jacket in the shopping mall. The name is not big, but it cost 800 yuan. He really needs a coat in winter. He really likes that coat, but he wants 800 yuan. Then he sat in a chair outside the clothing store, fighting fiercely for a down jacket from 800 yuan. He thought about paying the rent, the daily transportation fee 12 yuan, and meals.
The third is medical health. I have a girlfriend who has a chilblain-like erythema on her calf some time ago. After going to the hospital for examination, he was diagnosed as erythema vasculitis. In fact, this is a very common skin disease, but it is more troublesome and easy to repeat. There are several weekends to accompany my girlfriend to the hospital, and the weekend registration fee is 68 yuan. Isn't that stupid? The last time I went for a reexamination, the doctor said that I needed a blood test to determine whether it was clear, whether the blood was healthy, and whether it was possible to get lupus (fuck it, the literature and art book said it was terminal), but the blood test cost more than 300 yuan. In order to buy peace of mind, my girlfriend and I bite our teeth to have a blood test. In less than 20 seconds, three small tubes of blood were gone, and more than 300 yuan was gone. She is not from Shanghai, and all medical expenses are at her own expense. A week later, on the weekend, I was on my way to a party in the Green Forest Park organized by my company (without deducting 30% of my salary).
She nervously went to get the test report alone, shivering with the report, and then called me and said excitedly that I was fine.
I was sitting in the last row of the bus, and I almost cried when I heard this.
Housing, food, clothing, medical care and health are the lowest needs of Maslow's five needs, that is, physiological needs, which are the most primitive and basic needs of human beings, but even these basic needs have never been truly met, let alone self-realization.
Pervasive anxiety
There is no place in the world where great changes are taking place every day like China. The rapid development of economy makes the whole society suffer from anxiety, and people feel insecure and homeless. City people who come out of the countryside are very anxious about their houses and cars. They wake up every day thinking about making money and work endlessly all day to make money. Ironically, people will find that no matter how hard they work, they can't afford to buy a house in Shanghai without eating or drinking for decades. How happy it is to have a Shanghai household registration. Many Shanghai classmates and friends I know have two or three houses at home. They don't need money to see a doctor, and their jobs are easy to find and stable.
Parents living in rural areas are also very anxious, worried about their children working hard in the city, worried that they will not get married, can't afford a house, and have great work pressure; Worried about their own pension problems, children are in the city, and there is no one to rely on in the countryside. They have no old-age insurance. The so-called child care for the elderly, pampered, but found that they can not afford to raise the elderly, because children in the city often can not afford to raise themselves, and some even need their help. My brother bought a house in that small city of Fuqing, Fujian, but the house price was 8000/ m2. My parents bought him a house, took out their life savings and helped borrow money everywhere. Some time ago, I saw a set of data, and the real estate bubble in Fujian has reached as high as 50%
The housing bubbles are similar all over the country. The house built by the developer plus the price of land is simply not worth the price. Because of my major, I have seen many construction sites and model houses. Those houses are of poor quality. Tap the inner wall twice with your finger and you can hear the sound on the outer wall. The so-called finely decorated mansion costs less than 2000 yuan, but it has to be sold for tens of thousands. I looked at my parents' anxiety and could do nothing but worry.
Unexpected marriage
I'm not a casual person who doesn't believe in love. Bin Laden's death, the separation of Xiao Xie and white matter will not affect my belief in love, but I believe in scientific reports and data and countless facts around me. The divorce rate in first-tier cities like Beijing and Shanghai has exceeded 30%.
Even with 40% momentum, extramarital affairs are the biggest killer of divorce. Once in a taxi, the taxi driver chatted with me. He said that among the guests he pulls every day, four of 10 are divorced. China's marital status is more fragile than ever. I didn't see a really happy young couple by my own side. It's not quarreling about the house all day, it's a crisis of trust between husband and wife, or it's because the two sides are busy with work, under great pressure and lack of spiritual communication, or it's because the children go to school in their hometown in the countryside and parents take care of each other, and then there are endless problems, such as extramarital affairs, various temptations and so on. And so many dating websites and TV dating programs let me see that material things are supreme, true love is hard to find, and it is difficult to build a family, which makes me have little expectation and confidence in marriage. I once had an eternal dream of love and marriage. Maybe I still have it now, but I'm not sure.
As a poetic and pure spiritual home, the countryside has gradually drifted away, the material life of the bustling city seems out of reach, and there is a lack of confidence in the marriage that has not yet arrived. Where is love, and why should it be pinned? The countryside is a beautiful place, and I can never go back. I also lack the courage to live in other second and third tier cities. I like the relaxed life in big cities. I have lived in Shanghai for five years, and I am very used to life here. I feel very shabby when I go to other places (I have been to Hangzhou, Nanjing, Hefei, Wuhan, Ningbo, Fuzhou, maybe compared with Shanghai), and the traffic and life are inconvenient. There are not many cars to go to a place, and you can't buy anything to eat for a while, because it is closed, you can't find a place to watch movies, and it takes half a day to find a bookstore.
My current plan is to live to 45 years old in a big city, and then find a place to give myself an injection, end my life and euthanasia. A person has no right to choose his birth and birth, but he always has the right to choose how to die.